Goodbye Thread

[HopefulSleep]

I will try shallow water blackout in some hours when my family is asleep in my bath tub I will hyperventilate until the water filled the whole bath and then stick my head in the water and if it works I am dead.
If I can't get the swb to work I will wait for the best oppurtunity to use the sn, I will use it in the shower while it is on when my family sleeps to suppress the vomit sounds and hope the shower doesn't wake them up.

My reason for suicide are unwanted thoughts that resulted from abuse, it feels wrong when the brain makes me think stuff that hurts me and I don't have much to loose anyway most people just hurt me.

I will update whether the swb worked or not.

Keep in mind it could take up to august until I ctb but I wanted to make this thread if the swb works.
I will maybe don't do it today but in some days so people I know from this site can respond to the thread before I am dead but I will still try hyperventilating.

Until I manage to ctb I will play some games, I currently play half life alyx with no vr mod.

Special thanks to: @7@vuse99 , @PurpleParadigm , @dimstar , @cami , @90starve , @liljeep , @GasMonkey , @vulkann , @CTB Dream , @MusicEnjoyer:D , @toofargone6969 , @nothingissacred , @dweams , @Kasumi , @heavyeyes , @Kerrtu , @squirley , @_Minsk , @tosch , @Octavia
Sorry if I forgot to mention anyone

 

[rustinpeacepolaris]

good luck

 

[day]

Best of luck on your journey OP. Wish you well.

 

[bedtimebabe]

I hope all goes well for you. Safe travels to the Other side~

 

[OnceThougtTwiceDone]

Goodbye, and better luck with the forgotten past in your future life, if you succeed.

 

[HopefulSleep]

good luck

Best of luck on your journey OP. Wish you well.

I hope all goes well for you. Safe travels to the Other side~

Goodbye

Thank you all

and better luck with the forgotten past in your future life

I hope I will forget it all unfair world.
I hope in afterlife I am happy whatever comes or that I will be in world similar to kirbys dreamland or other happy fictional world or being a bird that flies through a colorful world.

if you succeed

I will do everything to not fail, I don't want psych ward torture again and I believe my mom would kick me out I hate her.

 

[im here i guess]

Good luck. I didn't talk to you much, but you seemed very nice. Itll be slightly sad for me to not see you around anymore, but I know you'll be in a better place. Good luck. hopefully when I join you we can be friends in a better place :)

 

[MrDarkness]

I've seen you on this board for awhile, thanks for the sn even tho it's euro only, it was nice seeing your posts, im gonna miss you bro, I hope your able find peace. I'll join you soon if you pass. God speed

 

[HopefulSleep]

Good luck.

Thank you

I didn't talk to you much, but you seemed very nice. Itll be slightly sad for me to not see you around anymore, but I know you'll be in a better place.

I am also sad that I won't see my friends on here anymore and you also seem nice :)

hopefully when I join you we can be friends in a better place :)

yes!!!

I've seen you on this board for awhile, thanks for the sn even tho it's euro only

no problem.

it was nice seeing your posts, im gonna miss you bro

I am also going to miss you :(

I'll join you soon if you pass. God speed

What do you mean?
You will ctb after I died directly?



Btw I will probably not attempt today cause I don't want to die before my friends on here saw this post but I will practice hyperventilation.

 

[MrDarkness]

Thank you

I am also sad that I won't see my friends on here anymore and you also seem nice :)

yes!!!

no problem.

I am also going to miss you :(

What do you mean?
You will ctb after I died directly?
Btw I will probably not attempt today cause I don't want to die before my friends on here saw this post but I will practice hyperventilation

I plan on dying soon, probably a week or close to a month, I'm done with life. But yeah, I plan on passing soon that's for sure

 

[HopefulSleep]

I plan on dying soon, probably a week or close to a month, I'm done with life. But yeah, I plan on passing soon that's for sure

Good travels



This was the only place I could speak up about all my feelings


I will eat a muffin then I will practice swb in the bath tub how exactly I should position and try to hyperventilate longer my record was 3 minutes but I won't actually attempt today cause other friends on here didn't see this post.


You know those otter youtube videos?
They seem really happy I think being an otter with a good owner would be an enjoyable life

 

[CTB Dream]

Vry sry,this lif sffr cruel yea human abuse cruel hurt, hope peace

 

[HopefulSleep]

Vry sry,this lif sffr cruel yea human abuse cruel hurt, hope peace

Thanks friend
I will practice hyperventilating now and take a bath

 

[majmun32]

Thanks friend
I will practice hyperventilating now and take a bath

Did it work?

 

[HopefulSleep]

Did it work?

I am still in the bath I managed to hyperventilate for 10 mintes!
I felt really dizzy and weak but also a bit euphoric but I didn't pass out but I can imagine it would have been the end if I sticked my head in the water.

 

[heavyeyes]

Goodbye dear friend. It's really sad to see you go but I hope you'll finally find peace. Goodluck and safe travels I hope I'm not too late in saying goodbye. I hope I can join you soon and I hope we meet again someday

 

[majmun32]

I am still in the bath I managed to hyperventilate for 10 mintes!
I felt really dizzy and weak but also a bit euphoric but I didn't pass out but I can imagine it would have been the end if I sticked my head in the water.

I have seen one of your earlier posts where you wanted to use resarch chemicals to cbt. What made you change your mind?

