Johnnythefox
Que sera sera
- Nov 11, 2018
- 3,129
Lurkers kind of freak me out! It makes me feel like I'm in a zoo or the circus.
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YukiFox
Pastel demon
- Dec 8, 2018
- 320
I imagine shoes made from recycled condoms.
So i have been Listening to this song lately on repeat.
One of the lyric lines is
"I'll always look forward to better days ahead"
And i just feel empty knowing that its not true for me.
And then today i just started thinking about dying again and i felt so happy and relaxed and everything felt good.
One of the lyric lines is
"I'll always look forward to better days ahead"
And i just feel empty knowing that its not true for me.
And then today i just started thinking about dying again and i felt so happy and relaxed and everything felt good.
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
Feeling suidal again yay me, it's so SHIT having ANY reason in the way when reluef to this hell feels SO close yet so fucking far
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
Tank still not arrived. Terrifyingly lonely situation. I'll have to find a time when I can avoid everyone. I think the unbeably worn cliche, wish I'd never been born
I keep telling myself a local partner/Australian looking for a pact will find this site and contact me, to free us both from this cruel world. I can only hope it's sooner than later.
But then I have doubt... :(
But then I have doubt... :(
Being honest and opening up about your thoughts and feelings in general usually does more harm than good
Johnnythefox
Que sera sera
- Nov 11, 2018
- 3,129
Rewind about 45 years.
Mum "what do you want for Christmas son?"
Me"I just want to be happy"
Mum "what do you want for Christmas son?"
Me"I just want to be happy"
blueming
if we can stand outside the borders of time
- Sep 21, 2018
- 254
Crest33
Sheet slinger
- Nov 28, 2018
- 261
I wonder if I should something rational in my life. Before i ctb. Something I would never to otherwise.
Idk wast 10k or do something very unaccepted by society. Get in the newspapers.... Do something good...
Idk wast 10k or do something very unaccepted by society. Get in the newspapers.... Do something good...
lost illusions
bye
- Sep 12, 2018
- 548
slowlystarve
abomination
- Dec 10, 2018
- 43
it's like time is slipping through my fingers. it felt like it was 9pm five minutes ago. it's 12:30am now. where did that time go? it's just disappearing from me these days
Will I win any money in tonight's lottery draw, yes please.
I wonder what would happen if N was sold in vending machines... Or we had suicide booths. I wonder if civilization would cease to exist.
Am I giving up or am I just giving in?
Johnnythefox
Que sera sera
- Nov 11, 2018
- 3,129
Lucid dreams the past couple of nights! Last nights involved giant birds the size of a four or five storey building, bit of a nightmare scenario.
Eren
Si hablas español mándame un MP
- Oct 27, 2018
- 1,075
I do not think it will cease to exist, but the number of inhabitants will be drastically reduced, maybe 40%? or even more.
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
Where's a carrier bag without holes when you want one
therhydler
Enlightened
- Dec 7, 2018
- 1,196
How are you feeling?
I'm fine. (please leave me alone just for one second so I can fucking end this)
I'm fine. (please leave me alone just for one second so I can fucking end this)
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
I was thinking of setting a date. My gf knows I've been suicidal for a long time. Hell - we met in a psych ward. She implies she'd like ndcto stay at least 5-10 years more. No way do I want that unless someone flips some fucked up switch in ny head that will just leave me unable to kill myself. Im thinking I can bear 2 years max. But will any number of years make it easier on her?
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
What a ridiculously long time 2 years?? you're stalling. You know it wont make a difference, do it soon. What are you fucking waiting for
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
Asshole, noone likes you, you don't like anything. You should do it
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
At least you have "some kind" of sense of humour. But still, no-one likes you.
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
Why is it so quiet again
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
Life's no party.
to help ne cope with getting older, to cheer me up some guy said,
in some eastern island they have a saying - there's no retirement in old age
to help ne cope with getting older, to cheer me up some guy said,
in some eastern island they have a saying - there's no retirement in old age
Roulette
???
- Aug 31, 2018
- 145
Theres a social party going on outside my bedroom doors, and all I'm doing is sitting on the floor against the wall in the dark. Such is life for the asocial one.
I keep hearing my name outside these doors, followed by laughter. This sucks. I want to forget this day
I keep hearing my name outside these doors, followed by laughter. This sucks. I want to forget this day
Jodes
Enlightened
- Nov 23, 2018
- 1,261
Alcohol works a treat,. . Until you get a stomach ulcer (pretty fucking painful by my standsrds)
Roulette
???
- Aug 31, 2018
- 145
The worrying thing is that people can get N and slip it into peoples drinks. This world is pretty fucked so it wouldn't be a surprise
Roulette
???
- Aug 31, 2018
- 145
Alcohol taste bad and theres nothing in this house to belp alter its taste :< but what I do have is a box of oreos from sneaking out the window and buying something. Party by myself woo
