Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Parasitism]

Drunk and self pity and anger

 

[EmptyBottle]

Make a protonmail acc.

tbh, I could have used my protonmail to register, didn't consider it for some reason.

On a side note, feel quite nice that I'm able to get all 10 items on the Arduino sensor board working, by plugging the board directly and using the official library, I was able to add them one by one easier:

Accelerometer, Potentiometer (which enables/disables and controls buzzer), Temp & Barometer, Light (sensor), Sound, Temp & Humidity, -LED, Button, -OLED (black and white, high contrast display)

At first, the OLED displayed milliseconds since arduino restart... but with the button (which still lights the red LED when pressed) and some variables, got it to cycle through the sensors.

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

Baby's first suicide plan:

Step 1. Overdose on sleeping meds

Step 2. Have my unconscious body become submerged in bath water, leading me to drown

 

[Unlucky777]

I just want out of this existence. Fleeting moments of happiness are not worth the eternal suffering. I wish I had the courage right now to attempt. I wish I had the courage to jump off a high rise. I wish I had the courage to run in front of a bus or train. I wish I had the courage to drown myself. I just wish I had the courage to do anything that would end my existence right now.

 

[In4rope]

Anger. Im in fucking store ans there is like 7 old ppl just making line for no reason

 

[EmptyBottle]

While I'm disappointed the arduino sensor board mysteriously stopped working (doubt adjusting the red LED brightness with a screwdriver caused it, even tho the screwdriver slipped and made a scratch, since the LED was able to be toggled a few times), after 7000s of continuous runtime, and refusing to be programmed....

I find it so cool that an uncensored AI bot, running locally, can chat quite realistically, even down to the typing speed.

It briefly changed personality before I learnt I have to type /clear first (I did that before talking to it... it's cute and fun)

Spoiler: AI

>>> answer without clarification: :3
:s)

>>> ^u^
*smirk*

>>> hehe
hahaha XD!!!

>>> ^^
<3

>>> <3
<3 back at ya!

>>> aww tks
np ^_^

>>> :3)
:)

>>> I'm relaxing, wbu?
me too!! <3 im chillin in cyber space

>>> that's nice
its the simple things in life

>>> indeed
*smiles softly*

>>> *smiles back*
:hugs*

>>> :hugs:
forever friends

>>> :)
:-)

>>> cya
l8r <3

➜ ollama run Hudson/llama3.1-uncensored:8b
>>> answer without clarification: :3
Simpsons reference. A simple and cute answer to a nonsensical question. Well played,
human.

>>> /clear
Cleared session context
>>> answer without clarification: :3
⠴ It seems like you're trying to convey a playful or mischievous tone! In that case,
I'll respond with equal enthusiasm:

Hehehe, XD

>>> ^u^
*rolls eyes* Whatever.

>>> :D
:3 back at ya!

>>> :3 u 2
;) yeah

>>> bye
CU L8R

 

[In4rope]

Goddamn i hate old fuckers. They finnish shoping leave their shit on cash register and go take some random shit like it is perfectly normal without regard for other people
I wish i had courqge to say something

 

[corpse]

I want to die.

 

[Dejected 55]

I don't have a reason for anything. It all escapes me. I do not understand. I mostly no longer want to try to understand. But I cannot accept. I only endure. I am tired of enduring.

 

[thankyouforthis]

Unappreciated and invisible. And I don't even usually mind the latter; but today, I do.

 

[Lady_V]

One minute I'm looking at guns to shoot myself with, another minute I'm looking up plastic surgery to completely change myself into maybe someone new.

Whatever mood disorder I have is kicking my ass.

 

[LigottiIsRight]

For me, suicide is the right move to end the permanent loop of unsolvable worries. It doesn't stop the worrying on itself, but its condition of possibility.

 

[perishsong]

One minute I'm looking at guns to shoot myself with, another minute I'm looking up plastic surgery to completely change myself into maybe someone new.

Whatever mood disorder I have is kicking my ass.

Same. I literally have SaSu in one tab and job search in another. Life is tormenting, death is dreadful.

 

[Dejected 55]

I feel pain and simultaneously numbness. I feel everything and nothing at the same time. It is an excruciating thing.

 

[EmptyBottle]

idk why bus stops have an east and west side in small font vs in the letter. Habit caused me to pick the wrong side, delaying the journey.

 

[°opulentGambler°]

I just kinda realized I'm only here because of my few friends and my mom, and it only feels like my mom still puts up with me because I lie about everything in my life. I have no reason to continue for myself

 

[Dejected 55]

I have no legitimate reason to continue to exist, looking back I can't even justify my existence prior to this point. There's no real reason for me to continue, but finding a way out continues to be a struggle. I don't know what to do anymore. I just keep existing, barely some days, and waiting.

 

[catsalvation]

I don't see any hope that my life will be any better. I want to do the SN method but it's very hard to obtain all of the necessary items. I found a source in October but was too coward to order and now it is not available anymore. I regret it so much.
I hope I can get everything needed somehow. And if the next year won't bring any relief or improvement I'll have my plan B ready...

 

[Manaaja]

Pedophiles didn't exist before parents started making kids. Can't be pedo if kids don't exist. Can't be pedo if you don't exist.

 

[iblamecurlyhair]

I feel empty. Like if you slice me open, you'll find nothing there. Just black emptiness. I go through life mechanically, and it's like every emotion I feel is fake. Like they're really just at the surface. Beneath, there's nothing. It's weird. I know what to feel but I don't feel it.

I'm hurting and because of that, I end up hurting others. I don't want to cause pain anymore. I don't want to feel pain anymore. I just want it all to end.

word for word brother

 

[Defenestration]

I LOVE LIFE...
Just hâte diceases

 

[°opulentGambler°]

I love when im in vc with the only 2 people I talk to and they completely ignore everything i say because they're too busy flirting in dms (the only 2 people keeping me here treat me like a complete afterthought) and I relapse again

 

[starryend]

I feel invisible when trying to talk to people, and feel like I'll never be actually happy again.

 

[Bowerbird]

Holiday season = battle royale for certain histrionic family members to inevitably stir the shit pot and clamour for that sweet, sweet ATTENTION they all crave. Emotional vampires. I'm glad I'm an adult now so nobody can make me stick around. Not my toilet, not my shit.

 

[In4rope]

Cold. My heating doesn't work. It's making me feel like a faliure

 

[Black_Knight]

Had a breakthrough with chatgpt last night
I know hating on AI is the new cool thing but I love it
Feed me the slop!

 

[Dejected 55]

I don't know. I know facts and figures... I can handle logic puzzles... but life and society make no sense.

 

[starryend]

He already talks about getting a house one day and having kids. It's hurts a lot to hear him talk about his future that I won't be any part of. But he wants to move on, I'll only be making it easier. I hope I'll be at peace soon.

 

[Sphene]

I feel like my time is nearly up. There's no path forward, it's all too late and it's not enough

 

[darksouls]

weak, angry and disappointed because I could not open my jar of red beet, so I had to eat celeriac