Severen
Enlightened
- Jun 30, 2018
- 1,819
A lot of people are gone. Dead or locked up or in a coma or decided to stop visiting this site? I don't know.
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A lot of people are gone. Dead or locked up or in a coma or decided to stop visiting this site? I don't know.
azucaramargo
Enlightened
- Sep 16, 2018
- 1,010
Yeah, I guess I've just never been able to tell. Do you just assume this (I mean, you're probably right, but...)? How do you know what's happened to people?
Severen
Enlightened
- Jun 30, 2018
- 1,819
I don't know what happened to the people who stopped showing up.
Johnnythefox
Que sera sera
- Nov 11, 2018
- 3,129
I found someone's obituary and others have confirmed other ways, some have been in the newspaper.
azucaramargo
Enlightened
- Sep 16, 2018
- 1,010
Oh wow! You're a good researcher!
Hunter
Experienced
- Sep 14, 2018
- 260
Everyone here is going to die one day
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
Can't believe I missed his goodbye. It's not the first time, and I get angry with myself for it. I wonder if it'd be appropriate to have a kind of obituary section or similar on SS
Sinbad
Self-Annihilation is loading...95%
- Nov 27, 2018
- 542
Anyone else in need of a dictionary after reading a Chinaski post? I wish I could be as articulate as him.
Johnnythefox
Que sera sera
- Nov 11, 2018
- 3,129
Have you read any of @Misanthrope comments? They are genius!
therhydler
Enlightened
- Dec 7, 2018
- 1,196
MexicanTravels
Pokémon Master
- Sep 6, 2018
- 209
Aw, thanks! This is especially nice coming from somebody who has the Yves Klein "Leap into the Void" photograph as their profile pic!
therhydler
Enlightened
- Dec 7, 2018
- 1,196
I'm glad someone recognized it :)
blueming
if we can stand outside the borders of time
- Sep 21, 2018
- 254
Why do I even exist? I'm just a fucking waste of space
Help_Me
Gene pool mistake
- Oct 21, 2018
- 516
Strong convulsions right now, my leg is bleeding (not attempt, i know this wont work, just need some strong pain to keep myself sane, no more). I don't want to wake up tomorrow and i wish i could just eat or drink something which can send me to sleep forever. The panic and convulsions becomes stronger... I am ill. This is probably the only place i can it straight... I am ill..
Help_Me
Gene pool mistake
- Oct 21, 2018
- 516
UPD : the panic goes stronger... i feel i am losing my saniy and ready to do a terrible mistake. I know this wont work and i should put away this razor. But my will to die is overwhelming. I am in panic and don;t know what to do.
Johnnythefox
Que sera sera
- Nov 11, 2018
- 3,129
Intrusive thoughts! The ghost of Christmas past is hovering about over in the corner, he thinks I can't see him! He is stronger than he realises.
I never ask anyone for anything, I now have little or no contact with the outside world.
The ghost of Christmas future has nothing to show me.
I never ask anyone for anything, I now have little or no contact with the outside world.
The ghost of Christmas future has nothing to show me.
Johnnythefox
Que sera sera
- Nov 11, 2018
- 3,129
I'm not an expert, try breathing deeply and sit with your head between your legs.
Xerxes
Invisible
- Nov 8, 2018
- 936
I did that once, someone passed by and thought I was trying to suck my own dick.
Help_Me
Gene pool mistake
- Oct 21, 2018
- 516
UPD 2 : It is morning (here), at least I felt nothing while I was sleep, but everything came back when I woke up. My work day is starting soon, for the first time in my entire life I am going to take all my stuff (for making me calm) with me. I guess I'll have to go to the restroom often and use it there. I don't care if somebody notices that or something wrong with me. I don't care if anything right now. Sorry for spamming that thread, but it's like my fingers are convulsing like hell and SS is the only place in the entire world I can share my deepest thoughts. I should be dead..
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
it's what this thread is here for, and it hardly counts as spamming. I think that approach is good though, who cares what others think? I think you've worried about that for long enough
therhydler
Enlightened
- Dec 7, 2018
- 1,196
I don't remeber what it's like to not want to die. Every person I look at I think: how can they want to live?
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
So true ...when people have a problem, I have to stop myself from saying personally, Id just CTB lol!! I don't think that would go down well.
Hunter
Experienced
- Sep 14, 2018
- 260
New Year's is going to hurt so badly. God it's going to hurt.
ignominia
O Rose thou art sick.
- Oct 6, 2018
- 93
Christmas season remind me why I hate people
therhydler
Enlightened
- Dec 7, 2018
- 1,196
Nanako
Experienced
- Dec 24, 2018
- 284
I was hoping I'd be able to ctb on this New Year's Eve since my parents always leave town to party with the rest of the family (and only to come back many hours after doing so) but my dad decided to stay this year ): They know I haven't been well lately (I honestly don't have the energy to fake my present condition) but I fear they (or maybe just my dad) might be considering the possibilty that I would ctb if left alone, I guess I underestimated them... If he decides to bring back this habit (he used to not leave for family occasions all the time) it'll suck, right now I can't even think of a close date where'd I have the time to execute my method completely risk-free of getting caught ):
LiveSlowDieFast
Specialist
- Nov 14, 2018
- 338
I wish I had some razor blades at hand right now...
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
LiveSlowDieFast
Specialist
- Nov 14, 2018
- 338
It's not so much a particular event, as much as it's a state of mind I found myself in for the last few years and I find it increasingly hard to cope with it.
I just don't feel real anymore. I'm constantly empty and I feel like I'm suffocating under dread-inducing thoughts I can't really put into words. At the same time that emptiness alternates with these really extreme internal emotional reactions to seemingly innocuous events, but I can't express them or get them out.
Becauae of that SH for me is a tension-release thing, Id say
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
And a way to feel - you swing between them?
