Random thoughts

[Caustic Cardinals]

I saw somebody saying if somebody wanted to play his game, and in that moment I remembered how nobody likes me. I also remember one of the many shit moments in my childhood. I always wanted to play with others, and I asked "can I play with you?" but nobody wanted. Nobody never wanted. And I felt alone. Like now. In so many years, what changed?

I feel I feel so much in those words

 

[lostinthedream]

Everything always looks great from far away and when you get up close, it's never what you expected.

I love this quote, so incredibly wise and true

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

if I went back in time but only for an hour or two
to have sex with myself from the past ,
the past me knowing beforehand that future me was coming ,
would that be masturbation or incest?

 

[Life sucks]

To anyone who glorify life. Have you ever seen the countless atrocities made by humans in the whole history?

 

[blueming]

I feel like a slave. I didn't choose to be born, to live in this world, yet I'm forced to continue living.

 

[Morning Angel]

I'm definitely the problem. I didn't mean to be, but I was/am anyway. Sucks that after I'm dead, I'll still be framed as such for a while before people warm to seeing me as a human again. Whatever.

 

[ikuchan]

i hate that the fight or flight response is my body's default state i would just like to go one day without wanting to bash my skull in asphalt from the anxiety

 

[lost illusions]

if I went back in time but only for an hour or two
to have sex with myself from the past ,
the past me knowing beforehand that future me was coming ,
would that be masturbation or incest?

Wow, strange, and why didn't I think of that

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Yes, tea bunny! I do deserve a nice, restful sleep! I was a big girl and made it through another day.
Good night, sanctioned suicide. I hope I don't wake up.

 

[RM5998]

if I went back in time but only for an hour or two
to have sex with myself from the past ,
the past me knowing beforehand that future me was coming ,
would that be masturbation or incest?

 

[throwaway123]

My day is getting closer and closer and to be honest I am very sad. Not about my death but about the total of suffering in this world. All this suffering for absolutely nothing in the end. :(

Most people don't even realize what's coming. The effects of climate change have only just begun to manifest. The future will be far worse. Venezuela is a perfect example of one of the ways it might end.

 

[Morning Angel]

Part of why I don't want to speak to anyone my last day is that I don't want to be a subject of their morbid curiosity. "Are you dead yet? Did she die?" I know it's unavoidable, but the thought of it kind of grosses me out.

 

[lostinthedream]

We did the best we could... given what we knew at the time and our damned human frailties... Am I man? Am I a monster? am I God? I ask the fates why I am anymore... May the universe and fates grant me rest.. I am tired, so tired..

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Wow, strange, and why didn't I think of that

Because you're not a time-traveling dope smoking Pony

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Does this mean you give the approval or thumbs up for incest

 

[mattwitt]

I thought of something to put here while lying in bed but now I forget.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

I thought of something to put here while lying in bed but now I forget.

I lie here in bed forgetting what I was going to post in the thread

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Fuck

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Fuck

I also like to fuck that is something we have in common. Perhaps we could utilize this mutual appreciation of fuck to better acquaint ourselves with one another

 

[Morning Angel]

I also like to fuck that is something we have in common. Perhaps we could utilize this mutual appreciation of fuck to better acquaint ourselves with one another

Well that escalated quickly.

Anyway, you will have to arm wrestle me for Desperate's heart.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Well that escalated quickly.

Anyway, you will have to arm wrestle me for Desperate's heart.

I'm not so good at arm wrestling.

 

[RM5998]

Does this mean you give the approval or thumbs up for incest

Yes, I'm giving you the seal of approval.

I'm not so good at arm wrestling.

Thumb wrestling seems like an adequate compromise.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Yes, I'm giving you the seal of approval.



Thumb wrestling seems like an adequate compromise.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

View attachment 1643

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Not my thing bro

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Not my thing bro

Shame. Living out my fantasy.

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

Shame. Living out my fantasy.

I prefer to guys

 

[mattwitt]

I can't stop thinking about this...

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/data/avatars/m/2/2198.jpg?1537210036

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

I can't stop thinking about this...

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/data/avatars/m/2/2198.jpg?1537210036

 

[Maggotymaggots]

This sounds so dumb reading it over, but I feel the need to share it because of my stupid monkey brain I guess.

Today was a bit interesting for me. I wasn't told that there was going to be someone coming over to help with the roof. I feel anxious enough around my immediate family members, with someone else, well, I was panicking a little. I was the one to help this person up on the roof, and I don't mind doing that, I'm not particularly fond of heights, but I can deal with that. What made me super nervous was having to be social, and worrying about not fucking everything up, and having to answer the inevitable uncomfortable questions regarding my NEEThood.

The work went smoothly enough I suppose. It took most of the day, but everything that needed to get done got done. I kind of just dissociated for most of the time. The rest of the time I couldn't think of anything other than my desire to kill myself. I can't say I wasn't tempted to just jump off the side of the roof, though I know it wasn't high enough to do the job, or at least not cleanly.

I don't know why I can't do basic human things without feeling like I'm on the verge of a breakdown. I don't know why I have to be such a fucking disappointment to literally everyone who knows me. I really, really have to end my life soon.