Random thoughts

[LiveSlowDieFast]

And a way to feel - you swing between them?

Do you mean between the emptiness and the emotionality? Yeah, although I try to avoid SH when I'm upset

 

[Jodes]

Do you mean between the emptiness and the emotionality? Yeah, although I try to avoid SH when I'm upset

I couldn't

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

I couldn't

That's also understandable.

Stay safe, man

 

[creationisdeath]

I'd like to make a bloody mess but I can't be bothered with the clean up. I don't even have it left in me to cry.

 

[Pegasus]

I'm tired of this shit day. Please be over soon.

 

[Hunter]

Even when you have nothing left to give, people just want more and more and more out of you. It will never stop unless I stop existing.

 

[Aesthler]

I could have gone the rest of my life never knowing you were out there, just feeling lonely, never having to know I had you but lost you. Wondering, if I had everything you wanted for us before if that would bring you back again and if having you again would make it stop.

 

[mattwitt]

My life is brilliant
My love is pure
I saw an angel
Of that I'm sure

 

[gnrluver0105]

I don't know why I still have expectations in life and in other persons, and why i still get hopeful and exited about some things like love and so...

 

[Thoughtforms]

I don't know why I still have expectations in life and in other persons, and why i still get hopeful and exited about some things like love and so...

Did I write this?!?
It sucks doesn't it. Feel like I spent 5 years just trying and being hopeful

 

[Hunter]

Dreamt that I was at a cooking school and I had to do cooking competitions for hours everyday. I had a partner in one competition who was a famous politician and he was sweet. In the dream I knew my life was going nowhere.

 

[Jodes]

https://www.reddit.com/r/AskReddit/comments/21pbbi/what_is_your_biggest_fuck_my_life_moment/

I didn't think I'd like it. That's what you get for typing FML into Google

 

[Pulpit2018]

So true ...when people have a problem, I have to stop myself from saying personally, Id just CTB lol!! I don't think that would go down well.

So much this!

 

[therhydler]

I feel like an animal in a zoo

 

[Donewith_]

I was a mistake. If I was not born, it would have saved a lot of agony, pain for some people I know, and also a lot of resources. May be nature wanted to give me a chance to survive, I have taken a lot of things.. I owe a lot. I owe everything .. to people.. I have never given back to people.. am just like a parasite sapping everything. How come I never gave anything to anyone.. I just want to return everything that I had taken.. I am unable to stand this anymore, I can't take any more help, love .. its too much for me to take.. I'm feeling like a knife is put to my heart and am asking myself 'are you a human? You know you can't give it back, can't return all the favour.. then why are you taking it in? Don't you know how much you owe?' .. it was a hellish ride honestly.. I was a mistake. I am one step short of being called an 'insane person'...This feeble body and mind was unable to stand in this game and I lost, fell down to ground.. I was destroyed. I saw some of the texts I read come true in front of my eyes.. can this be called a great journey and can I be put to rest? Please measure the pain I've experienced from my view..If it has to be measured.

Sorry.. this is just a rant.

 

[Eren]

Fuck, always the same dilemma, I want to die but I do not want to annoy my mother's life, I try to justify myself with arguments like "I did not ask to be born" but it really does not help, she was always good to me and she does not deserve something like that.

 

[Nanako]

Fuck, always the same dilemma, I want to die but I do not want to annoy my mother's life, I try to justify myself with arguments like "I did not ask to be born" but it really does not help, she was always good to me and she does not deserve something like that.

I was in a similar position but I decided I'll do it after all.

My parents know I'm suffering. They heard from the mouth of their doctor of choice just how bad my condition is, and how there's no cure; I saw the look on their faces, THEY KNEW right away what the consequences for me would be...

My parents are pro-life. It'll crush them but seriously, what the hell can I do?

 

[Eren]

I was in a similar position but I decided I'll do it after all.

My parents know I'm suffering. They heard from the mouth of their doctor of choice just how bad my condition is, and how there's no cure; I saw the look on their faces, THEY KNEW right away what the consequences for me would be...

My parents are pro-life. It'll crush them but seriously, what the hell can I do?

Sorry, I feel your situation, in my case I do not have any serious medical problems.

 

[Nanako]

Sorry, I feel your situation, in my case I do not have any serious medical problems.

Thanks and good luck, I hope your decision is one that'll make you happy above all else

 

[Eren]

Thanks and good luck, I hope your decision is one that'll make you happy above all else

Thanks, hugs.

 

[therhydler]

Why can't I just pluck up the courage to do this........

 

[Xerxes]

Why am I reading about drinking antifreeze? I know it tastes sweet and stuff, but....so easy to get.

 

[Jodes]

Could ECT make me unable to CTB??

 

[bunny]

i can't get you out, no matter what i do. it hurts when i am not being held by you. your parents love me. they want lunch with me. why do they want me? do they see something? are you suffering as i am? we're meant to be. don't you know that we can't escape each other? there's always something in the middle. something pulling us both together. do i only live for entitlement? i'm horrible, aren't i? if you find someone else, i will no longer hesitate anymore. let me suffocate and have me removed from here

 

[Red star]

Had a dream of laughing with others about random shit that was happening in the middle of a street. Laughed so hard in my sleep I felt myself snort haha it woke me up

 

[Xerxes]

i didn't mean to hurt anybody...

 

[MsM3talGamer]

I was supposed to die in Dec 2011. Why did I go to that cunt of a doctor?

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

For some reason I keep looking up various different things that make me upset, disturbed or angry, and once I find stuff like that I cannot turn away from it and sometimes waste hours just indulging in it, turning myself into an anxious mess in the process. I don't get it, I have the worst morbid curiosity.

I wonder if that's something I do because I feel mostly empty otherwise..

 

[user90872]

Even after these 10 months I'm still dumbfounded that you can casually ruin someone's life and then carry on living like nothing ever happened, with no remorse at all. Nice going!

 

[Hunter]

Annie's natural instant Mac and cheese. I like to find a microwave, heat up two at a time. Then when they're done cooking, I'll dump them into the same container and finish with hot sauce. It's doing the job.