Taken last method

[Latios]

No gromit :( I'm so sorry....

I only recently joined and I don't think we've interacted much but you seem really nice. :(

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

Ah, I hope this isn't too painful for you... I'm so sorry you're at this point. You deserve so much better, you deserve peace.

 

[Gromit-CTB]

No gromit :( I'm so sorry....

I only recently joined and I don't think we've interacted much but you seem really nice. :(

Thank you, hope you enjoy being here. I was always a temporary family member unfortunately but this is a lovely place to be and some amazing people on here so enjoy

 

[justanotherstar]

Oh Gromit, im so sad that your SN didn't arrive and that this has led you to use such a painful bus ticket out of here. I've heard your pain and suffering and understand your desperation to leave this fucked up world. I've grown really fond of you, your replies to people radiate your caring nature, I think you are a very kind hearted soul and I'm eternally sorry that this world let you down, you deserved better. Your passing will leave me with a heavy heart but I've always known you would have to go. In the short time we've spoken you've kept me going and I hope that in your final hours/days you know I will sit with you whilst the sky caves in. I don't need to repeat what others have said about seeking help to manage the pain and symptoms, I know you know this and how much planning has gone into this. I'm sorry that you were forced into using a painful way to go and that it hasn't been an easier journey to find your peace. You will be sorely missed here and leave a Gromit sized hole. Know that your SS family loves and cares for you and you are not alone. Though the road ahead is tough I hope your journey to peace is as quick as possible. Travel well my friend. Keep talking until it's time to go. Hugs

 

[TripleA]

I had a packet of caster beans for gardening. They were large hard beans. Only about ten were in the packet.

I ate 10 ricin seed and only throw up

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Oh Gromit, im so sad that your SN didn't arrive and that this has led you to use such a painful bus ticket out of here. I've heard your pain and suffering and understand your desperation to leave this fucked up world. I've grown really fond of you, your replies to people radiate your caring nature, I think you are a very kind hearted soul and I'm eternally sorry that this world let you down, you deserved better. Your passing will leave me with a heavy heart but I've always known you would have to go. In the short time we've spoken you've kept me going and I hope that in your final hours/days you know I will sit with you whilst the sky caves in. I don't need to repeat what others have said about seeking help to manage the pain and symptoms, I know you know this and how much planning has gone into this. I'm sorry that you were forced into using a painful way to go and that it hasn't been an easier journey to find your peace. You will be sorely missed here and leave a Gromit sized hole. Know that your SS family loves and cares for you and you are not alone. Though the road ahead is tough I hope your journey to peace is as quick as possible. Travel well my friend. Keep talking until it's time to go. Hugs

Properly got me there with those words thank you. I actually didn't want to get to know anyone as thought I could just get the research and go but this place has held me together for past weeks and am sad to leave you all really. Hope you can all find peace and comfort however you choose. Please no one try this as none of you deserve to go this way. I wish I could give every one of you a serving of N for peace but you all deserve so much more from life.

I ate 10 ricin seed and only throw up

How did you prepare them

 

[TripleA]

Properly got me there with those words thank you. I actually didn't want to get to know anyone as thought I could just get the research and go but this place has held me together for past weeks and am sad to leave you all really. Hope you can all find peace and comfort however you choose. Please no one try this as none of you deserve to go this way. I wish I could give every one of you a serving of N for peace but you all deserve so much more from life.

How did you prepare them

I didnt prepare just ate them, i was thinking that 10 of them will kill me but im still allive, luckily now i have a SN probably im going to eternal nothingess this year

 

[justanotherstar]

Properly got me there with those words thank you. I actually didn't want to get to know anyone as thought I could just get the research and go but this place has held me together for past weeks and am sad to leave you all really. Hope you can all find peace and comfort however you choose. Please no one try this as none of you deserve to go this way. I wish I could give every one of you a serving of N for peace but you all deserve so much more from life.

How did you prepare them

I didn't expect to get to know anyone either, I was more of a get the information and run girl but I'm glad I didn't do that. You don't deserve to go out this way either Gromit and trust me if I had N I'd stop at nothing to get it to you right now

 

[Gromit-CTB]

I didnt prepare just ate them, i was thinking that 10 of them will kill me but im still allive

People have survived way more than 10.

Ok incase this works here is what I did maybe someone can take it further as I am no way smart with this stuff.

Remove seed case carefully - don't want to break seed and kill yourself.

Crush or blend beans (I used nutri-bullet) other blenders are available.

Drain off all the oil.

Bake in low oven 80c for 40 mins
Leave to air dry and cool.
Add to natural yoghurt (I picked strawberry for a treat)
Left in fridge for 2 days.
Consume and hope it works

 

[TripleA]

People have survived way more than 10.

Ok incase this works here is what I did maybe someone can take it further as I am no way smart with this stuff.

Remove seed case carefully - don't want to break seed and kill yourself.

Crush or blend beans (I used nutri-bullet) other blenders are available.

Drain off all the oil.

