Oh God!! Same! (Claustrophobia) Ugh I'm gonna have to ponder what that looks like to me.
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Sir. Turnerkof
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- Mar 1, 2024
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This is a good one... I will try my best!
The result was not what I expected.... I tried to make it less schizo but it was impossible lol...
But yeah this is me after losing my purpose and will to keep growing and Life and Struggle eats what's left of me which it would be only negative energy because I would end it all...
Life is my enemy after all
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carac
"and if this is the end, i am glad i met you."
- May 27, 2023
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This is very cool that you managed to capture this and express it in the drawing. I don't think it looks schizo
I hope you can find some purpose again
Sir. Turnerkof
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- Mar 1, 2024
- 29
I haven't lost it...
Instead of saying sorry I want to say thank you, and show it with actions, I hope when i make it it's not too late that's all
Even if I lost it I will find another one I am sure, but I will never forget the feeling and I hope by saying thank you this way I will not be "another one"
scarlet-pixie
1/12/2024
- Apr 30, 2024
- 22
carac
"and if this is the end, i am glad i met you."
- May 27, 2023
- 1,100
This is really sad but I relate a lot
AbusedInnocent
Enemy brain ain't cooperating
- Apr 5, 2024
- 255
My first post on the recovery section, I'm liking the vibes on this thread and hope to be an active participant from now on as I'm pretty bored right now.
Just wanted to send my thanks to carac for making the thread as it seems quite fun.
Anyway I'm not exactly a creative person, I feel like I've learned to think like an engineer, a mathematician, a scientist or a philosopher but I've never been able to think like an artist.
Anyway here's a quick sketch, don't think I'll be making a higher quality version, made this on an android tablet using kleki.com and didn't spend too much time on it so surely anyone can make something similar.
See if you can guess the meaning behind it before opening the spoiler, want to know if I'm getting the point across.
My greatest fear is being trapped in an undesirable situation with now way to change it or escape it.
Of course since I'm depressed being alive is constantly undesirable.
The fire represents the suffering of existence and fear of the future, the empty fire extinguisher holder represents no hope of recovery or lack of a solution, the metal EXIT door with various locks represents the feeling of being trapped with no way out as you have to jump through hoops to CTB, me being a fox represents powerlessness as I couldn't use the fire extinguisher even if it was there and I couldn't open the door even if it wasn't locked.
Hope the image got the meaning across first.
Of course since I'm depressed being alive is constantly undesirable.
The fire represents the suffering of existence and fear of the future, the empty fire extinguisher holder represents no hope of recovery or lack of a solution, the metal EXIT door with various locks represents the feeling of being trapped with no way out as you have to jump through hoops to CTB, me being a fox represents powerlessness as I couldn't use the fire extinguisher even if it was there and I couldn't open the door even if it wasn't locked.
Hope the image got the meaning across first.
carac
"and if this is the end, i am glad i met you."
- May 27, 2023
- 1,100
Thanks for joining in, you are most welcome. It's so great to see all this participation. Your fear is very close to my own which reminds me I need to start work on mine
Me, too. I am in an "up" cycle after being basically bedfast for the last week or so. Which means I really overdid it today and my chronic pain from my accident has kicked into overdrive. My pain mgmt doc would shit a brick but I've taken twice as much in mg today than I usually do and it has just barely taken the edge off, but dammit I had things that needed to be done.
I have it (my artwork) at the top of my to-do list in the morning. I used to be a fairly decent artist but it has been YEARS since I put any effort into anything. Maybe I should change that.
carac
"and if this is the end, i am glad i met you."
- May 27, 2023
- 1,100
Ok I wanted to try digital work as I mostly avoid it so I am not very practised. Also I don't think I conveyed my fear very well, I actually don't mind being solitary and can do quite well in my own company.
Lol that almost looks like HEAVEN to me.
All I need is a bookshelf full of books and a dozen or so cats! 
carac
"and if this is the end, i am glad i met you."
- May 27, 2023
- 1,100
Challenge 45: Semantle
Ok I am just going to post another challenge type game for people to and get the old grey matter working.
This one is called Semantle, you have to guess the daily word and you do so by making radnom guesses and it tells you how close you are to the actual word. It's not about how the word is spelt but the meaning, hence semantically. How close can you get, can you guess the word.
