Random thoughts

[Pointlessabyss]

It's 6:10am I haven't slept yet, laying in a sleeping bag in an unfinished house thinking how fucked up things are... why am I still here is anyone's guess

 

[Lunar]

I feel so "unreal" like I'm viewing everything behind a glass wall. I don't feel like I'm me but then I don't even know what me is to begin with. I was nothing in life and will be nothing in death.

 

[throwaway123]

Sometimes I wonder what might happen after death because I truly don't know. Maybe it's just my fear but there is always a small uncertainty.

 

[Lunar]

I guess I just prefer to think that there's nothing because I feel like nothing. I don't know if I'm afraid of death itself anymore, I think I'm more afraid of failing and being stuck here for longer or ending up with permanent damage. I don't know. I find talking and expressing what I'm thinking difficult. Sometimes I feel like I feel everything intensely, then other times like now it's like my brain is in a fish bowl or something. I'm not sure how to describe it properly "depersonalization/derealization" I suppose.

I also think I want to cut this face, although I have a home visit tomorrow and would rather not be questioned about it. I already don't want to sit here and have to talk to someone that just wants to get me into being part of this messed up society. My father keeps ringing these doctors, psychiatrists, therapists, etc for me and even though I'm an adult I basically have no say even when I refuse.

I'm sure I sound like all I do is complain on here. Sorry.

 

[throwaway123]

The importance of looks destroy even the most rosey-tinted deluded narratives about life.


I think most people just accept this reality but that is in my mind just weak. Why live like this? Why suffer if you don't have to ?

 

[Asylla]

People who read/watch hentai are disgusting.

Hentai is art. Why do people try and argue against this? Is it just butthurt western artists jealous that an entire form of expression is locked away from them? Hentai is not just art; it is artistic expression in its most unadulterated form. Go to the Louvre and look at the Mona Lisa, tell me what you feel; angry? Sad? No, you won't feel any of those, you might appreciate the talent of Da Vinci, and the line work or colours, but what does it make you feel? The best pieces of art carry real emotion, really making you feel with just strokes on paper. Hentai taps into the most primal of human feelings: lust. The very desire for all living creatures, the very meaning of life, represented in the succinct form of art. Some of the greatest moments of my life have been inspired from this art, and you have the nerve to doubt it because you're some butthurt American mad that you can only draw nonsense and call it "abstract"? Need more proof? Waifus. People are so infatuated with this art they go as far as to literally fall in love with them. Did people in renaissance Italy fall in love with the Mona Lisa and sleep with body pillows of her, desperate for the intimacy with their lover? NO! Because it lacks the true, raw emotion that Hentai has. Next time you think about saying Hentai "isn't real art" remember the happiness it has brought people, and the raw emotions it inspires deep within. Don't try and tear down another art form down just because you're a butthurt westerner who can't draw for shit. Now, I know hentai isn't for everyone, but it is for me. People think I'm joking even I say this, but I actually think the first image I ever masturbated to was something pokemon related. Getting off topic. Hentai breaks the limitation of the standardize pornography that we've got today. It goes above and beyond what real porn can provide. We're limited to a budget. If an artist wanted to draw a doujinshi about voodoo magic, zombies, and octopuses raping people, then they're free to do so. Our limitation is how long we're willing to search.

Wanna fuck in space? Sure!

Wanna see a unicorn fuck this girl? Alright!

Wanna girl that can take a dick while also getting her dick blown? We got that!

Wanna hold hands? Fucked up, but yeah, we've got that.

Want vanilla stuff? They got that too, and it's even better than real porn because it's got actual story! People joke about story in porn, but I read it because it's actually entertaining! Some of the best stories I've read are from porn. There is a downside that I've noticed. At least for me. I start to go down this rabbit hole when I started reading hentai. It's not just vanilla porn anymore. It's gone from vanilla, to bdsm, to rape, to monsters, to guro and vore. Never scat though, luckily. Some of the most disgusting things I've seen are from hentai, and I have to shamefully admit that I've masturbated to those kinds of things.

 

[QueenEtna]

Hentai is art. Why do people try and argue against this? Is it just butthurt western artists jealous that an entire form of expression is locked away from them? Hentai is not just art; it is artistic expression in its most unadulterated form.