 

[mb0099]

I'm new here, been reading for many months, but having difficulty following and understanding some of the structure, but I'm hearing your pain. This world clearly isn't meant for all of us, life isn't perfect for anyone, but seems like some of us have a disproportionate amount of pain and suffering dealt to us. I'm sorry you are one of those. Wishing you peace and success in your journey to freedom from pain.

 

[saddestbunny]

thought ur contributions were always worth a read, I hope you find the peace you are looking for

rest well

 

[l0stc4use]

i hope u have a peaceful travel, i'm sorry the world didn't treat u better

 

[HopefulSleep]

Goodbye dear friend. It's really sad to see you go but I hope you'll finally find peace. Goodluck and safe travels I hope I'm not too late in saying goodbye. I hope I can join you soon and I hope we meet again someday

Thanks I hope I will see you again too <3

I have seen one of your earlier posts where you wanted to use resarch chemicals to cbt. What made you change your mind?

I am poor other methods are cheaper.

I'm new here, been reading for many months, but having difficulty following and understanding some of the structure, but I'm hearing your pain. This world clearly isn't meant for all of us, life isn't perfect for anyone, but seems like some of us have a disproportionate amount of pain and suffering dealt to us. I'm sorry you are one of those. Wishing you peace and success in your journey to freedom from pain.

Luck dependent.

thought ur contributions were always worth a read, I hope you find the peace you are looking for

rest well

Thanks.

i hope u have a peaceful travel, i'm sorry the world didn't treat u better

Thanks and I hate the world.



I will try to sleep now btw I will try swb some days later for real not practicing.

 

[majmun32]

Thanks I hope I will see you again too <3

I am poor other methods are cheaper.

Luck dependent.

Thanks.

Thanks and I hate the world.



I will try to sleep now btw I will try swb some days later for real not practicing.

Hope you finaly get set free from your pain brother,best of luck.

 

[liljeep]

I've been happy getting to know you these past few weeks, I wish I could've met you sooner. I'll miss you, and goodbye, you deserved much better than what you experienced. <3

 

[Kerrtu]

@HopefulSleep - I am finally able to log back in and am so sorry I am late to this post and thread.

I am thinking of you ♡

In reading through this thread, when you were describing a possible afterlife, I hope there is one for you, with no recollection of this hell you have endured. If there is that possibility, may that next world, next life be so beautiful and show you love. May it treat you with kindness always. One thing I feel certain of, no matter what - there will be peace.

Fly free, sweet bird, into those color-streaked skies.



If you do fly around Kirby's Dreamland, I hope Coo will guide you ♡



An extra Owl friend for you, Forever -

 

[StarFaded]

I'm very sorry that life has been cruel to you..... I hope you'll soon find the peace you're looking for, and I wish you well on your journey.

@HopefulSleep - I am finally able to log back in and am so sorry I am late to this post and thread.

I am thinking of you ♡

In reading through this thread, when you were describing a possible afterlife, I hope there is one for you, with no recollection of this hell you have endured. If there is that possibility, may that next world, next life be so beautiful and show you love. May it treat you with kindness always. One thing I feel certain of, no matter what - there will be peace.

Fly free, sweet bird, into those color-streaked skies.



If you do fly around Kirby's Dreamland, I hope Coo will guide you ♡

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An extra Owl friend for you, Forever -

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The Kirby and Coo made me cry..... This is so beautiful.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I hope you find peace! Good luck with your plans! Farewell!

 

[90starve]

I will try shallow water blackout in some hours when my family is asleep in my bath tub I will hyperventilate until the water filled the whole bath and then stick my head in the water and if it works I am dead.
If I can't get the swb to work I will wait for the best oppurtunity to use the sn, I will use it in the shower while it is on when my family sleeps to suppress the vomit sounds and hope the shower doesn't wake them up.

My reason for suicide are unwanted thoughts that resulted from abuse, it feels wrong when the brain makes me think stuff that hurts me and I don't have much to loose anyway most people just hurt me.

I will update whether the swb worked or not.

Keep in mind it could take up to august until I ctb but I wanted to make this thread if the swb works.
I will maybe don't do it today but in some days so people I know from this site can respond to the thread before I am dead but I will still try hyperventilating.

Until I manage to ctb I will play some games, I currently play half life alyx with no vr mod.

Special thanks to: @7@vuse99 , @PurpleParadigm , @dimstar , @cami , @90starve , @liljeep , @GasMonkey , @vulkann , @CTB Dream , @MusicEnjoyer:D , @toofargone6969 , @nothingissacred , @dweams , @Kasumi , @heavyeyes , @Kerrtu , @squirley , @_Minsk , @tosch , @Octavia
Sorry if I forgot to mention anyone

you're a dear friend to me @HopefulSleep - the world has treated you so horribly, and i'm sorry for that. you've been pushed aside in times where you should've been loved and cherished. im happy that you've been able to find a community here at least. i wish you the best with your plans, but i will miss you terribly when you leave us <3

 

[Kasumi]

Take care, I hope all goes well for you without much discomfort ♡

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds really awful what you've had to endure, to me it's just so horrible how humans create so much harm in this world. But anyway I wish you the best and I hope that when the time is right for you to leave you find the freedom that you search for.

 

[Unknown21]

Wish you the best of luck with your plans. I hope you to be successful