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Experienced
- Jun 7, 2019
- 249
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Lennox
No alarms, and no surprises...
- Jul 21, 2019
- 223
I'm tipsy too. But I work alone. I have a repair shop, I fix electronics. And just now someone brought me more work (it's already night here). But it's fine, keeps my mind off things.
lilyeehaw
yeehaw?
- Jun 30, 2019
- 86
Started cutting again after a few months free, I wanna go deeper so bad and just end it but i keep chickening out.
Kjo
Student
- Jun 7, 2019
- 148
I can relate so much. I had been clean for three years and then relapsed right back to cutting... It feels like no matter what my cuts "don't count" if that makes sense. Much love and hopes for peace for you.
ReverendGreen
Sleepy
- Jun 27, 2019
- 123
I'm going to shave my head just like how I've always wanted to when I was younger.Avoid any assholes who talks about family bullshit as an argument. Family values and traditions my ass. Also no its not sacred. Fuck you and fuck your bullshit.
blanketyblk
Mage
- Jun 9, 2019
- 575
All packed and about to head off on a road trip to clear my mind. going to the near center of Australia..Last edited:was getting depressed and desperate with life, wanted to go on here to vent but then I read posts of people who actually suffer and just lose the need to say anything. well life gotta life. due to my unique issue I can't talk about it even to the people on here, feel kinda lonely.
AngelGirl
Cat
- May 18, 2019
- 167
Why??? Just curious.... I'm an East Asian girl myself although I'm not cute... I have so many easy Asian girl friends who are so cute and adorable but suicidal.
Kjo
Student
- Jun 7, 2019
- 148
Unique issues lend more reason to educate everyone. Feel free to share and I hope you feel less lonely. Much love.
Oblivion Lover
No life, no suffering
- May 30, 2019
- 360
I hate those moments when I'm on SS and can't think of anything wise or just coherent and meaningful to post. It seems so easy and natural for other people to do that and gain a ton of likes.
Kikoo Loool
Enlightened
- Feb 25, 2019
- 1,123
Pentobartbital
Crumbling
- Feb 25, 2019
- 183
This morning I had a brief reprieve from the suffering and chaos in my personal world. My oasis had been in the unlikely location of my back yard.
What made it so different, you may ask? I got a tobacco pipe recently. Cheap Italian briar with a bent stem. This was my third session ever since purchase, and I've been getting batter at packing, lighting and sipping on the stem. Tasting the aromatic blend like a sommelier does his wine. I watched the sun lazily ascend and warm my thick, soft flesh through my black clothes as I gazed at the glacially slow renewal of the grass' length.
Do we really have it better today? I'm not one to romanticise former eras, but to have been here sixty years ago, enjoying a good bowl in a hardy truck on the way to work. Letting the smiles of neighbours and fresh, wet summer air pass me by. Packing and lighting my pipes in firm rotation, rarely seen without one.
I've smoked a pipe plenty before in university, but now I can appreciate it. When I look into the abyssal coal void inside of the carbonised bowl, it's as if I'm being partially reconnected to a holy place shared by numerous ancestors.
Like cacao and cannabis, tobacco is very truly a divine gift meant for all mankind to savour.
Kikoo Loool
Enlightened
- Feb 25, 2019
- 1,123
If I kill myself, all the efforts I did in my life to study, to improve at work, all the time my family spent for me and society invested in my education at school, all the interesting or just beautiful things I learnt or experienced, will disappear.
Whatever happens, it will be obliterated within a few decades. So what's the point?
SinisterKid
Visionary
- Jun 1, 2019
- 2,113
RM5998
Sack of Meat
- Sep 3, 2018
- 2,201
Well, I guess the crash was bound to come... And it has. I hope these guys go out for dinner tonight, I need some ridiculous people to absorb my attention and take my mind off this shit.
throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
- 1,452
so close to ending it so close
sometimes there are these moments when I could just pull the trigger, if only there was one. You americans have it so easy.Last edited:What good is having an oncologist if you can't get anyone to answer the damn phone so I can make a fucking appointment!
mattwitt
# 978
- Jun 28, 2018
- 2,309
I really hate it when people get my humility confused with stupidity or weakness.
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Member
- May 31, 2019
- 26
i hope i dont panic too much when i attempt to CTB with SN next week
waived
I am a sunrise
- Jan 5, 2019
- 975
<3 not being able to manage new social interactions and not 'I think it's bad' when it's actually okay'. It's just bad. Especially when trapped within the situation that drags out for hours and sometimes turns into forever.
waived
I am a sunrise
- Jan 5, 2019
- 975
It isn't really even an anxiety, it's a cognitive wall with a rapid bleeding of energy.This is why i started imagining things.
Abuse
Why did i get a life
I feel sick to my stomach
did atleast one positive happen because of my life
I had faced abuse all of my shitty life
I despise myself
Atleast i am a grown up now.. not as helpless when i was a kid.
Atleast my life is better than some prostitutes being forced into prostitution.Last edited:
262653
Cluesome
- Apr 5, 2018
- 1,733
Enjoy the ride, I guess. I think about Doom game right now. What's the point of even playing if you're only concerned about completing the game and not enjoying the process of flooding UAC complexes with demonic blood? Or beating the crap out of the lost souls with a double barrel shotgun, slicing down zombies with a chainsaw while laughing hysterically...Last edited:
I guess I have severe body + gender dysmorphia. I just think east asians are cute, sexy and smart. I've always thought that east asians are genetically superior for the aforementioned reasons. In the past I contemplated getting plastic surgery on my eyes to make them looking more mongoloid, but I realised it is unlikely to work well + its very expensive even to attempt to have it done properly. Even now, I don't go out without straightening my hair. East asians have all the facial/body features that I will never have in this life.
Can'tStandAnymore
Custom title
- Mar 16, 2019
- 234
Anybody know what happened to the user @IronTusk ? He didn't post any good-bye post, yet his account is deleted.I like reading this poem by Edgar Allan Poe with the song Daydreaming by Radiohead in the background. So i'll also link to that:
Poem's called Dream, and it's about being haunted by a waking dream/daydream, figment of the author's mind probably as a mean to escape the painful reality which is too much to bear, the world chiding.
So here it goes:
In visions of the dark night
I have dreamed of joy departed—
But a waking dream of life and light
Hath left me broken-hearted.
Ah! what is not a dream by day
To him whose eyes are cast
On things around him with a ray
Turned back upon the past?
That holy dream—that holy dream,
While all the world were chiding,
Hath cheered me as a lovely beam
A lonely spirit guiding.
What though that light, thro' storm and night,
So trembled from afar—
What could there be more purely bright
In Truth's day-star?
I have no idea sorry.
blanketyblk
Mage
- Jun 9, 2019
- 575
Staying a a resort atm. my camping trip was a bit of a bust. been raining constantly and was freezing at night, way to cold to stay in a tent with a sleeping bag. the good news is. my head is slowly clearing and starting to think more positive thoughts..I want to spend a part of my life without emotional manipulations, toxic things, toxic people.. when your own own parents are a bit problematic ..its a bit hard.
I feel like i got over this.. but no. A part of me still is getting hurt.
I don't want to face this again. This is why i am afraid of becoming a parent.. i am afraid i'll hurt.
I saw that @IronTusk told that they'll self-ban. They did the same a while later. I know only that.Last edited:
