Random thoughts

[jaemus12]

I feel empty. I feel frustrated. I feel dumb. I feel guilty. I feel like shit. I feel useless. I feel worthless. I feel lost. I don't know what I'm feeling anymore. I'm just laying in bed. Quiet, alone, uncomfortable, and empty.

For fucks sakes, fuck me.

 

[your pathologist]

Hope and fear

The only things fckn me lately

 

[your pathologist]

Why are you entertaining me?
I left you all alone all the way on the other side of the country.
I have no idea how im supposed to get better.
The drs visits arent working.
The time away isnt working.
This isnt working.
We're so different i think we're only together because we're both afraid of being all alone.
My phone only rings when its you, but that ring makes my stomach churn.
I cant be what you want me to be.
You arent what i needed you to be.
Everything is suffocating me and now you let me suffocate you.
What are you waiting on?
We're doomed.

 

[Sayo]

Eternal September has arrived.

 

[Trashcan]

In an hour, I'll be home alone for an hour. I plan to hang myself then unless I wimp out. Hopefully I do not.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Good luck, Trashcan!

 

[Trashcan]

*sigh* I do not get the house to myself after all. But I'll be able to try it in about 5-6 hours without getting found in time. I was a bit busy today so I guess I'll use these final hours to enjoy life.

 

[Lizzie S.]

I'm feeling too tired to eat and the heartbreak is inescaple. Both body and mind are beyond repair. I really can't handle living anymore. I hate that its not easier to kill oneself, I just want the pain to stop but apparently life doesn't owe you anything even in death. I hope if anything comes after it's more pleasant than this life. I hope there's finally peace and joy and he doesn't haunt me anymore. I'm so tired. Sometimes what doesn't kill you makes you weaker, and you wish it would have killed you.

 

[Trashcan]

Fuck the survival instinct. I'm also not going to make another date, but instead do it when I'm ready.

 

[your pathologist]

It's the small things in life

Fuck, is that all I get

 

[Dani Paradox]

When will you learn, my dear, that being normal is not necessarily a virtue, but rather denotes a lack of courage?

 

[2211264]

Woke up and my first thought was "i want to die ". Don't know what that means? Means something though.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Fuck the survival instinct. I'm also not going to make another date, but instead do it when I'm ready.

Take your time, maybe practice meanwhile. We'll be around :)

 

[Dani Paradox]

Fuck the survival instinct. I'm also not going to make another date, but instead do it when I'm ready.

Patience is a virtue.

 

[Trashcan]

Sorry, I know I keep posting. Fuck stomach viruses. I feel miserable :(

 

[Lost1234]

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Motivated at work - not motivated at work ,
Making time to be alone - Can't stand the thoughts ,
Planning to stop wine - Addicted to wine ,
The "One more day"- The "Can't wait another day"
Excited to expand my network - curled up in bed with memories
want a relationship - avoiding relationship
Planning on studying - reading ctb methods
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[RM5998]

So for my college's cultural fest (which ends tomorrow), my department made what we call a structure - which is our euphemism for an art installation for people to click photos with. And since the person in charge of coordinating our department for this fest was into depicting mental illnesses in an unusual way thanks to something recently covered in some course they are taking, they decided to take the works of Toby Allen and make what's there in the attached photo.

And since we like our structure to have some connection to our events, we had to discuss how to incorporate mental illnesses into our treasure hunt. And that led to some amazing sentences being put to paper:

He's a psychopath who's murderous because he's depressed, and he also has paranoid schizophrenia which manifests as DID and bipolar disorder.

I have no idea whether this is funny, sad or actually somehow real...

 

[cupio dissolvi]

Talking to people is disappointing. Why am I still trying to explain what I'm going through to "normal" people?

 

[Throwaway563078]

I hate being so weak and soft. Alot of people tell me I'm strong but I don't think so. I feel 80 and 6 at the same time

 

[Schopenhauer]

Sorry, I know I keep posting. Fuck stomach viruses. I feel miserable :(

Damn, I came down with the flu today. It really sucks. Makes me wish I was dead :)

 

[Trashcan]

Damn, I came down with the flu today. It really sucks. Makes me wish I was dead :)

I hope you feel better soon!

 

[Dani Paradox]

Another day, another darkness.

 

[Dani Paradox]

There are two different types of people in this world.

*person kills himself*

Person 1: "What a selfish asshole! He's going to suffer in Hell!!"
Person 2: "Poor guy. I hope he found his peace."

 

[Trashcan]

I wish I would die in a car accident because then there would be no investigation (like what they do for suicides), it would be easier on the family, and the survival instinct couldn't be a bitch. There are billboards on the freeway that state how many traffic deaths there have been this year. It keeps going up. I wish I could trade spots with someone who wanted to live.

 

[littlelungs]

I'm excited for tomorrow because I'm going to get wasted by myself and knit a scarf. Maybe if I'm feeling really adventurous during the comfortably tipsy stage I'll e-mail a friend, because god forbid I have the courage or self-esteem to do that sober.

This is my life... please try to contain your jealousy. /s

 

[faex42]

I wish I would die in a car accident because then there would be no investigation (like what they do for suicides), it would be easier on the family, and the survival instinct couldn't be a bitch. There are billboards on the freeway that state how many traffic deaths there have been this year. It keeps going up. I wish I could trade spots with someone who wanted to live.

Death that didn't appear intentional, like a car accident, would really be welcome. I'd also happily trade places with someone who wants to live. I've also thought of having an " accident" hang gliding.

 

[Schopenhauer]

I wish I would die in a car accident because then there would be no investigation (like what they do for suicides), it would be easier on the family, and the survival instinct couldn't be a bitch. There are billboards on the freeway that state how many traffic deaths there have been this year. It keeps going up. I wish I could trade spots with someone who wanted to live.

Yeah, I constantly think about switching places with dying people. It would be a clear Pareto-improvement.

I wish I was among the dead on today's Indonesian plane crash.

By the way, I hope you're feeling better now.

 

[Trashcan]

Yeah, I constantly think about switching places with dying people. It would be a clear Pareto-improvement.

I wish I was among the dead on today's Indonesian plane crash.

By the way, I hope you're feeling better now.

Thanks, I am. :) How are you feeling?

 

[Schopenhauer]

Thanks, I am. :) How are you feeling?

I'm better too, thanks. Just some cough, and a sore throat. Not life-threatening, unfortunately...

 

[Trashcan]

I'm better too, thanks. Just some cough, and a sore throat. Not life-threatening, unfortunately...

I'm glad you feel better. And people who randomly get blood poisoning and then just not wake up the next day are lucky af. (Though most people with blood poisoning really suffer).