Story Failed SN (edit but was actually S Nitrate)attempt despite keeping down 35g of 99.5% lab pure

[fussyohno]

I am a 45yo former professional and business owner (a bit overweight at 105kg although 6'2") with a small family who v seriously fucked up without possibility of bouncing back. Having failed at jumping in front of a train (survival instinct) I was delighted to find thiw forum and fortunate to source 99.5% lab grade SN from reliable source. Yesterday the time was right so I prepared as follows

-24 hour fast
- water and clear fluids only
- 2 x10mg Domperidrone 50 mins prior
- 800mg ibruprofen and 1000mg paracetamol about 10 mins prior
-35g of SN with 75ml water (cup)
- a back up SN as above (cup)
- skittles to kill the bitterness of SN

I proceeded as above and downed SN in one gulp as could not see myself sipping. Yes duly vile salty taste and skittles were prefect in neutralising the taste in my mouth. After a few mins my heart started racing and I had some nausea feeling and was in some discomfort (like when I was a kid and I had overdrank or smoked too much skunk) but did not vomit. I think I eventually fell asleep and was gutted to wake up a couple of hours later as I really believed I was CTB. At that point I probably should have drunk the second cup but for some reason I was still hoping I was on my way out. A further 2 hours and it is breakfast time, people are around, game over.

Today I feel jaded and a bit funny but no organs are aching so no medical intervention needed. I should be dead according to PP and other guidance but seem otherwise okay. I am still fasting mostly today so could try again with my back up cup (which I had transferred into a water bottle).

Really wondering how I screwed up as I didn't expect to be here typing this. I generally have a high alcohol tolerance and a bit overweight so maybe a higher dose e.g. 50g + would work?

Anyone think I should try again with my 35g left over and ready to drink,?

 

[AmericanMary]

Did you test your SN batch before using it?

 

[fussyohno]

Did you test your SN batch before using it?

The supplier supplies school laboratories etc and stands behind its purity claim. I think more than likely it is what they say, however admittedly it has not been tested. Probably need to do so if I reorder.

 

[Esokabat]

How do you know it is reliable source? Can you give some hints, without mentioning the source? I ask as the only thing I can imagine is that the SN was degraded and had a high nitrate content.
I really don't think it has to do with your body, or your specific reaction, I think the problem is with the SN. It was either not pure, degraded, etc

 

[fussyohno]

Source is UK and supplies a range of lab chemicals. I previously explained that I needed SN for meat preservation. The SN was generally v fine with a slight yellow hue.

 

[timetodie24]

Source is UK and supplies a range of lab chemicals. I previously explained that I needed SN for meat preservation. The SN was generally v fine with a slight yellow hue.

I thought UK lab suppliers will only ship to business now .
Was it nitrIte or nitrAte ?

 

[fussyohno]

I thought UK lab suppliers will only ship to business now .
Was it nitrIte or nitrAte ?

This is how it is described

Sodium Nitrate NaNO3 - High Grade Crystalline Powder >99.5%
Trick for finding UK suppliers is to search using non-mainstream search engines. Google is not your friend here

 

[AmericanMary]

This is how it is described

Sodium Nitrate NaNO3 - High Grade Crystalline Powder >99.5%

this is not what people on here are talking about when they say SN. Sodium nitrite is what people talk about, not sodium nitrate.

NaNo2 I believe

 

[motoko_s9]

This is how it is described

Sodium Nitrate NaNO3 - High Grade Crystalline Powder >99.5%
Trick for finding UK suppliers is to search using non-mainstream search engines. Google is not your friend here

Sodium nitrate - different salt.

What does 35g of Sodium Nitrate do when swallowed?

 

[fussyohno]

this is not what people on here are talking about when they say SN. Sodium nitrite is what people talk about, not sodium nitrate.

NaNo2 I believe

Oh schoolboy error then. No wonder

 

[Tesha]

That explains it. You took the wrong chemical…

Edit - you might want to keep an eye on your kidneys / urine output and general health. That much salt can still impair your organs ability to function.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

This is how it is described

Sodium Nitrate NaNO3 - High Grade Crystalline Powder >99.5%
Trick for finding UK suppliers is to search using non-mainstream search engines. Google is not your friend here

Welcome to the forum. That's y it didn't work. You need NaNO2 Sodium Nitrite.

 

[rozeske]

Are you sure you are feeling alright? Sodium nitrate isn't the one but it also isn't a piece of cake. It has terrible side effects, especially when it's 35g. You may need to go to the hospital ASAP.

 

[fussyohno]

Sodium nitrate - different salt.

What does 35g of Sodium Nitrate do when swallowed?

See above, looks as if I made a case study LOL
Now need to find the right SN and unfortunately time is short...

