Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,337
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lostinthedream
Warlock
- Sep 2, 2018
- 753
I love this quote, so incredibly wise and true
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,337
if I went back in time but only for an hour or two
to have sex with myself from the past ,
the past me knowing beforehand that future me was coming ,
would that be masturbation or incest?To anyone who glorify life. Have you ever seen the countless atrocities made by humans in the whole history?
blueming
if we can stand outside the borders of time
- Sep 21, 2018
- 260
I feel like a slave. I didn't choose to be born, to live in this world, yet I'm forced to continue living.I'm definitely the problem. I didn't mean to be, but I was/am anyway. Sucks that after I'm dead, I'll still be framed as such for a while before people warm to seeing me as a human again. Whatever.
ikuchan
ying
- Aug 28, 2018
- 22
i hate that the fight or flight response is my body's default state i would just like to go one day without wanting to bash my skull in asphalt from the anxiety
lost illusions
bye
- Sep 12, 2018
- 548
Wow, strange, and why didn't I think of that
Desperate_Soul
I'll See You Guys On The Other Side Of The Rainbow
- Aug 26, 2018
- 1,979
Yes, tea bunny! I do deserve a nice, restful sleep! I was a big girl and made it through another day.
Good night, sanctioned suicide. I hope I don't wake up.
RM5998
Sack of Meat
- Sep 3, 2018
- 2,201
throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
- 1,452
My day is getting closer and closer and to be honest I am very sad. Not about my death but about the total of suffering in this world. All this suffering for absolutely nothing in the end. :(
Most people don't even realize what's coming. The effects of climate change have only just begun to manifest. The future will be far worse. Venezuela is a perfect example of one of the ways it might end.Part of why I don't want to speak to anyone my last day is that I don't want to be a subject of their morbid curiosity. "Are you dead yet? Did she die?" I know it's unavoidable, but the thought of it kind of grosses me out.Last edited:
lostinthedream
Warlock
- Sep 2, 2018
- 753
We did the best we could... given what we knew at the time and our damned human frailties... Am I man? Am I a monster? am I God? I ask the fates why I am anymore... May the universe and fates grant me rest.. I am tired, so tired..
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,337
Because you're not a time-traveling dope smoking Pony
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,337
Does this mean you give the approval or thumbs up for incest
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,309
I thought of something to put here while lying in bed but now I forget.
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,337
I lie here in bed forgetting what I was going to post in the thread
Desperate_Soul
I'll See You Guys On The Other Side Of The Rainbow
- Aug 26, 2018
- 1,979
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,337
I also like to fuck that is something we have in common. Perhaps we could utilize this mutual appreciation of fuck to better acquaint ourselves with one another
Well that escalated quickly.
Anyway, you will have to arm wrestle me for Desperate's heart.
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,337
I'm not so good at arm wrestling.
RM5998
Sack of Meat
- Sep 3, 2018
- 2,201
Yes, I'm giving you the seal of approval.
Thumb wrestling seems like an adequate compromise.
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,337
Desperate_Soul
I'll See You Guys On The Other Side Of The Rainbow
- Aug 26, 2018
- 1,979
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,337
Desperate_Soul
I'll See You Guys On The Other Side Of The Rainbow
- Aug 26, 2018
- 1,979
Shame. Living out my fantasy.
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,337
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,309
I can't stop thinking about this...
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/data/avatars/m/2/2198.jpg?1537210036
Caustic Cardinals
Enlightened
- Sep 1, 2018
- 1,337
This sounds so dumb reading it over, but I feel the need to share it because of my stupid monkey brain I guess.
Today was a bit interesting for me. I wasn't told that there was going to be someone coming over to help with the roof. I feel anxious enough around my immediate family members, with someone else, well, I was panicking a little. I was the one to help this person up on the roof, and I don't mind doing that, I'm not particularly fond of heights, but I can deal with that. What made me super nervous was having to be social, and worrying about not fucking everything up, and having to answer the inevitable uncomfortable questions regarding my NEEThood.
The work went smoothly enough I suppose. It took most of the day, but everything that needed to get done got done. I kind of just dissociated for most of the time. The rest of the time I couldn't think of anything other than my desire to kill myself. I can't say I wasn't tempted to just jump off the side of the roof, though I know it wasn't high enough to do the job, or at least not cleanly.
I don't know why I can't do basic human things without feeling like I'm on the verge of a breakdown. I don't know why I have to be such a fucking disappointment to literally everyone who knows me. I really, really have to end my life soon.
