Random thoughts

[RM5998]

Why do 97% chance hits always miss in XCOM? RNGesus, if you want me to kill myself, at least give me a decent method!

 

[ikuchan]

she's been trying to encourage me with that cute smile of hers, i don't have the heart to tell her it's useless

she says, "try your best"

i don't know how to tell her my best died a long time ago

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Good night, sanctioned suicide.

 

[satou]

A tiny voice in the back of my head suddenly whispers: "What if A actually runs this forum and it is all just intended to sell N for profit?"

 

[throwaway123]

When you stop thinking about people, all problems suddenly disappear.

That reminds me of a quote from Joseph Stalin:

Death is the solution to all problems. No man - no problem.

I try to avoid people as much as possible. I need to learn to do this in my thoughts too. Every single person in my head must be avoided. I can not allow myself to spend any time or resources thinking about other people. My well-being comes first. That's the state I need to be in to CTB.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

When you stop thinking about people, all problems suddenly disappear.

That reminds me of a quote from Joseph Stalin:

Death is the solution to all problems. No man - no problem.

I try to avoid people as much as possible. I need to learn to do this in my thoughts too. Every single person in my head must be avoided. I can not allow myself to spend any time or resources thinking about other people. My well-being comes first. That's the state I need to be in to CTB.

Are you CTB'ing because of people, or are you CTB'ing for yourself?

Hm. Am I CTB'ing for me. I think I get it now. Because of people, you can't CTB, but alone, you can. Don't think about anybody else and who it might effect, but CTB to avoid all future problems.

 

[Trashcan]

I'm waiting to find out if I can get a shotgun or not. I wish they'd get back to me already.

 

[Midnight]

I'm intrigued by the fact that a few day's ago at a random moment i decided it wasn't worth holding onto what i hold dearly in life/my passion. Just *poof* decade+ of holding onto something and suddenly i wouldn't give a shit if it's gone tomorrow. I don't even know why ... At least it's one step closer to the right mindset for what i yearn. Just like that .... It's strange...
My passion that's linked to said item/hobby ... Gone.

Anyone else experience anything like it? Not gradually but just you sit there thinking .. "you know what? To hell with all that shit... I don't care anymore"

I never owned a pet but for me it feels like putting a trusty dog up for sale after having it for 10-15yrs and not giving a shit. Even feeling glad if it would be gone cause it's weight off of your shoulders.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

I'm intrigued by the fact that a few day's ago at a random moment i decided it wasn't worth holding onto what i hold dearly in life/my passion. Just *poof* decade+ of holding onto something and suddenly i wouldn't give a shit if it's gone tomorrow. I don't even know why ... At least it's one step closer to the right mindset for what i yearn. Just like that .... It's strange...
My passion that's linked to said item/hobby ... Gone.

Anyone else experience anything like it? Not gradually but just you sit there thinking .. "you know what? To hell with all that shit... I don't care anymore"

I never owned a pet but for me it feels like putting a trusty dog up for sale after having it for 10-15yrs and not giving a shit.

Yes. And then when I think I'll regret putting up my trusty dog and have it taken away from me, I realize I don't regret it at all.

 

[Midnight]

Yes. And then when I think I'll regret putting up my trusty dog and have it taken away from me, I realize I don't regret it at all.

Maybe it's just like discarding excess baggage. Like throwing shit overboard of an already sinking ship. You don't have to worry about it going down with you or it needing saving after you've sunk.

 

[satou]

It confuses me when people rack up 100+ post counts within a week, but don't bother changing their avatar.

 

[satou]

I don't want to sleep, because I don't want it to be tomorrow. I'm anxious about where I have to go tomorrow. But if I don't go to sleep, I will not be well rested, which I need to be.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

I don't want to sleep, because I don't want it to be tomorrow. I'm anxious about where I have to go tomorrow. But if I don't go to sleep, I will not be well rested, which I need to be.

Wouldn't it be funny if time was on our side and our days depend on when we sleep. Even if you don't sleep, tomorrow will still come, unfortunately. Best get your rest in! Lack of sleep could worsen your anxiety. Have a good night :)

 

[mattwitt]

Humans will only stop having children if by any reason children start being "created" by something that isn't sex. Most humans are basically primates obsessed with sex. Unevolved fucks who can't think about anything else other than sex, sex, dumbass sex jokes and more sex. Since that is unlikely to happen, this shitty world will remain overpopulated.

Yeah I would say that sex, drugs, money, and more sex are the top 4 things people obsess about most on planet earth.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

I think because I don't express my suicidal thoughts and depression on this forum enough that people assume that my problems are nonexistent.

 

[mattwitt]

I think because I don't express my suicidal thoughts and depression on this forum enough that people assume that my problem is nonexistent.

Or because of your happy avatar : )

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Or because of your happy avatar : )

Haha, oh yeah. I forgot about that. Maybe I should make it more depressing. Along with my profile signature. :P
Thanks for pointing it out! Didn't even factor that in.

 

[lv-gras]

I think because I don't express my suicidal thoughts and depression on this forum enough that people assume that my problem is nonexistent.

generally haven't thought your problems are nonexistent

 

[mattwitt]

Haha, oh yeah. I forgot about that. Maybe I should make it more depressing. Along with my profile signature. :P
Thanks for pointing it out! Didn't even factor that in.[/QUO

That's the spirit !

 

[Desperate_Soul]

So can I use yours? I'm too lazy to find a new one. :P

 

[mattwitt]

So can I use yours? I'm too lazy to find a new one. :P

I'd be honored if you did !

 

[Desperate_Soul]

I'd be honored if you did !

Maybe people will understand me now and I'll feel like I fit in!

 

[mattwitt]

Maybe people will understand me now and I'll feel like I fit in!

I love it !

 

[Desperate_Soul]

I love it !

I like it too! I feel like a changed woman.

 

[lv-gras]

I like it too! I feel like a changed woman.

oh no the rainbow

 

[lv-gras]

I like it too! I feel like a changed woman.

haha nice

 

[Desperate_Soul]

haha nice

It looked a bit too dark! Now the rainbow doesn't shine as brightly, and my life level is low. :)
Very fitting, very dull.

 

[lv-gras]

It looked a bit too dark! Now the rainbow doesn't shine as brightly, and my life level is low. :)
Very fitting, very dull.

terribly fitting

 

[RainAndSadness]

I love how society has totally an issue with prescribing puberty blockers to trans children because it's "harmful" (not really, of course there are always certain risks with any medication) but indoctrinating children into religion from young age is completely fine because it's 'their parents decision'. Fun fact: puberty blockers are reversible, religion isn't.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

I am beyond sad tonight. I hate crying.