Random thoughts

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Now, Duck, you know we all love you but we also know you are spoken for! We are not the type to break up a happy home :-)

Oh I know, I just wanted a shallow ego boost and an opportunity to be like "whatever, I'm with someone."

 

[JustAboutDone]

Oh I know, I just wanted a shallow ego boost and an opportunity to be like "whatever, I'm with someone."

Ha!!! You are very cute

 

[waived]

In the last several days I've watched some of firefly, serenity, predator, maleficent, aliens and alien 3.

 

[mattwitt]

It was 455 days ago now.

 

[mattwitt]

If I could at times...

Spoiler: I would !

 

[Lost1234]

:(

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I wish I could actually fall asleep...but then when I go to sleep I have nightmares. Awake I have bad memories and flashbacks of trauma. i hate having ptsd....

 

[15dec]

Eating all the suspiciously prepared food at an abandoned theme park is a terrible idea

 

[stellabelle]

The mars rover died

 

[Johnnythefox]

The mars rover died

Maybe it ctb owing to loneliness.

 

[stellabelle]

Maybe it ctb owing to loneliness.

Dust storm. Low battery. Might have gone beserk too.

 

[Johnnythefox]

Dust storm. Low battery. Might have gone beserk too.

Maybe the Martians are using it as a taxi.

 

[Johnnythefox]

I'm tired of being tired.

 

[stellabelle]

Maybe the Martians are using it as a taxi.

Good point. Or...
Plot twist, it was towed

 

[Johnnythefox]

 

[2211264]

Am I a creep?

A few times i have gone to Girl friends houses and ex girl friends houses in the middle of the night. Just sort of sitting there on the other side of the road thinking about random stuff, for about 20mins then wander off again...
Has anyone else done this

*edit
It was valentines day and I would have got her a little something but its not the best idea. I stopped seeing her completely, so she wont know Im dead she will just move on.

 

[stellabelle]

Am I a creep?

A few times i have gone to Girl friends houses and ex girl friends houses in the middle of the night. Just sort of sitting there on the other side of the road thinking about random stuff, for about 20mins then wander off again...
Has anyone else done this

A bit strange, 10/10 would be freaked out

 

[Johnnythefox]

What's the name of the ship in that movie titanic?

 

[stellabelle]

Carpathia

What's the name of the ship in that movie titanic?

 

[Johnnythefox]

Carpathia

Thanks

 

[15dec]

I wish my mum taught me to do my hair properly when I was little :/

 

[Redt2go]

Am I a creep?

A few times i have gone to Girl friends houses and ex girl friends houses in the middle of the night. Just sort of sitting there on the other side of the road thinking about random stuff, for about 20mins then wander off again...
Has anyone else done this

*edit
It was valentines day and I would have got her a little something but its not the best idea. I stopped seeing her completely, so she wont know Im dead she will just move on.

This is stalking yah :/

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

I don't think I want to get better. Even if I tell myself that I want to feel better or that I should want to at least, that message doesn't seem to connect in my brain for some reason. I don't know how to explain it, rationally I might understand that I in part contribute to my own negative feelings, but emotionally that realisation simply isn't there and so I end up doing nothing at all.

Also, the urge to just hang myself is getting stronger and stronger. I really want to just take my scarf and get it over with, but I can't...

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

Also, the urge to just hang myself is getting stronger and stronger. I really want to just take my scarf and get it over with, but I can't...

But then, 2 minutes later I might suddenly spin the other way around and feel like I do want to be alive and that actually everything is perfectly normal, and then a few minutes later I go back to wanting to die again and so on and so forth. I don't get it

 

[Redt2go]

But then, 2 minutes later I might suddenly spin the other way around and feel like I do want to be alive and that actually everything is perfectly normal, and then a few minutes later I go back to wanting to die again and so on and so forth. I don't get it

Same

 

[Redt2go]

If I don't ctb in May I'm going to be seriously fucked for the rest of my life.... The way I'm spending and wasting time

 

[WhiteRabbit]

Maybe it ctb owing to loneliness.

I'm such a softy reading this actually made me feel a little sad for an inanimate object. Poor mars rover, RIP 2004-2019.

 

[lost illusions]

If I don't ctb in May I'm going to be seriously fucked for the rest of my life.... The way I'm spending and wasting time

I understand that one

 

[Redt2go]

Worried I'll postpone my death forever

 

[Misanthrope]

Just feeling so weary today and can't concentrate on much of anything, can't get into anything either. Also fed up about reading about work being a health outcome and Amber Rudd shitting all over the Gp patient relationship with her idiotic policies that are now starting to creep into hospitals. Missing the elephant in the room that sick people too ill to work do fucking exist! Mental health is not solved by a job at Mc Donalds... Drowning in your own lung fluid is not cured by working at Starbucks... leave them the fuck alone and stop trying to co-opt the medical profession to suit your ideology. Renaming a sick note to a fit note does not magically cure anything either. Something is not voluntary if refusal means starvation either. Can I kill an MP but as a method to mask the awfulness of the act rename it a soil enrichment initiative? It is so damn Orwellian at this point. Wish I could just shut down and stop thinking. Instead, I am just ruminating in impotent rage. It is such wasted energy though, it is not like I can change anything... I am so tired and can't seem to escape today.