Link to game https://semantle.com/
I managed to get yestedays and the day before. I did use a hint on one of them but I am trying not to now!
Ok I am just going to post another challenge type game for people to and get the old grey matter working.
This one is called Semantle, you have to guess the daily word and you do so by making radnom guesses and it tells you how close you are to the actual word. It's not about how the word is spelt but the meaning, hence semantically. How close can you get, can you guess the word.
Link to game https://semantle.com/
I managed to get yestedays and the day before. I did use a hint on one of them but I am trying not to now!
deservetosuffer
v zero eight nine
- May 9, 2023
- 35
Tried it just now, it's very confusing at first but I managed to guess the word, I had to use a lot of hints though. I'll try again later with less hints.
AbusedInnocent
Enemy brain ain't cooperating
- Apr 5, 2024
- 255
Got it in 36 tries and 3 hints.
Very interesting concept, I think I understand how it works, it measures the similarity of the words by measuring their distance in multidimensional vector space as the tokens are encoded by a Large Language Model, there's a very nice video by 3Blue1Brown that visualizes this concept if you're interested.
Very interesting concept, I think I understand how it works, it measures the similarity of the words by measuring their distance in multidimensional vector space as the tokens are encoded by a Large Language Model, there's a very nice video by 3Blue1Brown that visualizes this concept if you're interested.
This one sounds challenging. Soon as my morning migraine lets up I'll give it a try.
carac
"and if this is the end, i am glad i met you."
- May 27, 2023
- 1,100
I haven't tried any hints yet, closest I got so far to todays is College 18.16
I agree with everyone here, took a lot of hints and 40 odd guesses (even a negative similarity somehow!!?!) but I can see how over time you could possibly get the hang of how it 'works' - or just get increasingly frustrated by it!!!!
I also still have the wordle website bookmarked from the other week and pop onto that for distraction once in a while - though I go through waves of a ton of words back-to-back and then zero interest in it whatsoever!!
I also still have the wordle website bookmarked from the other week and pop onto that for distraction once in a while - though I go through waves of a ton of words back-to-back and then zero interest in it whatsoever!!
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sugarb
thief of silent dreams
- Jun 14, 2024
- 797
carac
"and if this is the end, i am glad i met you."
- May 27, 2023
- 1,100
Nice, I got it in the end in 49 guesses, no hints but a little help from a friend.
It's quite a nice activity to do with others as you can pool ideas
Preh1storic_Rib
How do I return this joy?
- Aug 22, 2024
- 36
Used a random generator to choose, but this was really fun :]
carac
"and if this is the end, i am glad i met you."
- May 27, 2023
- 1,100
Oh wow another pokemon! That's a neat idea to pick one at random, it gets you over that mental hurdle of deciding which one to do
I should try and collate all the pokemon together at some point
Sir. Turnerkof
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- Mar 1, 2024
- 29
Mmmm yes my grey matter working at 100% cpu rn
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sugarb
thief of silent dreams
- Jun 14, 2024
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carac
"and if this is the end, i am glad i met you."
- May 27, 2023
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This has made me really curious as to what it could be today lol, I can't figure it out yet
Sir. Turnerkof
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- Mar 1, 2024
- 29
I found the word with no clues and in the 56 attempt today! I won't spoil it tho!
carac
"and if this is the end, i am glad i met you."
- May 27, 2023
- 1,100
Nice one, I am trying now, I've had about 20 guesses so far and the closest I have is 29.00
Widdershins
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- Dec 29, 2023
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The closest I've gotten so far has been 37.02.
35 guesses and 3 hints.
35 guesses and 3 hints.
carac
"and if this is the end, i am glad i met you."
- May 27, 2023
- 1,100
Lol this one is so frustrating, I have the 2nd 3rd and 4th word away but cant get it
I've used no hints and 41 guesses
Haha yes. Same. (Word #949) Got the 2nd on guess 29 but now over 50 guesses and most the top 10 but still not got it!!! Equally, quite pleased with myself for no hints. Lets see if post night shift brain has any inspiration for it! (Doubtful...)
Sir. Turnerkof
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- Mar 1, 2024
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