Thanks though for pointing out the errors in my ways

 

[Esokabat]

Well, this is certainly a case study in drinking nitrate as opposed to nitrite. I am glad we figured this out.
I agree with others that this much nitrate can still cause damage with organs, possibly kidneys. This is a dangerous mistake to make as it will not kill you but it can cause permanent health damage.

 

[yellowjester]

Hey, could you edit a short disclaimer into your OP saying that you bought the wrong chemical? Just so people don't get anxious or confused about wether SN really works.

 

[KillingPain267]

This show why a case report cannot be taken at face value without looking and asking for details. An important lesson. I hope you'll be okay, OP.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

How did you defeat si to be able to do this?

 

[fussyohno]

I previously picked up my incorrect SN back in January and if I hadn't made the mistake I could have left enough time to source proper SN and wait for it to be shipped.

I am now faced with huge time pressure to go, my chosen exit not being available (unless anyone in the UK can point me in the right direction) and now stuck with exploring other suboptimal options.

I find death by train hard to get over SI and public drama of it bothers me as does the poor people clearing up the mess. May research hanging in more depth as at least that can be private and maybe successful if determined. Heights don't really work for me either... May still have to be train. A Bit stumped atm...

 

[a.hamza.13]

This is how it is described

Sodium Nitrate NaNO3 - High Grade Crystalline Powder >99.5%
Trick for finding UK suppliers is to search using non-mainstream search engines. Google is not your friend here

This is when backbenchers plan to do something.

 

[Esokabat]

I previously picked up my incorrect SN back in January and if I hadn't made the mistake I could have left enough time to source proper SN and wait for it to be shipped.

I am now faced with huge time pressure to go, my chosen exit not being available (unless anyone in the UK can point me in the right direction) and now stuck with exploring other suboptimal options.

I find death by train hard to get over SI and public drama of it bothers me as does the poor people clearing up the mess. May research hanging in more depth as at least that can be private and maybe successful if determined. Heights don't really work for me either... May still have to be train. A Bit stumped atm...

I am very sorry you are going through this. However you have not done enough research as you will see in this forum that nitrite over time can degrade into nitrate when exposed to the outside world, or kept incorrectly, and most people in this forum try to keep their SN in perfect conditions exactly to make sure the nitrate content of their SN doesn't increase over time. So if you have read enough threads here, you would have noticed that high nitrate Levels is what everyone tries to avoid and this is why SN is tested, to determine how much of the SN is degraded into nitrate. Also, when you buy a chemical compound, its chemical name (e.g. NANO2) is the most important information you will need. However I do realize that when someone is depressed ,or in pain, research can be extremely difficult. Are you able to travel to other parts of Europe to get SN?

 

[fussyohno]

I am very sorry you are going through this. However you have not done enough research as you will see in this forum that nitrite over time can degrade into nitrate when exposed to the outside world, or kept incorrectly, and most people in this forum try to keep their SN in perfect conditions exactly to make sure the nitrate content of their SN doesn't increase over time. So if you have read enough threads here, you would have noticed that high nitrate Levels is what everyone tries to avoid and this is why SN is tested, to determine how much of the SN is degraded into nitrate. Also, when you buy a chemical compound, its chemical name (e.g. NANO2) is the most important information you will need. However I do realize that when someone is depressed ,or in pain, research can be extremely difficult. Are you able to travel to other parts of Europe to get SN?

Thanks I appreciate your post. I left CTB to almost the last minute in my preferred way and failed. I have to be gone today or in next few days so will unfortunately have to give up on SN as a method. I could try and source from PL Ukraine wherever but even if possible, not sure shipping and customs clearance would be quick enough. Unfortunately unable to travel outside UK as otherwise I would like CTB easily overseas.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I find death by train hard to get over SI and public drama of it bothers me as does the poor people clearing up the mess.

Can u give specifics and details about how u train hard to get over si?

 

[AmericanMary]

how do you feel today OP? Any side affects from this?

 

[fussyohno]

Can u give specifics and details about how u train hard to get over si?

I am not sure I can. Last year I tried for three days without success. I am v determined to ctb (more so now) but think I will try inert gas as per PPH which sounds like it should be more popular. If that fails then jumping in front of train as little time and out of options. How to overcome SI? I think it takes a big heart if you are doing it for other people or some kind of joyful determination where you are positively welcoming your imminent destruction. I think there are sadly people who don't do it properly and survive which must be one of the worst outcomes ever.

how do you feel today OP? Any side affects from this?

Thanks for asking. I feel like I have a headache and don't have great energy levels. Given that I kept down 35g (even if it was the wrong one ) I seem surprisingly okay tbh. No organs or limbs ache. If I have suffered damage I don't care as I am on the way out v soon.

As a "survivor" I can vouch for how good domperidrone is at keeping things down (thanks UK online pharmacy) and how horrible sodium nitrate (must be v same taste as nitrite!) tastes, but think drinking in one shot is surely best as who could sip!

Gutted to still be around but hoping to try and pick up what I need for inert gas v soon.