Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[deadtomorrow]

Very stimulated, but i still feel nothing at all. No sadness, anger, happiness...

 

[outatime_85]

My life is weighing on me.

My loneliness and depression are gaining on me.

My sadness, which I feel every day, is relentless.

Auditory hallucinations won't go away.

No ability to bond with anyone.

Every day, thoughts of self-termination plague me.

Nobody in my circle cares about what I am going through or believes in mental health.

My time is just about up.

My demons are going to win.

 

[Life_and_Death]

well... im back...

 

[Arot]

Alone.
Without purpose.
Grim future.

 

[Seaghost]

I am? What? Dont know. I ve lost.
Back in hospital. Not able to be at home.
We'll get a new terrible Person in our flat sharing.
Feeling helpless. I don't want to be helpless.
Tired

 

[Life_and_Death]

i want to cut my heart out of my chest and give it to you..
i want to scratch and destroy my face until its unrecognizable..

i should have never tried to better my situation..
you cant miss what you dont know....

im sorry someone like me wanted to be with you...
i really just cant help feeling that the best way for me to show i love you is to kill myself

id do anything for you but i havent done that.
fuck i wish id just do it.....

 

[Final_Choice]

I'm so tired and exhausted, I can't keep up. I know I'll keep trying till exhaustion kills me, I just hope it'll kill me soon. I just want to rest and not think anymore.

 

[LostInTheWoods]

miserable

 

[m_account]

Don't want to exist but the music is so awesome.

 

[tiger b]

Feeeedmeeeeee

 

[Life_and_Death]

if i wasnt alive then nothing involving me would happen....

i wish i wasnt alive...

 

[nozomu]

I want to be saved so badly, why isn't anyone coming to save me when I dedicate my life to others. Fuck.

 

[S like suicide]

I am so scared
Please someone help me...i don't know what to do anymore
I am screaming internally

 

[stillvoices]

Sad, insignificant

I wrote a poem I think in the 90's it's published but can't remember where. Think i was 15.

Alone
Used
Torture
Thrown away like yesterday.
Beaten
Molested
Hoping the world won't see the pain I'm feeling.
Hiding in corners
Screaming in terror
Silently wanting to be held when I have no one to tell.

 

[yonise4]

unaccomplished

 

[LostInTheWoods]

Desperate. The feeling that the only meaningful relationship was almost only virtual and it ended with a fake created on a forum, it makes me embarassed and useless. This is my life. An alien who cant speak with anyone who is so pathetic to still think about a person who saw 6 times in all his life. And not because I am in love, but just because i'm too strange to make other friends. That's how pathetic i'm. But can I blame myself? They were so sincere and nice to me. I really would like to write them again but I cant, normal people have a life you can write after years just for a friendship, it makes you a fool and they anxious, so...

 

[Zegers]

This neighbourhood is a cesspit, neighbours are a bunch of hateful scum, continually tittle-tattle about others. For years in such a hostile place is depressing.

 

[L0nely]

Had shitty day, just sad and angry and frustrated whole day, now that I've been chilling at home I feel more at peace, calm

 

[S like suicide]

Today I felt a new determination arising again and hopefully very soon i will attempt suicide again...i want die,i want really die with all myself please make it happen this time.

 

[SafferGuy]

Don't want to exist but the music is so awesome.

Music is life

 

[vivisectiondoll]

I feel so lamentably human. Somewhere, hidden in the rubble of my anguish, there is a girl killing herself to be seen. I want to hold her.

 

[qonav]

Sad, a pain that nests itself deep inside my chest yet despite how much it hurts I feel at peace. I'm tired. Worried about backing off. Hoping I won't.

 

[Zegers]

Having a life with hardly any family, no friends, depression and in solitude is hell-like, i have been overwhelmed by anxiety, sadness, loneliness for so many years that at this point barely feel anything but numbness and sadness, what i wish is to find the moment and leave.

 

[KillerIsMe]

The chorus of "Stereo" by Pavement

 

[finalrequiem]

Sad. Tired. Can't sleep. Wishing so badly I had N

 

[just_a_guy]

I'm lonely and a lot of it is my own fault. I have so many regrets and I spend more time than I'd like thinking about the past and casting wishes and prayers into the dark unknown in the hope that I can fix something.

 

[HollowDrop]

Lately tired all the time but maybe that is because I'm barely eating.

 

[BlackMoon]

I'm hungry and tired and depressed because I feel f- alone.

 

[KillerIsMe]

This is not meant to be offensive, "99 Problems", but maybe try not to identify so deeply with the BPD label? If might be causing you to reflect more on the distress you feel

 

[Passersby]

Why does everything have to be so hard? Life is so hard and so much work to just even exist. I will be stuck in this repetitive cycle until I die. I have done the best I could do. I cant imagine continuing the cycle to just to get worse on down the road. I'm exhausted. There's nothing to be done. I can't keep doing this.