Random thoughts

[hieronymus.bosch]

Death on Sunday.

 

[OkTotti]

Ever wish you can sell your soul to the devil......? i wish this was a real thing that i can do....

 

[hieronymus.bosch]

Ever wish you can sell your soul to the devil......? i wish this was a real thing that i can do....

I listed a 'human soul' for sale on eBay once. The listing was removed. Can't sell intentional objects eh

 

[hieronymus.bosch]

Btw, how does one get banned? I'm ready to die.

 

[Xerxes]

Why did they replace the awesome grape soda at work with this inferior trash. Sunkist Grape sucks.

 

[Fucking loving it]

I'm so fucking suicidal. I need out. I can't leave my son. I'm fucking trapped. Help me I'm in hell...

 

[Fucking loving it]

I realize even on my happiest day, I'm always thinking of suicide. Maybe it's not an illness anymore, maybe I am wired this way.

YES. I was just thinking of this today. Chronically suicidal. Never fucking ending.

 

[GiveMeNovacaine]

I had a good appointment today with my new psychiatrist.. fuck. Now I'm even more conflicted about whether to CTB or not after the holidays.

 

[Lra888]

I realize even on my happiest day, I'm always thinking of suicide. Maybe it's not an illness anymore, maybe I am wired this way.

Yes. I never think of myself as having a future and I don't want to continue this routine. I dont want to participate in this even if i were "happy" what the fuck would I do to occupy my time? i want out of here.

 

[Lra888]

Therapists can never relate to a suicidal person or understand their problems. From my experience they're always trying to steer me towards drone normalcy - like how to be healthy enough to edure a shitty 9-5 job until retirement, how to get into a relationship, just bullshit I care nothing for. I tell her i do not want to live and she tells me to talk to the dr about upping/changing meds.

I'm sick of this whole fucking world and i'm very sick. I hate the wageslave system and my goal is not to drug myself into enjoying how people are treated like shit for profit.

(drunk but i think i hope i communicated my point).

 

[Johnnythefox]

For a few years now I've often relayed in my mind some famous people who have CTB.
Ernest hemingway
Hunter s Thompson
Van Gogh
Robin Williams
Kurt Cobain
These ones seem stuck in my mind.

 

[Donewith_]

I had a dream yesterday night. I am struggling to get cimetidine in my place. In my dream, I went to medical store , I was buying medicines for my mother. Along with other medicines, they gave cimetidine. I was speechless.. what more do I want. That feeling is very good you know though it's only a dream.

 

[Xerxes]

The only thing that brings me calm is thinking of my own death. When I'm mad and hate myself and want to punch walls and break stuff, just thinking of my dead body hanging or gassed from CO, brings me down to a calmer mood.

 

[whywait]

It's increasingly harder to act cheerful around everyone in my life, knowing how heartbroken they're about to be. Therapy helped me break out of the "everyone hates me, no one would care for too long" thoughts, but unfortunately now I get to CTB knowing the long list of people that will take it hard and may even be traumatized - really makes me feel low.

 

[Jodes]

YES. I was just thinking of this today. Chronically suicidal. Never fucking ending.

I think any sense of greater security might help you? Tell a friend hiw you feel, ask for gelp with things without feeling inferior, a burdening anything like that. Society is mostly pro life because they expect people to reach out for help, since they dont want to think they coud have done more, or if was their fault. You just heed to ask the right poeopl????

It may give you the peace to either keep going with support, or CTB... with peace of mind

 

[Crest33]

Youtube rewind 2018 made me even more depressed. Unbelievable how unconnected YouTube is with it's content creators.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

I wish life was like a video game which you could reset. I'd delete this piece of shit file and start with a completely new character.

 

[Crest33]

I wish life was like a video game which you could reset. I'd delete this piece of shit file and start with a completely new character.

Our life now is filled with microtransactions. It's pay to win.

 

[Jodes]

I can barely read small writing on this new medication, pregabalin. Feel reslly weak andtired I hope it's temporary

 

[OnlyMercy]

Life is hard.

And then you die.

Perfect anticlimax.

 

[Help_Me]

Something is happening within me. I was extremely upset for the while past week, but I didn't get why. Seems like I am literally feeling all despair of my existence. I have a strong feeling everything I do is totally wrong and I'd better ctb immediately. I feel absolutely nothing towards my relatives and what they gonna face after my death. Something is happening....

 

[mattwitt]

How can anybody enjoy life knowing the evils that exist here on planet Earth.

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

lol, in my country they want to make it harder for people to get access to therapy, by forcing them to see a (improperly qualified) surveyor who then decides if and what kind of therapy that person gets. Even in the current state you're put on a waiting list and it takes on average 3 months before you can see one, in rural regions even longer than that.

The same party that tries to do that currently recently also tried to issue a law that would grant the police access to the personal details and data of suicidal people, basically treating them like criminals.

Fuck politicians. I fucking hate the fact that these spoonfed ivory tower assholes have so much power and there is literally nothing I can do against them that works.

 

[DeaduMenuWalkingu]

How can anybody enjoy life knowing the evils that exist here on planet Earth.

Exactly.
I thought about that many times myself.
Basically the only way to enjoy is to live in willfull ignorance.

 

[wxtyubidi7y]

I hate the phrase "risk of suicide".

Suicide isn't something you're at "risk" of. That would be like saying that when firing an arrow at a target you're at "risk" of hitting the bullseye. The real risk is that when you attempt to ctb you might fail.

 

[Xerxes]

Sometimes I wish I had a peanut allergy, just so I can jump in a bin of peanuts to CTB

 

[Jodes]

Exactly.
I thought about that many times myself.
Basically the only way to enjoy is to live in willfull ignorance.

By knowing you can escape the evils at anytime

 

[Eren]

Fuck, start another boring and lonely weekend.

 

[Jodes]

Fuck, start another boring and lonely weekend.

Do something then?

 

[Eren]

Do something then?

eh?