Random thoughts

[lost illusions]

Oh no. Hope you're ok? Be safe out there. That stuff is nothing nice.

I 86/84 is pretty bad
Call me white knuckle seat sucken feather foot tonight

 

[lost illusions]

#3

 

[lost illusions]

No more wrecks so far

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Sometimes i just sit frozen and stare at the wall for hours.. My dog comes up to me and looks at me like "are you ok?" all this physical pain and mental torture why the hell am i still here...

 

[lost illusions]

Sometimes i just sit frozen and stare at the wall for hours.. My dog comes up to me and looks at me like "are you ok?" all this physical pain and mental torture why the hell am i still here...

You could be here in the truck with me, digging vinyl out your ass lol. There isn't anything like hauling 70 ton sideways

 

[Worthless_nobody]

You could be here in the truck with me, digging vinyl out your ass lol. There isn't anything like hauling 70 ton sideways

I traveled with a truck driver once..was actually a good time.

 

[lost illusions]

I traveled with a truck driver once..was actually a good time.

Good deal

Weather and roads can be fun

 

[Rose]

Even if I get better personally, I will never be able to be happy in this world.
The truth of things is horrible. I never want to unlearn it, but I can't live with it.

 

[sadsoul]

You are so very sweet. You deserve all the same. Thank you for being such an amazing, caring soul.

❤❤❤

 

[sadsoul]

Does anybody else really like raw onion?

Liking raw onion is a crime against humanity (liking onions in general tbh)

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

Liking raw onion is a crime against humanity (liking onions in general tbh)

Onions are the best thing in this world >:-O

 

[lost illusions]

Onoins are good

Onoins with a little butter and a quick dose of high heat is OMG

 

[Memento Mori]

oh summer, pls stay away from me

 

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[TheCrow]

oh summer, pls stay away from me

Agreed. I love winter & snow & it seems like it's going by too fast. No time like the present; ctb'ing in the summer just doesn't feel right.

 

[Memento Mori]

Agreed. I love winter & snow & it seems like it's going by too fast. No time like the present; ctb'ing in the summer just doesn't feel right.

I fear all these feelings and flashbacks of summer, only remembering me that I'm alone now, like last summer...I felt the same for winter when it began, but somehow I made it. Now it's not the thoughts about ppl being at home, cuddling, watching movies...no, it's going to be bright 'til night, ppl are outside the whole day, I have to hear their voices and laughter, their happiness, ppl walking hand in hand...I have to feel warm, fresh air flowing into my room while I'm hiding...I know that I won't be part of this summer...part of anything...no possibility to fit in, no need to fit in, there's only one thing I want...and I know that I'm gonna be sad about it every single day, just waiting for summer to pass by. just to repeat these feelings when the next season comes along...

I can't wait to start my vacation trough Europe, am trying to survive as long as I can with the money I have until then. Here I'm nothing more than a suit without drugs, telling myself to go while trying to find some reason to live for, and somewhere else it's gonna be the same...but I really want to travel before being gone. I hope that I can either find some place to live some longer, or some place to die...when I'm out of drugs there's nothing life-sustaining anymore, only me and my pure mind, and then I have to decide if I want to go back to Germany and try therapy to make it some longer or just finally die where I am. but there's no recover, only options to sustain this so called 'life' that's left

 

[TheCrow]

now it's going to be bright 'til night, ppl are outside the whole day, I have to hear their voices and laughter, their happiness, ppl walking hand in hand...I have to feel warm, fresh air flowing into my room while I'm hiding...I know that I won't be part of this summer...part of anything...no possibility to fit in, no need to fit in, there's only one thing I want...and I know that I'm gonna be sad about it every single day, just waiting for summer to pass by.

such a good description of why summer is the worst

when I'm out of drugs there's nothing life-sustaining anymore

maybe find a means of buying more when or before that happens? I think you just smoke weed, right? If it's helping make life bearable, why make yourself suffer without it?

 

[throwaway123]

Life can be really beautiful but life is not for everyone.

 

[Redt2go]

I really want to drink myself to death

 

[TheCrow]

Life can be really beautiful but life is not for everyone.

say it again for the people in the back!

 

[Minudah]

RAINBOW posting

 

[RainAndSadness]

I have the strong urge to put "suicide is cool" stickers on suicide prevention posters.

 

[Psilo]

I wished it was possible to die from stupidity.

 

[sadsoul]

I have the strong urge to put "suicide is cool" stickers on suicide prevention posters.

I wonder if someone would message me if I had this as my whatsapp status lol

 

[RainAndSadness]

I wonder if someone would message me if I had this as my whatsapp status lol

Maybe. Depends on the people who are in your contact list I guess. But that's actually a decent idea. It's gonna let me know which of my family members are pro-life, that's for sure.

 

[waived]

I'm trying out new behavior while on new meds. Right now I'm attempting to message a friend who went away for a couple months, to organically let them know that they are missed instead of not messaging them at all.

 

[stellabelle]

I wish that I had a baby or was expecting one.

 

[Nanako]

I tried treatment but it didn't work.

 

[Minudah]

Pokemon is a conspiracy to sell pizza. Pikachu is really pizzachew. Pizza-colored with a cheese body, olives and pepperoni on the face, pizza crust on the end. Pokemon games are mobile so you can take them to the pizza shop. You catch pokemon by throwing giant tomatoes at them. They even reward you for going to pizza shops with pokestops in Pokemon Go.

 

[waived]

Pokemon is a conspiracy to sell pizza. Pikachu is really pizzachew. Pizza-colored with a cheese body, olives and pepperoni on the face, pizza crust on the end. Pokemon games are mobile so you can take them to the pizza shop. You catch pokemon by throwing giant tomatoes at them. They even reward you for going to pizza shops with pokestops in Pokemon Go.

This is a really interesting and horrifying thought but I think we'd use conspiracy differently.