Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Arot]

Alone.
Without purpose.
Grim future.

 

[Seaghost]

I am? What? Dont know. I ve lost.
Back in hospital. Not able to be at home.
We'll get a new terrible Person in our flat sharing.
Feeling helpless. I don't want to be helpless.
Tired

 

[Life_and_Death]

i want to cut my heart out of my chest and give it to you..
i want to scratch and destroy my face until its unrecognizable..

i should have never tried to better my situation..
you cant miss what you dont know....

im sorry someone like me wanted to be with you...
i really just cant help feeling that the best way for me to show i love you is to kill myself

id do anything for you but i havent done that.
fuck i wish id just do it.....

 

[Final_Choice]

I'm so tired and exhausted, I can't keep up. I know I'll keep trying till exhaustion kills me, I just hope it'll kill me soon. I just want to rest and not think anymore.

 

[LostInTheWoods]

miserable

 

[m_account]

Don't want to exist but the music is so awesome.

 

[tiger b]

Feeeedmeeeeee

 

[Life_and_Death]

if i wasnt alive then nothing involving me would happen....

i wish i wasnt alive...

 

[S like Siren]

I am so scared
Please someone help me...i don't know what to do anymore
I am screaming internally

 

[stillvoices]

Sad, insignificant

I wrote a poem I think in the 90's it's published but can't remember where. Think i was 15.

Alone
Used
Torture
Thrown away like yesterday.
Beaten
Molested
Hoping the world won't see the pain I'm feeling.
Hiding in corners
Screaming in terror
Silently wanting to be held when I have no one to tell.

 

[yonise4]

unaccomplished

 

[LostInTheWoods]

Desperate. The feeling that the only meaningful relationship was almost only virtual and it ended with a fake created on a forum, it makes me embarassed and useless. This is my life. An alien who cant speak with anyone who is so pathetic to still think about a person who saw 6 times in all his life. And not because I am in love, but just because i'm too strange to make other friends. That's how pathetic i'm. But can I blame myself? They were so sincere and nice to me. I really would like to write them again but I cant, normal people have a life you can write after years just for a friendship, it makes you a fool and they anxious, so...

 

[Zegers]

This neighbourhood is a cesspit, neighbours are a bunch of hateful scum, continually tittle-tattle about others. For years in such a hostile place is depressing.

 

[L0nely]

Had shitty day, just sad and angry and frustrated whole day, now that I've been chilling at home I feel more at peace, calm

 

[S like Siren]

Today I felt a new determination arising again and hopefully very soon i will attempt suicide again...i want die,i want really die with all myself please make it happen this time.

 

[SafferGuy]

Don't want to exist but the music is so awesome.

Music is life

 

[vivisectiondoll]

I feel so lamentably human. Somewhere, hidden in the rubble of my anguish, there is a girl killing herself to be seen. I want to hold her.

 

[qonav]

Sad, a pain that nests itself deep inside my chest yet despite how much it hurts I feel at peace. I'm tired. Worried about backing off. Hoping I won't.

 

[Zegers]

Having a life with hardly any family, no friends, depression and in solitude is hell-like, i have been overwhelmed by anxiety, sadness, loneliness for so many years that at this point barely feel anything but numbness and sadness, what i wish is to find the moment and leave.

 

[KillerIsMe]

The chorus of "Stereo" by Pavement

 

[finalrequiem]

Sad. Tired. Can't sleep. Wishing so badly I had N

 

[just_a_guy]

I'm lonely and a lot of it is my own fault. I have so many regrets and I spend more time than I'd like thinking about the past and casting wishes and prayers into the dark unknown in the hope that I can fix something.

 

[HollowDrop]

Lately tired all the time but maybe that is because I'm barely eating.

 

[BlackMoon]

I'm hungry and tired and depressed because I feel f- alone.

 

[KillerIsMe]

This is not meant to be offensive, "99 Problems", but maybe try not to identify so deeply with the BPD label? If might be causing you to reflect more on the distress you feel

 

[Passersby]

Why does everything have to be so hard? Life is so hard and so much work to just even exist. I will be stuck in this repetitive cycle until I die. I have done the best I could do. I cant imagine continuing the cycle to just to get worse on down the road. I'm exhausted. There's nothing to be done. I can't keep doing this.

 

[Life_and_Death]

im so tired of myself it feels like my bpd itself is too tired to react. just "yeah whatever i cant be bothered to care"

 

[greebo6]

Lonely

 

[therenexuefrbue]

anxious - thoughts racing all the time. whenever I used to write about my feelings, I'd usually start with "I feel empty nothingness, like inside is just a void" (or something to that effect), but now all I can do is think. I've constantly got this tightness as if I've got work due in the next thirty seconds but there's not really anything there for me to be anxious about. I mean, I've got self-imposed deadlines for my christmas music that I want to record, and I always feel like I'm counting down to payday even when I have plenty of money in savings, but other than that I just don't know. it feels like I'm forgetting something important, but I don't know what. I want to cry sometimes, but I just can't. it's been so long since I did properly that I don't know how anymore, and nothing seems to push me over the edge enough to actually make me cry. this means I resort to other coping mechanisms, and then the urges to sh come back. I force myself not to, because I know it only makes things worse, but I need some kind of way to release my emotions. today was my last day at my second job, which I'm hoping will fix a lot of things (because I'll only be working 35 hours a week instead of 50 lmao), but I also feel like I've been using my overworking as an excuse too much. I feel that I've become distant from my partner even though I love her - I just don't have the motivation or energy to talk to her as much as I'd like to. anyway, I need sleep so I'm going to stop typing now. this felt better than just typing into a google doc though, so I'll probably be back some time soon

 

[Life_and_Death]

i loved getting blamed because the human race sucks

apparently, according to 1 idiot, i need a psychiatrist because i dare to want to be treated with respect and not talk about my trauma all the time.

i need the help, im "cruel" because other people are fucking assholes and im sick of it. yeah...that makes sense.

its everyone else that needs the fucking help. send them all back to kindergarten so they can learn when to shut the fuck up.