Go to the Louvre and look at the Mona Lisa, tell me what you feel; angry? Sad? No, you won't feel any of those, you might appreciate the talent of Da Vinci, and the line work or colours, but what does it make you feel? The best pieces of art carry real emotion, really making you feel with just strokes on paper. Hentai taps into the most primal of human feelings: lust. The very desire for all living creatures, the very meaning of life, represented in the succinct form of art. Some of the greatest moments of my life have been inspired from this art, and you have the nerve to doubt it because you're some butthurt American mad that you can only draw nonsense and call it "abstract"?

Need more proof? Waifus. People are so infatuated with this art they go as far as to literally fall in love with them. Did people in renaissance Italy fall in love with the Mona Lisa and sleep with body pillows of her, desperate for the intimacy with their lover? NO! Because it lacks the true, raw emotion that Hentai has. Next time you think about saying Hentai "isn't real art" remember the happiness it has brought people, and the raw emotions it inspires deep within. Don't try and tear down another art form down just because you're a butthurt westerner who can't draw for shit.

Now, I know hentai isn't for everyone, but it is for me. People think I'm joking even I say this, but I actually think the first image I ever masturbated to was something pokemon related. Getting off topic. Hentai breaks the limitation of the standardize pornography that we've got today. It goes above and beyond what real porn can provide. We're limited to a budget. If an artist wanted to draw a doujinshi about voodoo magic, zombies, and octopuses raping people, then they're free to do so. Our limitation is how long we're willing to search.

Wanna fuck in space? Sure!

Wanna see a unicorn fuck this girl? Alright!

Wanna girl that can take a dick while also getting her dick blown? We got that!

Wanna hold hands? Fucked up, but yeah, we've got that.

Want vanilla stuff? They got that too, and it's even better than real porn because it's got actual story! People joke about story in porn, but I read it because it's actually entertaining! Some of the best stories I've read are from porn. There is a downside that I've noticed. At least for me. I start to go down this rabbit hole when I started reading hentai. It's not just vanilla porn anymore. It's gone from vanilla, to bdsm, to rape, to monsters, to guro and vore. Never scat though, luckily. Some of the most disgusting things I've seen are from hentai, and I have to shamefully admit that I've masturbated to those kinds of things.

You are too passionate about hentai my friend

 

[samhelloall9]

Today I read somewhere that suicide is the ultimate act of selfishness. My first thought was the ultimate act of selfishness is trying to live as long as possible no matter how many people are negatively affected by it or burdened by it.

Unless you keep equally screwing over society in return (driving slow in the right lane, being an aggressive or slow driver, taking someone's parking space, not holding the elevator door open, pushing someone out the way, being an over-bearing work colleague or friend).

There's always that.

 

[KCN]

Everytime I see a dislike under a YouTube video my brain automatically switches to "humanity is never going to agree about anything" mode

 

[Lunar]

Hentai taps into the most primal of human feelings: lust. The very desire for all living creatures, the very meaning of life, represented in the succinct form of art.

It's not the desire for every living creature (asexuals exist for example) but I guess it's nice that you're so passionate about something?

 

[RM5998]

Hentai is art. Why do people try and argue against this? Is it just butthurt western artists jealous that an entire form of expression is locked away from them? Hentai is not just art; it is artistic expression in its most unadulterated form. Go to the Louvre and look at the Mona Lisa, tell me what you feel; angry? Sad? No, you won't feel any of those, you might appreciate the talent of Da Vinci, and the line work or colours, but what does it make you feel? The best pieces of art carry real emotion, really making you feel with just strokes on paper. Hentai taps into the most primal of human feelings: lust. The very desire for all living creatures, the very meaning of life, represented in the succinct form of art. Some of the greatest moments of my life have been inspired from this art, and you have the nerve to doubt it because you're some butthurt American mad that you can only draw nonsense and call it "abstract"? Need more proof? Waifus. People are so infatuated with this art they go as far as to literally fall in love with them. Did people in renaissance Italy fall in love with the Mona Lisa and sleep with body pillows of her, desperate for the intimacy with their lover? NO! Because it lacks the true, raw emotion that Hentai has. Next time you think about saying Hentai "isn't real art" remember the happiness it has brought people, and the raw emotions it inspires deep within. Don't try and tear down another art form down just because you're a butthurt westerner who can't draw for shit. Now, I know hentai isn't for everyone, but it is for me. People think I'm joking even I say this, but I actually think the first image I ever masturbated to was something pokemon related. Getting off topic. Hentai breaks the limitation of the standardize pornography that we've got today. It goes above and beyond what real porn can provide. We're limited to a budget. If an artist wanted to draw a doujinshi about voodoo magic, zombies, and octopuses raping people, then they're free to do so. Our limitation is how long we're willing to search.

