sn - ctb in 58 hrs - goodbye thread - 14.00 GMT on 17/07/2023

[chillmungo]

58 hrs.

rolling updates on preparations for SN CTB.

seriously depleted right now, can barely write.
will get better as time approaches.

sn obtained from czechia
no way to test it. nothing to it but to do it.

making sure I use this time correctly.

It looks like the site is experiencing outages. will try to keep updating.

You never know who's life you saved by leaving them the f**k alone.

 

[day]

Safe travels OP, thanks for posting updates. That type of information is incredibly valuable. Rest well.

 

[chillmungo]

57 hrs 30 mins. Thanks. A lot of these updates will be really mundane. Just writing down little tasks to make myself do them, like how I just went out to an all night gas station and bought some food. But I'll add as much detail as possible about methods nearer the time. I'm waiting for the world to wake up so I can move around more without disturbing my neighbours. Not exactly high literature here but whatever.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

Wanna talk about it? Everyone has their own reasons to do this, what are yours? just curious

Also, i dont think doing SN without a purity test is a good idea, but if it really has to be now then i guess i cant really convince you otherwise

Safe travels OP, thanks for posting updates. That type of information is incredibly valuable. Rest well.

Same thing here, safe travels and salute in advance to you.

 

[GasMonkey]

See you on the Other Side.

 

[chillmungo]

57 hrs Watching Mulholland Drive with the sound off and listening to radiohead.

56 hrs 30 mins wasting time. Waiting for morning. Staying hydrated. This many hours is too long. I'm not gonna feel like I need more time. John Coltrane and the end of mulholland drive.

56 hrs More determined than ever. Dying to do something. Anything. Turns out every moment of my life was contingent in some way. I thought I knew on what. It's easy to forget who the hell you are. Going to sleep now even though it's not a great time. I'll have to hope there's a margin for this.

53 hrs Never did get to sleep. I'll try again soon. Not to worry.

There's nothing to talk about. It's a life. It's an entire life that leads up to this. Every experience. Every thought flying through the head at an incredible pace all day every day. Insummarisable.

 

[MrDarkness]

I hope your able to find peace, I'll join you soon

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you a pleasant journey and I hope you find peace on the other side! Farewell!

PS: I really hope this fuching attackers don't disturb your journey any more. nobody wants to be lonely in such moments!

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope that when the time is right for you to leave you find the freedom you are searching for, best wishes and farewell.

 

[chillmungo]

43 hours
Take a shower, brush teeth, shave. Feeling paranoid about hackers finding my location and calling police. Everyone has a right to die. Everyone dies anyway.

 

[chillmungo]

40 hours. No idea what to do all night. Just waiting politely for the suitable moment to ctb. Wish I'd always known the exact day I would do this. I could have planned every last minute of every year accordingly.

 

[Valky]

I am so sorry That this world could not keep you safe.
It looks like you are determined but remember, that it is never too late to reach out.

Having said that, I wish you nothing but the best and safe travels! <3

 

[Minsu]

58 hrs.

rolling updates on preparations for SN CTB.

seriously depleted right now, can barely write.
will get better as time approaches.

sn obtained from czechia
no way to test it. nothing to it but to do it.

making sure I use this time correctly.

It looks like the site is experiencing outages. will try to keep updating.

You never know who's life you saved by leaving them the f**k alone.

Where are you from if I may ask? I obtained sn from czechia too

 

[stilldreaming]

I wish I could say something comforting, but I just hope you're at peace and comfortable. And, if you feel like sticking around, everyone here would be so happy to hear about it. We just want what's best for you, whatever that is.

 

[deomlez]

Have a nice joirney and may find peace.
Good music.

 

[chillmungo]

39 hrs.

Oh my god, you're all so nice. It's ok stilldreaming, you don't have to say anything comforting. The beautiful thing about this forum is that we don't have to feel ok. Sorry asiancupcake, but I can't risk telling everyone where I'm from because I desperately don't want to be "saved." Maybe I'll say at the end if it matters. I'll make fewer and hopefully more interesting updates.

 

[rats]

Safe travels

 

[saddestbunny]

go in peace and find rest, I'll be seeing U on the other side hopefully in not too long

 

[Gonnerr]

Good luck , I hope you escape peacefully.

 

[Dead Already]

Hope you find peace.
Relief from what humanity has become.
Safe travels, restful rewards.

 

[Anon1337]

All the best.

 

[SVEN]

This waiting time too will pass. We get how slowly time can go, every good wish for the fulfilment you seek.

 

[sayire]

wish you peace

 

[chillmungo]

34 hours.

First antiemetic dose in 2 hours.

Thanks for the kind messages. A lot of people are saying 'see you on the other side,' and I know it's a figure of speech and a nice thing to say, but I'm pretty certain that there's no other side. I couldn't know this for sure but I worry that anyone might ctb with the expectation of another life afterwards. I reckon this is the only life we get; the only earth on which we get to make things happen. I'm certain it's time to leave but this is a beautiful world full of incredible possibilities. I know that's a strange thing to say here.

 

[Zegers]

May we find wellness

this is the only life

No one knows for sure what is behind the walls.

 

[cicadafriend]

57 hrs Watching Mulholland Drive with the sound off and listening to radiohead.

No way! I'm also a big david lynch and radiohead fan. Best of travels to you friend. Wishing you peace for your entire journey.

 

[Zeusman8506]

Thank you so much for sharing your journey. As far as the other side i have no idea never think about it.
Your post will help so many here i am sure i am not alone when i express concerns regarding success. I am within 10 days of being where you are now.
Other side or not they wont be able to abuse me anymore

 

[heavyeyes]

Goodluck and safe travels <3

 

[Huntfish34]

I wish you Nothing but the best in whatever may happen, Godspeed-

Yepp, you're right I agree; But sadly with All of the wonderful and amazing things life can offer.... I don't care anymore, I throw in the fckn towel. I'm about Done myself.

 

[chillmungo]

32 hours to go. 6am. first antiemetic taken. Domperidone. "There is hope, but not for us." - Franz Kafka