Random thoughts

[Morphinekiss]

How stupid can I get? Pretty stupid.

 

[mattwitt]

I hope there is a Hell and that my mother ends up in the worse part of it for all of eternity !

 

[GinaIsReady]

What I really need is to be at the beach. with a cocktail. and a gorgeous man.

 

[WhyIsLife56]

People seem to twist my words just so that they can try to justify their pain. Don't use me as a scapegoat.
I should probably just stop posting. I'm tired of it. Just sick and tired.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Maybe it's time to disappear

 

[CyanideSoup]

I'm losing an IRL tomorrow, somebody who also visits the forum to lurk but I knew before I came here.. I hate this feeling, I don't want to lose him. But I know he is in pain and I'd never want to stop him being happy. I love him, he has been such an amazing friend to me and I will miss him so much. I really don't know how I will cope without him...

 

[Jean4]

I'm losing an IRL tomorrow, somebody who also visits the forum to lurk but I knew before I came here.. I hate this feeling, I don't want to lose him. But I know he is in pain and I'd never want to stop him being happy. I love him, he has been such an amazing friend to me and I will miss him so much. I really don't know how I will cope without him...

No worries. You have me, and I will be there for you.

 

[enjoy]

i thought you were my best friend. you're choosing to spend time with a guy who doesn't even care about you instead of your best friend. i invited you over so many times, and you promised you'd come. when i asked you if you were still coming last night, you yelled at me. you said you were busy, but now you're going to see him. are we not best friends anymore? why do all of my friends hate me? why am i the last choice? why is everyone moving further and further away now that i've told them how i feel?

everyone's leaving after i told them i need people to say because i need support. i don't get it. do they want me to kill myself? it hurts so bad.

i hope my appeal gets rejected so i never have to go back to college again. it'll give me another reason to ctb sooner.

 

[Midnight]

The best night i could wish for is to have someone next me who enjoy's my company,driving a last time i my car having a nice drive in the sunset ..in the end lying in bed, her head resting on my chest,my arms arround her,some soft music in the background, my last breath be a sigh of relief, close my eyes and with a faint smile pass away as if i where falling asleep.

A life of loneliness, 2 decades of suicidal depression ... It would be worth just that. It would be worth all of it.

Instead this wretched world will have me leave hanging on a rope, alone, succumbed to the relentless suffering.

 

[Deleted member 13227]

I wish there was someone that could relate to me in real life.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Knowing that your gone and you truly passed away has given me my final push to ctb. Your notes you left me are haunting. I should have come back. I am so sorry. I miss you....my heart hurts. I'll be joining you soon. And we can be together forever like it was meant to be and should have been.

 

[GinaIsReady]

It is noteworthy and so interesting to observe the changes in my perspective as my exit draws nearer and nearer. Things are becoming much easier as I slowly zero in on what is really important in life. I have so much less to be concerned with now that I have discarded all the unimportant stuff. I have stopped suffering, at long last. I can't imagine it is that way for everyone. My heart goes out to those still suffering (D); I hope you find some peace before you exit. I have a few more weeks then I'm gone.

 

[CyanideSoup]

I really don't want to live like this anymore. I'm putting everyone through hell..

 

[blueming]

I've been watching videos of people base jumping at Beachy Head recently to prepare myself. I've never liked heights but looking at the drop, I don't feel afraid at all. Of course my SI will probably kick in once I'm actually there, but right now it feels like I could easily jump off and end everything.

 

[ReverendGreen]

An old coworker that I had a huge crush on two years ago came into my work (different job) yesterday with her boyfriend. I don't think she recognized me.
Today I remembered that I haven't changed at all or done anything worthwhile in the last four years. Maybe my entire life actually. I kept staring at the calendar throughout the day, recounting all of the nothing that's happened each year. I only have memories of daydreams about lives I barely ever pursue. once in a while I'll try but I can't progress past the first step.
It's all making me feel like a ghost.
I wish I could figure out how to enjoy drifting through life like this.

bleh this post is stupid and I feel like I've made the exact same post fifty times on here

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I have no life due to depression, therefore I must do no work due to anxiety. Perfect work-life balance.

 

[woxihuanni]

I do not really forgive.

 

[Lefty]

Thinking about CTB.

 

[Life sucks]

So sad about crimes against camels in Australia. Innocent creatures suffers because of shitty humans

 

[BooGirl]

Sticky Web is fucking infuriating in Randoms. If you don't have a rapid spinner, then how in the world are you supposed to clear it?!? It's literally the most crippling entry hazard. There are so many suicide leads that are based on speed, so if they lose a stage of speed, they can't function at all! It's not like it just takes away a bit of damage.

 

[Life sucks]

Humans are inherently toxic

 

[RM5998]

Sticky Web is fucking infuriating in Randoms. If you don't have a rapid spinner, then how in the world are you supposed to clear it?!? It's literally the most crippling entry hazard. There are so many suicide leads that are based on speed, so if they lose a stage of speed, they can't function at all! It's not like it just takes away a bit of damage.

Doesn't Defog also work? Granted, you lose your hazards as well, but usually that's not THAT crippling (especially in Randoms, where power level within a team is pretty widely distributed). I agree about it being stupidly frustrating though.
To use this convenient opportunity to rail on PS and the current meta, I hate the Dynamax bullshit that has come in with Gen 8, which pretty much gives the enemy a convenient window to set up that wallbreaker to obliterate half your team for no discernible reason. Makes it especially irritating when it's a fucking WAILORD OHKOing my Dragonite, my Mega Scizor and my Sp.Def. biased Sylveon.

 

[BooGirl]

Doesn't Defog also work? Granted, you lose your hazards as well, but usually that's not THAT crippling (especially in Randoms, where power level within a team is pretty widely distributed). I agree about it being stupidly frustrating though.
To use this convenient opportunity to rail on PS and the current meta, I hate the Dynamax bullshit that has come in with Gen 8, which pretty much gives the enemy a convenient window to set up that wallbreaker to obliterate half your team for no discernible reason. Makes it especially irritating when it's a fucking WAILORD OHKOing my Dragonite, my Mega Scizor and my Sp.Def. biased Sylveon.

Yeah, you do sometimes get Defog, but if you don't have it, and the opponent has Sticky Web, you're fucking done for.

And I basically just stick to Gen 7 haha. Dynamax is annoying. Z-powers, which let you just throw any counter out the window, is bad enough.

 

[Thereisnothing]

Why is it so hard for me to go and yet so hard to stay....................on a never stop revolving carousel.

 

[Broken Chimera]

If I stay awake until sunrise one more time. Damn insomnia.

 

[GinaIsReady]

I wonder what it would feel like to be back in my home state, where it is warm and never ever snows, instead of wearing layers of clothes, heavy socks and slippers? I want to be able to go for a walk and be comfortable in shorts and tee shirt. I detest the weather where I live. I need sunshine. I do not seem to thrive without it. Good thing I'm going to be exiting soon. But I need to experience sunshine first., one last time. Ah, the peace of the beach on the Gulf of Mexico. It's calling.

 

[Life sucks]

I'm starting to hate being here and should've quit

 

[Lefty]

Want to just get away.

 

[Jean4]

If I wasn't suicidal already, Donald Trump would make me be.

 

[exhausted]

I want to be the only person in the world and wander around empty cities watching nature reclaim the earth. I will feed all the stray animals.