sn - ctb in 58 hrs - goodbye thread - 14.00 GMT on 17/07/2023

[nomennescio]

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liquid fast begins.

I'll try to post more frequently and interestingly but I'm not sure how much I want to say here in case any of this is preserved and found by people in my life I'm trying to get away from.



probably, but I'd hate to mess up my own ctb and then live with the responsibility for someone else's death. It's terrible that these dilemmas are foisted on people by a society so phobic of death, even though it happens to everyone.



Basically trying to start doing something and then vacillating. I've watched two lectures about world wars i and ii. For no reason. I have nothing to do with this information.

Understandable.
Glad youre getting through time in a relaxed way.

And like owl_07 said, youre very courageous. I admire how securely and precisely and everything, just the whole way how youre handling it. Im sure you will stay relaxed and go smooth cause you deserve it.

 

[chillmungo]

 

[LoiteringClouds]

Hello @chillmungo,

Thanks so much for sharing your music
I'm clueless about music and I hope I won't offend you, but your pieces of music are a bit scary for me. "12 hrs" (first one) is more frightening than "9 hrs 50 min" (the second one.)
If they were from a video game, it would be played when the game is over, or when somebody is about to be killed...

How do you feel about them? Some people find them comforting, I guess...

 

[Deleted member 65988]

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Very nice that you have a scale because I've seen people just rough guess it with teaspoons but it better to be safe than sorry.

 

[chillmungo]

Hello @chillmungo,




Thanks so much for sharing your music
I'm clueless about music and I hope I won't offend you, but your pieces of music are a bit scary for me. "12 hrs" (first one) is more frightening than "9 hrs 50 min" (the second one.)
If they were from a video game, it would be played when the game is over, or when somebody is about to be killed...

How do you feel about them? Some people find them comforting, I guess...

Thanks, I guess there's something kind of doom-laden about them. They were composed on flat.io a few hours ago in the middle of the night. I remember thinking I could do something jumpy and fun in the c blues scale but it just didn't feel appropriate. I'm so inexperienced as a composer that I'm lucky to come up with something that makes any musical sense, let alone a piece that conveys a strong mood.

 

[sorrowful]

Safe travels. I wish you eternal peace <3.

 

[11April]

While you are still here, I want to wish you a peaceful departure.

 

[chillmungo]

I want to thank Sanctioned Suicide for making this possible. People are getting badly injured and disabled for life by failed attempts because they don't live in a world with a mature understanding of suicide. People are breaking their legs on the net under the Golden Gate bridge and being dragged back to "just keep going." So much about this attempt is flawed because it has to be done illicitly. I have to sneak off the earth like a thief in the night.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

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I want to thank Sanctioned Suicide for making this possible. People are getting badly injured and disabled for life by failed attempts because they don't live in a world with a mature understanding of suicide. People are breaking their legs on the net under the Golden Gate bridge and being dragged back to "just keep going." So much about this attempt is flawed because it has to be done illicitly. I have to sneak off the earth like a thief in the night.

well said, it's just so sad that people have to go that far to resort to such methods, then dragged back in by being taken to psych wards where they don't get any better, all in an effort of just trying to keep them around. SN is at least better than some of the more violent and commonly failed methods even if it isn't perfect but I truly do hope you'll have a smooth experience with it.

 

[deomlez]

Have a nice trip.you may be in the train, they are closing the doors, the departure is imminent...

 

[nomennescio]

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I want to thank Sanctioned Suicide for making this possible. People are getting badly injured and disabled for life by failed attempts because they don't live in a world with a mature understanding of suicide. People are breaking their legs on the net under the Golden Gate bridge and being dragged back to "just keep going." So much about this attempt is flawed because it has to be done illicitly. I have to sneak off the earth like a thief in the night.

Thanks to you for sharing and trusting us. Its incredible sad how our world handles and views this, and what the consequences of it are. So much extra unnecessarily suffering.. for those who alreqdy suffer.

Hope everything is still going well friend. Peace soon.

 

[90starve]

thinking of you right now. not long to go - i hope that your passing is quick and peaceful <3

 

[chillmungo]

One hour left nothing to say. Nothing to write. Just animal centredness from now on.
paracetamol taken
music selected - The July Tree by Nina Simone and It's Alright Ma by Bob Dylan.
last three domperidone taken

 

[nomennescio]

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One hour left nothing to say. Nothing to write. Just animal centredness from now on.
paracetamol taken
music selected - The July Tree by Nina Simone and It's Alright Ma by Bob Dylan.
last three domperidone taken

Good choice of music

 

[chillmungo]

last antacid taken
stepped outside for a last breath of air. With a bit of luck I'll never leave this room alive.
all emails and files deleted.
2 glasses filled with 100ml of water

 

[Huntfish34]

I wish you Nothing but the best in whatever may happen, thoughts and prayers to you always. ♥

Angels East, Angels West, please protect and guard him while he's at Rest.

 

[chillmungo]

10 minutes - mixing SN drinks now, measuring out thirty grams for each glass.
3 mins drinks are mixed. SN is yellowish white. google says that's normal.

 

[scorchie]

farewell may you find peace

 

[chillmungo]

1 min - stir again, drink, lay on right side.

SN is drunk. turning everything off.

 

[love_peep]

goodluck bro its time to leave this world

 

[Deleted member 65988]

1 min - stir again, drink, lay on right side.

SN is drunk. turning everything off.

May your journey be without discomfort, Goodbye @chillmungo

 

[Owl_07]

Godspeed you @chillmungo ! May your journey be restfull

 

[XdragonsoulX]

Safe travels

 

[Elle]

Good luck

 

[Rust20]

Farewell my friend

 

[nomennescio]

Goodbye good soul

 

[HouseofMortok]

Farewell. May you rest in a deep and dreamless slumber.

 

[90starve]

rest easy <3

 

[Fktw0rld]

I envy this OP. I hope I can be as nonchalant and passive when my day comes. I don't understand how SI is so powerful when all that's waiting for us on the other side is eternal peace. Life fuckin sucks horribly and miserably. I gotta make my exit soon. Love and respect to you @chillmungo. I know you'll never see this but thank you. It changed my perspective on a lot of what awaits me. I hope to join you on the other side soon

 

[lethargic]

Safe travels my friend. I hope you find peace.