Random thoughts

[Johnnythefox]

Lurkers kind of freak me out! It makes me feel like I'm in a zoo or the circus.

 

[YukiFox]

I imagine shoes made from recycled condoms.

 

[2211264]

So i have been Listening to this song lately on repeat.
One of the lyric lines is
"I'll always look forward to better days ahead"
And i just feel empty knowing that its not true for me.
And then today i just started thinking about dying again and i felt so happy and relaxed and everything felt good.

 

[Jodes]

Feeling suidal again yay me, it's so SHIT having ANY reason in the way when reluef to this hell feels SO close yet so fucking far

 

[Comatose11]

Why are my dreams so weird...

 

[Jodes]

Tank still not arrived. Terrifyingly lonely situation. I'll have to find a time when I can avoid everyone. I think the unbeably worn cliche, wish I'd never been born

 

[stargazer]

I keep telling myself a local partner/Australian looking for a pact will find this site and contact me, to free us both from this cruel world. I can only hope it's sooner than later.
But then I have doubt... :(

 

[Throwaway563078]

Being honest and opening up about your thoughts and feelings in general usually does more harm than good

 

[Johnnythefox]

Rewind about 45 years.
Mum "what do you want for Christmas son?"
Me"I just want to be happy"

 

[blueming]

Being honest and opening up about your thoughts and feelings in general usually does more harm than good

Agreed :(

 

[Crest33]

I wonder if I should something rational in my life. Before i ctb. Something I would never to otherwise.

Idk wast 10k or do something very unaccepted by society. Get in the newspapers.... Do something good...

 

[lost illusions]

Snow is cold, steel is colder

 

[slowlystarve]

it's like time is slipping through my fingers. it felt like it was 9pm five minutes ago. it's 12:30am now. where did that time go? it's just disappearing from me these days

 

[stargazer]

Will I win any money in tonight's lottery draw, yes please.

 

[Tyuiop]

I wonder what would happen if N was sold in vending machines... Or we had suicide booths. I wonder if civilization would cease to exist.

 

[2211264]

Am I giving up or am I just giving in?

 

[Johnnythefox]

Lucid dreams the past couple of nights! Last nights involved giant birds the size of a four or five storey building, bit of a nightmare scenario.

 

[Eren]

I wonder what would happen if N was sold in vending machines... Or we had suicide booths. I wonder if civilization would cease to exist.

I do not think it will cease to exist, but the number of inhabitants will be drastically reduced, maybe 40%? or even more.

 

[Jodes]

Where's a carrier bag without holes when you want one

 

[therhydler]

How are you feeling?
I'm fine. (please leave me alone just for one second so I can fucking end this)

 

[Jodes]

I was thinking of setting a date. My gf knows I've been suicidal for a long time. Hell - we met in a psych ward. She implies she'd like ndcto stay at least 5-10 years more. No way do I want that unless someone flips some fucked up switch in ny head that will just leave me unable to kill myself. Im thinking I can bear 2 years max. But will any number of years make it easier on her?

 

[Jodes]

I was thinking of setting a date. My gf knows I've been suicidal for a long time. Hell - we met in a psych ward. She implies she'd like ndcto stay at least 5-10 years more. No way do I want that unless someone flips some fucked up switch in ny head that will just leave me unable to kill myself. Im thinking I can bear 2 years max. But will any number of years make it easier on her?

What a ridiculously long time 2 years?? you're stalling. You know it wont make a difference, do it soon. What are you fucking waiting for

 

[Jodes]

What a ridiculously long time 2 years?? you're stalling. You know it wont make a difference, do it soon. What are you fucking waiting for

Asshole, noone likes you, you don't like anything. You should do it

 

[Jodes]

Asshole, noone likes you, you don't like anything. You should do it

At least you have "some kind" of sense of humour. But still, no-one likes you.

 

[Jodes]

Why is it so quiet again

 

[Jodes]

Life's no party.

to help ne cope with getting older, to cheer me up some guy said,
in some eastern island they have a saying - there's no retirement in old age

 

[Roulette]

Theres a social party going on outside my bedroom doors, and all I'm doing is sitting on the floor against the wall in the dark. Such is life for the asocial one.

I keep hearing my name outside these doors, followed by laughter. This sucks. I want to forget this day

 

[Jodes]

Theres a social party going on outside my bedroom doors, and all I'm doing is sitting on the floor against the wall in the dark. Such is life for the asocial one.

I keep hearing my name outside these doors, followed by laughter. This sucks. I want to forget this day

Alcohol works a treat,. . Until you get a stomach ulcer (pretty fucking painful by my standsrds)

 

[Roulette]

I wonder what would happen if N was sold in vending machines... Or we had suicide booths. I wonder if civilization would cease to exist.

The worrying thing is that people can get N and slip it into peoples drinks. This world is pretty fucked so it wouldn't be a surprise

 

[Roulette]

Alcohol works a treat,. . Until you get a stomach ulcer (pretty fucking painful by my standsrds)

Alcohol taste bad and theres nothing in this house to belp alter its taste :< but what I do have is a box of oreos from sneaking out the window and buying something. Party by myself woo