Wanna fuck in space? Sure!

Wanna see a unicorn fuck this girl? Alright!

Wanna girl that can take a dick while also getting her dick blown? We got that!

Wanna hold hands? Fucked up, but yeah, we've got that.

Want vanilla stuff? They got that too, and it's even better than real porn because it's got actual story! People joke about story in porn, but I read it because it's actually entertaining! Some of the best stories I've read are from porn. There is a downside that I've noticed. At least for me. I start to go down this rabbit hole when I started reading hentai. It's not just vanilla porn anymore. It's gone from vanilla, to bdsm, to rape, to monsters, to guro and vore. Never scat though, luckily. Some of the most disgusting things I've seen are from hentai, and I have to shamefully admit that I've masturbated to those kinds of things.

Shindol's Henshin is kinda well written (at least near the end) and JK Peta is hilarious. I've built up a tolerance towards sex in media, so I can usually stand it these days.

 

[Desperate_Soul]

I don't want to wash my hair. But it's all gross after not washing it for a whole 3 days. I should probably go wash my hair. I'm going to go wash my hair. I seriously need a haircut.

Edit: I washed my hair and now it smells fruity clean. :D

 

[lost illusions]

36 deg f here

 

[lost illusions]

Talking about random thoughts. Since this world runs on fuel, why don't more people make their own?

 

[Desperate_Soul]

So much anxiety right now. I can't stop shaking. I feel like a fish out of water. Gasping for air. Hope this feeling passes soon. Need some distraction. Typing this is distraction. But the anxiety prevails because I am going to stop typing.

 

[satou]

Kill me now



(Sorry for posting an image here but... the horror...)

 

[mattwitt]

A couple of JW's knocked on my front door today so I talked to them for a few minutes... Blind, deceived, lost people they are.

 

[setianism]

I have a special talent is running every single human interaction and relationship I've built over time

 

[Pointlessabyss]

I have a special talent is running every single human interaction and relationship I've built over time

 

[mattwitt]

God hates America !

 

[Pointlessabyss]

Loner for life

 

[Desperate_Soul]

I hate how paranoid I am with lighting candles. I love candles and how pleasant they make the room smell, but I'm scared that it'll start a house fire. I'll just let it burn for an hour longer. It'll be okay.

 

[Life sucks]

I hate how paranoid I am with lighting candles. I love candles and how pleasant they make the room smell, but I'm scared that it'll start a house fire. I'll just let it burn for an hour longer. It'll be okay.

I have a ctb fantasy about candles because it can produce CO

 

[Life sucks]

The fuckers bla bla about happiness and when we find things that make us happy, they try to do everything to remove or destroy it. Life and Happiness my ass

 

[Desperate_Soul]

I have a ctb fantasy about candles because it can produce CO

I read that as cbt fantasy and thought you were into wax play.

 

[Life sucks]

Everytime I see a dislike under a YouTube video my brain automatically switches to "humanity is never going to agree about anything" mode

Actually some might agree about the video but put the troll dislikes

 

[blood orange]

When people say you should try dating other people and 'find yourself'.

Like having a slut phase is not conducive to finding myself. I refuse to believe in the idea of short term, disappointing interactions could result in me having a somehow deeper understanding of myself.

I want meaning in life, how is engaging in a meaningless phase going to achieve that?

 

[RM5998]

When people say you should try dating other people and 'find yourself'.

Like having a slut phase is not conducive to finding myself. I refuse to believe in the idea of short term, disappointing interactions could result in me having a somehow deeper understanding of myself.

I want meaning in life, how is engaging in a meaningless phase going to achieve that?

It's mostly about forgetting that there IS no meaning in life. And if you do that, complacency is easier to achieve.

So many of my batchmates think of relationships as sex. And it sickens me.

 

[Life sucks]

Unbearable pain. Fuck this life

 

[Desperate_Soul]

Unbearable pain. Fuck this life

Wow, such a coincidence.
I just liked SamK's post that said 'In unbearable mental pain. sigh :('