Bake in low oven 80c for 40 mins
Leave to air dry and cool.
Add to natural yoghurt (I picked strawberry for a treat)
Left in fridge for 2 days.
Consume and hope it works

Why you didnt wait SN, this method sounds like fail

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Why you didnt wait SN, this method sounds like fail

When you know you need to go you have to go. SN may arrive Monday so still time to have that possibly

 

[TripleA]

When you know you need to go you have to go. SN may arrive Monday so still time to have that possibly

I waited my SN 21days from order

 

[Spitfire]

Had no effect from test, not sure if that's good or bad. But looking out for signs, have researched all I can on web about it so do know what I'm facing. This is not impulse it's two months of planning and researching my CTB, yes not my favourite method but plan C could be the way.

It sounds like you are aware of what to expect as much as it is possible.

I am glad you stayed and got to know some people. I have been following and reading along here with you lately. And you have had an impact on my life in a good way.

With whatever happens, if you start having questions or anything at all.. please ask. I will at least try to help if I think I am able.

Much love to you Gromit

 

[Gromit-CTB]

It sounds like you are aware of what to expect as much as it is possible.

I am glad you stayed and got to know some people. I have been following and reading along here with you lately. And you have had an impact on my life in a good way.

With whatever happens, if you start having questions or anything at all.. please ask. I will at least try to help if I think I am able.

Much love to you Gromit

Am just a simple broken guy, I can't impact anyone I know that, but thanks for the kind words.

 

[Ghost2211]

Am just a simple broken guy, I can't impact anyone I know that, but thanks for the kind words.

We all impact one another. All of us have value even if we can't see it.

 

[constant_grief]

Am just a simple broken guy, I can't impact anyone I know that, but thanks for the kind words.

Whatever happens best wishes man

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

We are here with you

 

[Mthom2]

I'm so sorry that you had to choose a hard way for departure. Since I've been here, a small few have stuck out to me as real caring individuals who aren't part of the judgmental clique that is easily noticed after a few weeks. You seem to be one of the good people here, and I thank you for being who you are. Your contributions are noticed and heartfelt.

Life is cruel, and I hate that you have had to endure it this long. My first attempt failed, here's to hoping that your current ride ends at the destination you strive for.

 

[mimiopo22]

greetings gromit and sorry if you felt bothered by me even if it was just a misunderstanding.

 

[Meditation guide]

I know that desperate feeling gromit. Sorry you have to go through such a struggle.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

@Gromit-CTB you know my PMs are open if you wish to talk

 

[Gromit-CTB]

I know that desperate feeling gromit. Sorry you have to go through such a struggle.

When life gets to much this is the only way. I had a good go, got to 48 lost everything a few months back and truly happy to go now.

@Gromit-CTB you know my PMs are open if you wish to talk

Thank you, you helped so much last night and will never forget that. Special place at the bar for you.

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

Hey gromit, I'm here too. I hope you're not in too much pain. Either way, it's been well talking with you and I wish I knew more about you. That said, I wish you the best.

 

[Gromit-CTB]

Hey gromit, I'm here too. I hope you're not in too much pain. Either way, it's been well talking with you and I wish I knew more about you. That said, I wish you the best.

Thank you, and thanks for the chats. Tried a method and left the way I did it above something you could look into maybe

 

[Mthom2]

I'm thinking you may be onto something here though. Take poison that has no cure. Wait until completely absorbed. Go to hospital and tell them what you did. Ask for immediate pain management. Go peacefully. Certainly sounds like a good plan to me. I might just end up doing it myself...

 

[Nymph]

I'm thinking you may be onto something here though. Take poison that has no cure. Wait until completely absorbed. Go to hospital and tell them what you did. Ask for immediate pain management. Go peacefully. Certainly sounds like a good plan to me. I might just end up doing it myself...

Ikr, since there's no cure, all they can do is just make the death easier for you? Kinda sounds good ngl

 

[Gromit-CTB]

I'm thinking you may be onto something here though. Take poison that has no cure. Wait until completely absorbed. Go to hospital and tell them what you did. Ask for immediate pain management. Go peacefully. Certainly sounds like a good plan to me. I might just end up doing it myself...

I would never recommend this to anyone. Please do not follow my stupid example, if you have something else please use that. I would say no one should ever think of going this way

 

[Meditation guide]

Wait until completely absorbed. Go to hospital and tell them what you did. Ask for immediate pain management. Go peacefully.

HA! You never go peacefully with pain management at a hospital! Quite the opposite. If you want to be tortured to death go to a hospital.
They NEVER let anyone just die in peace. Nor do they give anywhere near enough pain management. You will die in excruciating agony at a hospital, unless you are fortunate enough to have a great doctor which are nonexistent where I live.

 

[Sherri]

I would never recommend this to anyone. Please do not follow my stupid example, if you have something else please use that. I would say no one should ever think of going this way

I told you my dear Gromit that was going to be painful. I wish you could listen to us sometimes hun sending you a hug

 

[Ghost2211]

I would never recommend this to anyone. Please do not follow my stupid example, if you have something else please use that. I would say no one should ever think of going this way

I have to agree with this guys. I'm quite familiar with this method since when I join the group this was some thing I considered as well, and quite thorough research on it. If you read up on what's going to happen it's going to be quite unpleasant. Imagine the worst indigestion you've ever had and shitting blood for several days. You could go into the hospital, and they very well may sedate you but they also might be assholes and tell you that you brought this on yourself.