Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[ineedsomerest]

Exhausted, not sure where everything went wrong and how I let my life get to this point.

 

[Dejected 55]

Lethargic, not entirely in the moment... or maybe entirely in the moment and nowhere else. It's hard to tell. I'm definitely disconnected from the outside world. It is so quiet right now inside my house alone. No noise except the pecking of my fingers on the keyboard while typing this post. That's it. It gets so quiet here alone.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I made an alt with a random age... at the time I just wanted a disposable gmail to make it harder for someone in power to doxx me (eg upon registering), to test how easy it was for a Google account to be created (relatively easy, but eventually it might ask for phone number, the number can be removed after login tho)... and I recently wanted to see if the social media restrictions were real in Australia.

After trusting this forum, I can share my results on the ban-day. The account can still use gmail, google drive, google calendar (pictured, I made a TURD... that's a word that under 16 users likely don't know btw.. mods you can run my posts thru typing analysis software, and it will show I'm older than 18), and even google docs (I didn't test other stuff)

 

[Dejected 55]

I don't want to be here. I don't want to be anywhere. I am so tired.

 

[4colliez]

Feeling pretty awful honestly. I hate being a sensitive person, I hate being non-confrontational. I hate hearing things that make me feel bad and not say anything because I'm scared people will start a fight, or because I'll be talked badly about. Because I know I'll cry, so instead I say nothing and get to feel like a coward

 

[CTB Dream]

this rly all pain sfffr nostp me noable doany no psbl

 

[EmptyBottle]

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I made an alt with a random age... at the time I just wanted a disposable gmail to make it harder for someone in power to doxx me (eg upon registering), to test how easy it was for a Google account to be created (relatively easy, but eventually it might ask for phone number, the number can be removed after login tho)... and I recently wanted to see if the social media restrictions were real in Australia.

After trusting this forum, I can share my results on the ban-day. The account can still use gmail, google drive, google calendar (pictured, I made a TURD... that's a word that under 16 users likely don't know btw.. mods you can run my posts thru typing analysis software, and it will show I'm older than 18), and even google docs (I didn't test other stuff)


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Feels like a good morning, waking up and not being banned (or being asked for ID, which would be as good as banned coz I don't want to be doxxed) for sharing this fun fact.

Yes, @Ihatemyself renewed herself as @ihatemyself2025 ... tho at a minimum, I'd be gone for months or longer before I can renew myself similarly.

 

[Manaaja]

Both genders do that stupid "but what about the other gender!" bullshit.

Sexual psychology subreddits are so stupid because of that. Innocent sons and daughters die worldwide everyday, because people will defend their deadly, dangerous, evil sexual choices, beliefs and instincts.

Many spouses have died, many kids have died, because someone listened to their genitals instead of the criminal records.

This is why I prefer yaoi girls and yuri boys and whatever. You can love every fictional evil goodlooking person, it won't result in the deaths of your sons and daughters.

 

[Dejected 55]

Slept into the mid afternoon today. Did not want to get out of bed. Am awake but not wanting to be. It will be a while before I'm sleepy enough to sleep more... but I don't ever look forward to being awake much anymore.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Surprised... it's one thing for Google's safesearch to be set to filter due to the alt not being old enough... but when duckduckgo and yandex manage to catch on and give "no results" for a test search (beginning with h and ending in i).

Believe it or not, I'm not interested in clicking on the results... and believe it or not... duckduckgo in tor has safesearch off.

Update: I learnt my DNS resolver (cloudflare) might be doing it (not Australian govt rules)... 1.1.1.3 is the DNS that blocks adult content and malware, and likely tells search engines to do the same. yandex gives no results for that query even with it off (for testing).

 

[Manaaja]

If you are ever in a mass shooting, just tell them you are my parent and you are a stupid, narcissistic, psychopathic idiot who loves nothing more than making my life hell. They'll instantly apologize, destroy their guns, and walk into jail. Because people fear nothing more than accidentally hurting my parents.

