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Rose Mirren

Rose Mirren

roses are so overrated
Dec 10, 2018
101
I feel empty. Like if you slice me open, you'll find nothing there. Just black emptiness. I go through life mechanically, and it's like every emotion I feel is fake. Like they're really just at the surface. Beneath, there's nothing. It's weird. I know what to feel but I don't feel it.

I'm hurting and because of that, I end up hurting others. I don't want to cause pain anymore. I don't want to feel pain anymore. I just want it all to end.
 
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Xerxes

Xerxes

Invisible
Nov 8, 2018
936
Lazy and don't feel like grocery shopping at the moment.
 
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Smilla

Smilla

Visionary
Apr 30, 2018
2,549
Overwhelming sadness and self pity
 
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15dec

15dec

ember in the dark
Dec 7, 2018
1,550
Mostly empty. Kind of sad, kind of peaceful. Tired too.
 
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blueming

blueming

if we can stand outside the borders of time
Sep 21, 2018
247
Exhausted. Want to sleep and never wake up.
 
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11Banger

Asshat
Dec 10, 2018
1
Just looking for an answer to all my problems
 
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Eden2k

Eden2k

Experienced
Nov 20, 2018
228
Agitated and exhausted
 
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Mixk009

Member
Nov 26, 2018
48
I'm really desperate to die
 
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therhydler

therhydler

Enlightened
Dec 7, 2018
1,196
Dread and disbelief. That it has come to this. It feels like my heart is being torn open every second afresh. Anger at myself that I can see no other way. And disgust
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I feel like shit today and got little accomplished. I think I have a sleep phase disorder so in the morning it's just hell. I can't get moving or mindfuck myself into it lol! I felt so insecure today about everything it sucked. I bleached my hair and getting ready to dye some pink into it :) I guess that gave me a tiny bit of joy. Different hair to look at. I did shower, brush teeth, eat.
 
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sólstafir

Experienced
Nov 1, 2018
207
Ready to die. I can't believe I say this. It was always kinda like distant thought, but right now it feels I'm so ready. It may feel different tomorrow, but right now...ready!
 
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Rose Mirren

Rose Mirren

roses are so overrated
Dec 10, 2018
101
Mostly empty. Kind of sad, kind of peaceful. Tired too.
I feel you. It's a disturbing kind of peace. Hard to explain.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,662
Numb and a bit sleepy.
 
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Rose Mirren

Rose Mirren

roses are so overrated
Dec 10, 2018
101
I feel like shit today and got little accomplished. I think I have a sleep phase disorder so in the morning it's just hell. I can't get moving or mindfuck myself into it lol! I felt so insecure today about everything it sucked. I bleached my hair and getting ready to dye some pink into it :) I guess that gave me a tiny bit of joy. Different hair to look at. I did shower, brush teeth, eat.
Hey, congrats on showering, brushing, and eating! Also, I feel you. I looked in the mirror once and it was like I didn't look like how I felt... so I dyed my hair HAHAHA and for the first time too! It did bring happiness that lasted for quite a while. Glad you're doing something that makes you even just a tiny bit happy :)
 
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Rose Mirren

Rose Mirren

roses are so overrated
Dec 10, 2018
101
Ready to die. I can't believe I say this. It was always kinda like distant thought, but right now it feels I'm so ready. It may feel different tomorrow, but right now...ready!
Even if you feel different tomorrow, that won't invalidate your being ready to die right now. At least being sure abt something kinda lessens the chaos, right?
 
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sólstafir

Experienced
Nov 1, 2018
207
Even if you feel different tomorrow, that won't invalidate your being ready to die right now. At least being sure abt something kinda lessens the chaos, right?

Exactly how you expressed it -'being sure about something lessens the chaos' indeed!
 
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Eren

Eren

Si hablas español mándame un MP
Oct 27, 2018
1,075
Paranoid and depressed
 
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Kdawg2018

Kdawg2018

Still here...
Nov 10, 2018
272
Depressed, lonely, sick, and and like rotting flesh
 
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Xerxes

Xerxes

Invisible
Nov 8, 2018
936
Yay, I got out to do grocery shopping, do laundry, and now need to find the urge to cook.
 
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MsM3talGamer

Voluntary deletion
Nov 28, 2018
1,504
Exhausted and fed up but I can't sleep due to fucking insomnia.
 
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ReadyasEver

ReadyasEver

Elementalist
Dec 6, 2018
828
Fatigue at times, some physical pain but very manageable, and a sense of resolution.
 
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Midnight

Midnight

Beyond solace
Jun 30, 2018
624
No joy left ... It's got to end next year for real. Darkness has nearly swallowed me whole... I don't need light at the end of the tunnel. Just eternal nothingness.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
My pink didn't take evenly :(" but I applied it evenly. Ugh! Lol! It's a semipermanent color and I have stuff to remove it easy but I was excited for it to turn out. My hair has been my ongoing project lately lol! I'm trying to keep it light but just not bleach blond. It's a bit too light for my complexion.
 
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LivedTooLong

LivedTooLong

Avoidant
Apr 26, 2018
155
Fatigue, loneliness, and a sense of doom.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
Yay, I got out to do grocery shopping, do laundry, and now need to find the urge to cook.
Good job :) proud of u. I know right, when little things are a struggle u need encouragement, praise, and to be compassionate and patient with yourself.
 
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Going Home

Going Home

Specialist
Sep 21, 2018
357
Violated
 
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Rose Mirren

Rose Mirren

roses are so overrated
Dec 10, 2018
101
Yay, I got out to do grocery shopping, do laundry, and now need to find the urge to cook.
Good for you! One thing at a time!

(also why is it so easy to root for others to do well in their lives but when it's my life, I'm just... meh. hahaha)
 
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Rose Mirren

Rose Mirren

roses are so overrated
Dec 10, 2018
101
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Rose Mirren

Rose Mirren

roses are so overrated
Dec 10, 2018
101
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