Random thoughts

[satou]

Why am I unable to appreciate it when people give me a compliment?

 

[Life sucks]

I will never forget you and I'll keep remembering you until I ctb or leave the life

 

[Fucking loving it]

High as a weather balloon

 

[mattwitt]

When life is good It's great but when life sucks it can suck really bad !

 

[Fucking loving it]

When life is good It's great but when life sucks it can suck really bad !

I'm totally bipolar, so yeah.... I feel this a lot.

 

[Pointlessabyss]

Can only not relate to 2 of these which I found fucking funny

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Can only not relate to 2 of these which I found fucking funny

I can't relate to 2 of the things on the wheel of signs... Does that mean I'm not suicidal? :o

 

[Pointlessabyss]

I can't relate to 2 of the things on the wheel of signs... Does that mean I'm not suicidal? :o

Ofcourse not, no one can tell you what you see or feel all down to an individual perspective! Why I found it a funny chart :)

 

[Jai]

I'm sick again. My stupid allergies. I wanted to CTB today but I called it off. I will do it within the next two to three weeks.

I feel that my time has come. I wake up every day, I open my eyes and there's just nothing of value. Life is like a silent black-and-white-film to me. Sometimes I see happy people and I know that life can be very beautiful and sometimes I feel like an asshole for always being so depressed around people but life is not for everybody. There are always losers and some winners. That's just how the world works.

I took a few hours off today. I couldn't take it anymore. When I'm sick it's way worse because I don't pretend to fit in anymore. I don't care about anything anymore. That's how I feel right now. I couldn't care less about how people see me. It's a good state of mind to CTB in.
I feel so weak. Normally I'd be super angry right now but I don't have the energy to feel emotions now. I need rest. I want to rest in peace forever.

I thought about opening a thread but that is just not worth it. I don't think I'm more to someone than just letters on a screen.

Beautifully put my friend I see the beauty too but no matter how hard you try how kind you are that kick in the cunt is right there waiting mate

 

[Desperate_Soul]

I started singing Christmas songs then got sad. Will I still be alive when Christmas comes...

 

[mattwitt]

The problem with planet earth is people.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

The problem with planet earth is people..

How would planet earth look like without people, I wonder.

 

[Trashcan]

A lot of people on here are nice but there are some people that make me thankful for the ignore button.

 

[throwaway123]

I don't fit into society. I'm always the outcast, no matter where I am. It's always me.

 

[mattwitt]

How would planet earth look like without people, I wonder.

It would be a lot greener.

 

[Morning Angel]

Please come back... for a little while....

 

[lost illusions]

For anyone who has or has had someone warm to be next to, try to find it in yourself to give thanks

 

[Desperate_Soul]

For anyone who has or has had someone warm to be next to, try to find it in yourself to give thanks

are you driving and posting on ss

 

[Taylored]

Are we all here just to suffer?

 

[mattwitt]

I deserve to die... I earned that right !

 

[lost illusions]

are you driving and posting on ss

I waited til I stopped. Be thankful if yall can

 

[throwaway123]

Just a couple of days left. I'm nervous but thats normal.

 

[QueenEtna]

Sometimes i wonder how i manage to keep my temper. I never go off on anyone even if they do it to me regularly. But on the inside I just want to yell and say all these nasty things that would hurt them a lot. I'm so violent but I never let it show.

 

[Morning Angel]

I know it won't happen, but I wish I could hold someone as I drift off for the last time.

 

[icky]

It feels as if I'm millions of miles away from everything. There's a sensation of finality that I've never felt before. I've been knowing that it's too late to change or to attempt success for the 800th time but now I've finally accepted it. I don't know what to do now - before, my meandering was always "taking a break" but now there's nothing to resume or to look forward to. I spent the last week making game mods just to have something to do.

I've started to forgive others, not because I think they deserve it but so I won't die bitter and angry. I don't even have an estimated date anymore. All I do is just sit around existing. I don't feel sad, just hollow.

But hey, the new season of American Horror Story seems ok!

 

[2211264]

Told the only person I care about that I'm going away to live overseas and catching a plane in two weeks. CTP i guess?

 

[Morning Angel]

Everything always looks great from far away and when you get up close, it's never what you expected.

 

[Fallen_From_Grace]

Karma seems so fucking imbalanced. All the good people I know have been dragged through hell and back, and all the people that deserve a ton's worth of karma dropped on them have never had any sobering experiences that turn them around, and they're left to be horrible people. I was taught growing up that if you're bad, karma will come back to haunt you but I grew up and even still now I watch the absolute opposite happen. The more good a person seems to do, the more karma bites them. Or maybe we all just have bad luck, I don't know.

 

[blood orange]

I've mentioned that I don't like myself. I've made a lot of choices and done things that no one would be proud of. I feel like if I didn't make them, I wouldn't be where I am. I wouldn't see myself for who and what I really am.

I had to let go of the idea of the good vs. bad dichotomy. I had to accept the things I've done and the consequences that come with them. I can't chalk it up to thinking I'm good.

On a fundamental level, I'm just messed up. Not something broken and can be fixed, just wrong. Even if I have the tools to fix the mistakes I've made, I cannot find it in myself to be redeemed.

 

[Tiburcio]

I saw somebody saying if somebody wanted to play his game, and in that moment I remembered how nobody likes me. I also remember one of the many shit moments in my childhood. I always wanted to play with others, and I asked "can I play with you?" but nobody wanted. Nobody never wanted. And I felt alone. Like now. In so many years, what changed?