If you fear a hurricane, or a mega storm, or giant waves, volcano eruptions, earthquakes, anything, just send my parents there. There won't be any. Such is their plot armor.

Just chain my parents to your back and you will be perfectly safe.

They should farm my parents's skin and sell them as clothes. Imagine being in a car crash and being completely okay since my parents's skin gave you plot armor.

I still remember how my disgusting grandfather was driven over by a car in his late 80s and he was just fine. Not a single permanent injury. Any other person would have died, but nooooo, not my grandfather, he was only a tiny man in his 80s, he simply can't get injured when a car drives over him.

 

[Dejected 55]

Still very lethargic. Sleeping about 12 hours most days now, not wanting to get out of bed. Eventually I get up because I've ran out of sleep... but I don't do much besides eating and watching TV. Lather, rinse, repeat.

 

[corpse]

I am ready to die.

 

[Manaaja]

Tall, handsome, pretty fathers.

They are all my daddys.

 

[LigottiIsRight]

I'm mostly done. Suicide is a door that's permanently open besides me, and its presence is very comforting. I hope I'd be capable of crossing it when I decide so.

The end of all this unwanted and utterly unneeded nonsense. I don't know how much time is left for the extinction of humanity, but is too long in any case.

 

[Binderz]

Pensive. Nervous.

 

[ChaiTea]

I'd rather be dead than be who I am. I think I'm just tired of being in the way

 

[broken_stoic]

Anxious over some things I don't need to be anxious at. Worried about some things I really do. Actually kind of want to make a bit more of a go at it for a little while longer . . . but not sure I can swing it. Back to being not quite ready to go just yet, but not sure I'll have a choice.

 

[starryend]

It's a strange feeling, wondering if it'll be the last time you see someone before you go.

 

[Defenestration]

Want die in sleeping today

 

[Lady_V]

I'm about to try heroin tonight. Just waiting on a call from my dealer. I always thought you had to inject that stuff, but my dealer said she'll teach me how to smoke it. If she wasn't a girl, I wouldn't have trusted her.
My ex used to encourage me to make friends at uni. So I did. Now she's my dealer and giving me hard drugs. Ha~
This is an active choice I am making to get worse. I am just fucking done. I want to get so fucking high and be alone. I let my family know this weekend is the last time they are going to see me. Either I become an addict or I kms. As long as I am no longer me, idc.

 

[shylady222]

Anxious

 

[corpse]

I am even more ready to die than I was yesterday.

 

[Dejected 55]

Complicated anxious sadness... the whirling pool of despair and waiting for shoes to drop and bury me underneath obligations that will never be met.

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

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I made an alt with a random age... at the time I just wanted a disposable gmail to make it harder for someone in power to doxx me (eg upon registering), to test how easy it was for a Google account to be created (relatively easy, but eventually it might ask for phone number, the number can be removed after login tho)... and I recently wanted to see if the social media restrictions were real in Australia.

After trusting this forum, I can share my results on the ban-day. The account can still use gmail, google drive, google calendar (pictured, I made a TURD... that's a word that under 16 users likely don't know btw.. mods you can run my posts thru typing analysis software, and it will show I'm older than 18), and even google docs (I didn't test other stuff)


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Make a protonmail acc.

 

[Defenestration]

Anxious because social phobia and see people( remi and others)

 

[Mothz]

My mind feels disconnected from my body

 

[Unlucky777]

I'm questioning my self worth and my existence.

 

[Defenestration]

C'est épuisant d'entendre les gens répéter leur cliché « Ça va aller mieux ! » comme s'ils en avaient la moindre idée ou qu'ils s'en souciaient le moins du monde.

Exactly...

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

So frakin tired....
Had a lot of caffeine.... Still tired.
Longing for friends, that text back. Really how hard is it ?
I really need a long bro-hug.... I don't know if that makes any sense.
It would be nice to feel that someone cares. I don't need preaching or useless platitudes.
I want to tell someone how I feel and just be listened to. Not shamed or turned in to the cops.