lost illusions
bye
- Sep 12, 2018
- 548
Right after I posted this, I got to go from 0 to hero and back to 0. I got to be important for 10mins, yay me
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SkyBlue
Member
- Dec 15, 2018
- 50
It's amazing how things can change in hindsight, how sometimes what we think things are can be off in a certain way, and what our minds are capable of figuring out
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
brighter
Warlock
- Jan 22, 2019
- 718
I used to keep myself going by saying "It isn't gonna be like this forever. I won't have to go through this forever. It will go away some day."
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
That's what got me through childhood...
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
Cannot wait to see what awaits me beyond death
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
Took a long warm bath, paid for a massage still have so much pain not even emotional like actual chest and stomach pain in addition to emotional :/
15dec
ember in the dark
- Dec 7, 2018
- 1,551
I just want to run away from it all
Memento Mori
shambling garbage
- Jan 24, 2019
- 574
me too, can't wait to actually do it. need to save some more money and hope that I'll never come back to my home country, at least not alive...
VoloFataliDoce
The World Is Quiet Here
- Jan 23, 2019
- 114
I don't want to waste a new post about this, but I want to thank all of you for being involved in such a wonderful forum. I'm so glad to have other like-minded people to chat with. It makes the burden less of a burden. Seriously, you're all wonderful people.
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
I have a severe impulse about 3x a day to just kms on the spot.
VoloFataliDoce
The World Is Quiet Here
- Jan 23, 2019
- 114
Same here, but I don't go through with it. Still waiting on the proper stuff. I'm sorry you're having those feelings. I hate seeing anyone else in pain, but here we are. If I could take away yours and everyone else's suffering, I would. Unfortunately it doesn't work that way.
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
You're so kind
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
these are my confessions...
There's a lot of hopelessness both in the city I come from and in my family... My success has given meaning to the lives of a lot of people most importantly my parents. In addition to that there are a lot of young girls that look at me and see hope. A lot of people who poured into me to help me be successful. I'm so sorry to let all of you down but Im tired of fighting so hard to survive I just don't get the same happiness from life... I don't feel anything as I type this. I only know cognitively that I'm being incredibly selfish
WhiteRabbit
I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
- Feb 12, 2019
- 1,797
I've been pondering on how to make sure I don't shit myself when I CTB. I want to have a last indulgent supper, but I would also like to retain a shred of dignity if possible.
Housemate watching this. I can remember watching this on VHS as a child.
I wish i could find the "great valley" i think i will soon....
sadsoul
Alive and unwell
- Sep 9, 2018
- 440
I loved watching the tv series as a child, especially the parts where they sing
Johnnythefox
Que sera sera
- Nov 11, 2018
- 3,129
Just received a letter regarding child support, my son will be 23 soon, his sister is 21. I finished paying that some years ago.
It's the tories way of letting you know that they can take a shit on you anytime they want.
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
It's weird for me to imagine what I'll be like in death or heaven... I imagine heaven as a place free of disease how ever my beliefs, actions, thought, and feelings are all centered around my personality disorder. If I lose it then who am i ? Will I retain memories of my experiences? Am I reborn? Do I even make it to heaven?
lost illusions
bye
- Sep 12, 2018
- 548
Your not selfish, your human
lost illusions
bye
- Sep 12, 2018
- 548
I got good news, the mill is letting me have a day off. I get to sleep for 6 hours
NumbItAll
expendable
- May 20, 2018
- 1,122
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
I've learned too much to ever be truly happy again but I like listening to Disney music bc it reminds me of young hopeful blissful ignorant times
15dec
ember in the dark
- Dec 7, 2018
- 1,551
I wish I could wake up tomorrow and have something good happen to me; I wish the universe would just magically align and things would just fall into place and I'd never feel this way again. I just want to go to sleep and wake up and be happy...
waived
I am a sunrise
- Jan 5, 2019
- 975
^ it'd be nice if good shit happened accidentally just once
Ahem :-)
Angst Filled Fuck Up
Illuminati
- Sep 9, 2018
- 3,146
Well I had to forego picking up food today in favor of buying my lady roses for Valentine's day as I am super poor. I don't do well when I'm hungry, and I must warn you all, I am in no mood to be trifled with... mm, trifle.
AndyCurious
Warlock
- Sep 13, 2018
- 707
When I know that you know that we all know more than any of us know that one of us know something that is worth to know few things about :p
