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What do you say?

  • I WANT to die?

    Votes: 13 68.4%
  • I NEED to die?

    Votes: 3 15.8%
  • I HAVE to die?

    Votes: 2 10.5%
  • Other

    Votes: 1 5.3%

  • Total voters
    19
hmnow

hmnow

Experienced
Jul 29, 2025
272
How do you frame your own choice to CTB?
 
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whywere

Illuminated
Jun 26, 2020
3,928
Like I have always said and this is in stainless steel lined concrete, with 24/7 chronic pain, if and when quantity overtakes quality of life, then decisions will be made.

Walter
 
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PaperAK

I just wanna play games
Nov 16, 2025
10
"I don't want to be here anymore"

I don't really want to die, but I guess it'll be nice to die if it means I don't need to be here anymore
 
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mustard tiger

mustard tiger

Member
Mar 27, 2026
27
I don't want to die, I want to be dead.
 
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GodzillasBiggestFan

GodzillasBiggestFan

Godzilla's Lonely Bestie
Jan 12, 2026
283
i've said all three really. i suppose in truth it is just a want of mine. but it feels like a need or even a predetermined thing i have no control over.
 
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somethingisntreal

somethingisntreal

Self sabotaging day #178406
Aug 30, 2025
157
Most days it's "i want to die" but sometimes it becomes "I need to die"
 
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