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Not english native speaker. Ctb is my life.
- May 19, 2023
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Nude from Radiohead is a good song to listen for passing.
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I'll appreciate if you post your musicI'm gonna try to compose a little piece of music later and post it here. I don't know why. I think my first goal in life was to compose little pieces of music and put them out into the world.
Thanks. I have to compose it first. I've always compulsively deleted or destroyed every piece of art I've ever made, so I have nothing to show you right now. To get the timing right to ctb in 24hrs I have to sleep now, then I'll stay up all night composing and post a youtube link here in the morning.I hope you post some of your music soon.
Take however long you need. Sleep well, I can't wait to hear it. Thank you for taking the time to consider showing us your work.Thanks. I have to compose it first. I've always compulsively deleted or destroyed every piece of art I've ever made, so I have nothing to show you right now. To get the timing right to ctb in 24hrs I have to sleep now, then I'll stay up all night composing and post a youtube link here in the morning.
Shit me too.Wish you peace for eternity.
I might follow you in a few months myself.
Sodium nitrite.I m deeply touched by your openness.... thank you. I wish you peace in eternity.
May I ask, what "SN" means?
I'll be watching closely should you also regularly update your experience once you take SN
Each time I read people's goodbye threads my heart breaks.
best of luck, buddy. care to share your regimen?
Day 1 | Medication and Dose |
08:00hrs | 1 X 10mg Metoclopramide |
16:00hrs | 1 X 10mg Metoclopramide |
24:00hrs | 1 X 10mg Metoclopramide |
Day 2 | Medication and Dose |
08:00hrs | 1 X 10mg Metoclopramide |
16:00hrs | 1 X 10mg Metoclopramide |
23:00hrs | 600mg of Ibuprofen or 1000mg of paracetamol. You can use any painkiller as long as you stay within the recommended dose |
23:15hrs | 3 X 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total) |
23:30hrs | Double dose of what is recommended on the label of the antacid. |
24:00hrs | SN drink |
I truly do wish you the best with all of this. As Per PPH and some of what Vizzy himself stated, Antacid isn't needed but hey, members who were here years ago and apparently ctb with SN did use it.View attachment 116212
Awake. 3rd domperidone taken. Starting composition now.
I'm not sure if I should do that, as the site might still be open on my browser when I pass out, and I might need to really focus on not vomiting. I'll see what I can do.
It doesn't have to be a heartbreaking thing. My heart breaks for people chained to the world, unable to leave.
The regimen is this, taken from Vizzy's SN Bible, but with the times adjusted for CTB at 2pm and domperidone instead of metoclopramide.
Day 1 Medication and Dose 08:00hrs 1 X 10mg Metoclopramide 16:00hrs 1 X 10mg Metoclopramide 24:00hrs 1 X 10mg Metoclopramide Day 2 Medication and Dose 08:00hrs 1 X 10mg Metoclopramide 16:00hrs 1 X 10mg Metoclopramide 23:00hrs 600mg of Ibuprofen or 1000mg of paracetamol. You can use any painkiller as long as you stay within the recommended dose 23:15hrs 3 X 10mg Metoclopramide (30mg in total) 23:30hrs Double dose of what is recommended on the label of the antacid. 24:00hrs SN drink
I've had similar thoughts (not about SN or this site in particular, but just going out on my own terms using a relatively "peaceful" method, as well as finding supportive communities, in general). I could've gotten my affairs in order instead of leaving a mess, left some money for the one family member I care about instead of going into debt just to drag out the inevitable, maybe crossed off a few things from my bucket list, and passed during some of the more "peaceful" times during the pandemic shutdown.I have to just run around taking care of the ordinary admin of a life. I wish I'd known about this site and SN sooner.
It's a life. It's an entire life that leads up to this. Every experience. Every thought flying through the head at an incredible pace all day every day. Insummarisable.Why have you had these thoughts since you were a kid?
I really hope you well be relieved.