Random thoughts

[Desperate_Soul]

I just found one of my suicide notes from 2017. All I did was blame everybody and it's pretty much full of hate. Lol.
Oops. Time to rip it up.

 

[satou]

On one hand, I don't want children because I don't want them to suffer and be alienated and lonely like me.

On the other hand, I want to have like 6 kids with nice sweet girl. Live a relaxed hippy lifestyle, no focus on money or whatever. Everyone else can go fuck themselves, I can create my own people to hang out with...

 

[throwaway123]

I am the biggest loser of them all.

I reek,I'm ugly, I don't have a family, I dont have any friends and I never had any friends. I live in the ghetto. I havw the worst psychological and physical illnesses all because my genetics. I can't talk to people due to my social anxiety and autistic behaviour. And i'm dumb. I'm bot a high functioning autist. My brain is degenerating in real time. Every year i'm getting dumber and dumber. People won't even talk to me because of my ugliness and my bad smell. I suffer from gastrointestinal problems wich are coincidentally partly caused by very high levels of stress. I could go on and on. My genetic are the worst. I wish eugenics would still be existent. They would give me a post natal abortion. Yea even though the nazis were so bad they would've killed me. Probably even before I was born. Why bring a disfigured genetically sick child into the world? just so they can suffer for a lifetime? I don't get it. What is so valuable about life? Taxes? Power? Control? Money? Suffering for our satanic elite?

 

[RM5998]

Taxes? Power? Control? Money? Suffering for our satanic elite?

All of these. I'd suggest reading about Max Weber's theory of instrumental rationality for an emotionally detached and detailed critical perspective, and I'll offer to give you whatever comfort I can while we're stuck in that pit that we are in.

 

[satou]

I don't really know if I know what guilt feels like as an emotion. Shame, I feel that all the time. And on a rational cerebral level I can think: 'shouldn't do / have done that'. But as a gut feeling... I just don't know. Not that I have much reason to feel it.

 

[Miss clefable]

I'm dreaming the same subject every night but in different scenarios

 

[Oyashiro-sama]

I feel like shit right now

 

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

Maybe life is more bearable in small chunks. I tell myself I'll ctb in week - sure, I can survive that long... a week later I'm like "I should wait till new year's like I originally planned, it's just little over 3 months anyway" and so it continues.

 

[Oyashiro-sama]

Maybe life is more bearable in small chunks. I tell myself I'll ctb in week - sure, I can survive that long... a week later I'm like "I should wait till new year's like I originally planned, it's just little over 3 months anyway" and so it continues.

Life sucks.

 

[RM5998]

Life sucks.

I wish it would suck more, that way I'd be tempted to use more extreme methods.

 

[Lunar]

I have been doing nothing but sleeping the time away again. I have a pounding headache from oversleeping. My brain feels like mush.

There's nothing about the way life/society is structured that is ever going to change, I can't be content with being a slave and shut my eyes to it all. This really can't carry on, I need to push myself and just end it.

 

[Hunter]

I honestly feel terrible for the parents on here. The guilt of leaving your kid has to be insane and there's so much stigma attached to doing this when you have family. The pain plus the cognitive dissonance has to suck so much.

 

[throwaway123]

I feel like shit right now

Same. Like every day.

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

for some people suffering never stops and there is no rock bottom

jesus christ there is just no rock bottom

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

If human beings stopped having children all of mankind's problems would be over in around 100 years.

closer to 30 i think

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

for some people suffering never stops and there is no rock bottom

jesus christ there is just no rock bottom

just piss into that void

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

It's getting closer... and I'm all alone.

sorry

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

if existential crisis were a person ...... I might forget about human rights while I them in my basement

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

ECT has robbed me of my academic potential,
never should have gone through with bilateral

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

ECT has robbed me of my academic potential,
never should have gone through with bilateral

what is your current medication/drug regime?

i ask for a friend

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

what is your current medication/drug regime?

i ask for a friend

adderall Ativan

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

adderall Ativan

i want to have babies with your avatar

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

i want to have babies with your avatar

hey now get in line

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

hey now get in line

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

i wished i would have experienced the 90s/early 2000s in my late teens/early 20s





listening to this while being on a nice and smooth ecstasy/lsd trip with some friends, wearing questionable clothes and watching friends on tv

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

i wished i would have experienced the 90s/early 2000s in my late teens/early 20s





listening to this while being on a nice and smooth ecstasy/lsd trip with some friends, wearing questionable clothes and watching friends on tv[/QUOTE

Sounds great unless your poor as fuck

 

[couldntthinkofaname]

Sounds great unless your poor as fuck

live is too short to be poor

 

[mattwitt]

i want to have babies with your avatar

 

[Caustic Cardinals]

live is too short to be poor

is that a riddle to say I should live more?