Little, Or Even... Hope?

[vivia]

nothing in this life is permanent, everything's gonna end eventually. i'm not trying to be some nihilistic person who's all lost and thinks everything's pointless, but like... that's just reality, right? even you're gonna die someday, whether it's your own doing, someone else, some random accident, or an illness, bottom line, you're gonna go too. but you still try, don't you? you still go to work, rest, eat, even though you know it's all gonna end anyway. same goes for everything else, your friendships, your cringey little love life, this and that, all of it's gonna end. some of it naturally, cause everyone gets caught up in their own lives, and some of it because of problems, big or small, or even something tiny that got blown way out of proportion. i'm not saying don't hope for anything, go ahead and hope, put in the effort, but that doesn't change the fact that everything's gonna end. at least, the longer it lasts the better, right... if you wanna push back on this, well, it's not really something you can argue about anyway. i'm just stating facts. don't believe me? do you still talk to your elementary or middle school friends like you used to? nope, right? it ended, didn't it? see? haha, i'm just stating facts, or... opinions? honestly i don't even know, but that's basically the gist of it. enjoy what you've got right now, don't waste it, and don't feel like it's all gonna be for nothing. keep moving forward, take the past as a lesson, turn your hopes and dreams into something real, make it last longer and worth it, at least. and also... beginnings and endings, there's always gonna be something that hurts. whether it's while you're in the middle of it or even when you're walking away. we also gotta learn to be more at peace with accepting or letting go of things. yeah, it was valuable, or maybe it wasn't, it still happened. everything can become a lesson and a memory, good or bad. maybe i or you feel hurt because it's gone, but don't be like that, smile because it happened at all. a lot of people never even got to experience something good like we did. be grateful for what's here, and find peace with what's not...

...ah, wise words i said when i only had 2 options, keep going, or just be done with it. both hurt, it's this painful just to say something motivational like that. well, at least i'm still here, don't know if that's a good thing or not. and honestly i don't even know if i'll actually apply any of what i just said​