Random thoughts

[sadsoul]

I feel like a worthless, unlovable piece of shit. I can't do anything right and I'm a burden to everyone. I don't deserve anything good. People on here are really nice to me, but they would hate me and ignore me in real life. My existence is an offence to human dignity. I hate myself so much, I wish I could just stop existing. I'm too stupid to live in this world but apparently also too stupid to die. Someone shoot me already.

 

[Lizzie S.]

I feel like a worthless, unlovable piece of shit. I can't do anything right and I'm a burden to everyone. I don't deserve anything good. People on here are really nice to me, but they would hate me and ignore me in real life. My existence is an offence to human dignity. I hate myself so much, I wish I could just stop existing. I'm too stupid to live in this world but apparently also too stupid to die. Someone shoot me already.

No, you are amazing <3

 

[sadsoul]

No, you are amazing <3

<3

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

A while ago I sat together with my 2 roommates and one of them told us a story from his time in high school about how a girl in his year was caught on video giving a blowjob to security guard, I'm assuming while she was really drunk. According to him, it took only a day until the entire school knew about the video and he gleefully added that pretty much the whole county had seen the video shortly afterwards and through word of mouth knew who she was.

Now mind you, what she did was extremely stupid and dangerous, but it wasn't something that was morally wrong. I don't know what exactly happened to her afterwards, but from the sounds of it I'd imagine she was the target of a ton of shaming and psychological terror. My roommate isn't some conservative christian type either, in fact he often complains about the churches in this country and their backwardness, and yet he very clearly took great joy in being able to take part in that kind of shaming, regardless of the reason.

He is often like that. As soon as somebody has in some way contributed to their own suffering he'll immediately declare: "Well, it's his/her fault, no pity for them." and you can tell it makes him rock hard to say that. Doesn't matter what might have driven that somebody to do that or whether the repercussions they faced were appropriate to what they did, the only thing that matters is that he gets to bang his fist on the table and feel righteous. And the worst part is that there are so many people like him.

I dunno, for some reason this popped into my head today and it really fucks me up to think about that. People like him are at their core very sadistic and cruel for no reason other than their own enjoyment, regardless of what other motivation they may pretend to have. They just wait for an opportunity to beat down on someone and humiliate them. Nothing forces them to and they could prevent so much additional suffering if they just held themselves back a little bit, but nah, that would mean taking a look at themselves and missing out on an opportunity to be a piece of shit...

Shit like that is part of the reason why I want to ctb, tbqh.

 

[Life sucks]

Life sucks

 

[Life sucks]

The point when you are completely disgusted because of humans and unable to accept seeing them anymore but forced because of shitty life

 

[weedoge]

The point when you are completely disgusted because of humans and unable to accept seeing them anymore but forced because of shitty life

Random thought: it's good to see you!

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

I think my anxiety is tied to my depression somewhat, nothing bad has happened yet with this situation I'm in yet I'm already depressed over it cause of anxiety.

 

[Life sucks]

Random thought: it's good to see you!

Thanks, good to see you also

 

[sadsoul]

Probably going to attempt again soon. I really need to get out of this world.
Also, dear Sir Vival-Instinct, please fuck off.

 

[Eren]

I hate myself...

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

Man, it drives me crazy, I really want to put an end to my life, but the thought of how my parents would feel and react destroys me. I feel stuck

 

[Eren]

Man, it drives me crazy, I really want to put an end to my life, but the thought of how my parents would feel and react destroys me. I feel stuck

I'm in exactly the same situation.

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

I'm in exactly the same situation.

I guess for now all we can do is wait. :(

 

[Eren]

I miss my ex-girlfriend.

 

[Eren]

I feel really alone, I hate myself, fuck.

 

[Life sucks]

Its sad how everything moves, how everything ends. The good times are fading and the bad times are torturing.

 

[Trashcan]

There is something I really wish I knew how to do...

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

How the fuck do people keep up with pop culture (new and popular movies, TV shows, games etc.)? Just think about how much time you'd have to spend consuming all that stuff if you don't wanna fall behind.

I mean, I don't bother personally, but it just seems crazy to think about how people manage to do that in addition to having jobs and other obligations. I can barely sit through a whole movie and I've pretty much got all day.

 

[sadsoul]

How the fuck do people keep up with pop culture (new and popular movies, TV shows, games etc.)? Just think about how much time you'd have to spend consuming all that stuff if you don't wanna fall behind.

I mean, I don't bother personally, but it just seems crazy to think about how people manage to do that in addition to having jobs and other obligations. I can barely sit through a whole movie and I've pretty much got all day.

I had that thought too. Some people seem to know almost every famous movie/tv show. I don't know how people manage to go to work, have a social life AND consume so much media. Their time management must be phenomenal. I barely manage to watch two or three tv shows lol.

 

[Xerxes]

I woke up today thinking of how I'm gonna fuck things up and how much of a horrible person I am. I log in and wonder if the people I had short conversations with in this community have succeeded or still here. It's a sobering thought.

 

[Iwant2sleepforever]

Part of me wants to have kids, and the other part of me hates myself for even considering having kids.

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

I had that thought too. Some people seem to know almost every famous movie/tv show. I don't know how people manage to go to work, have a social life AND consume so much media. Their time management must be phenomenal. I barely manage to watch two or three tv shows lol.

I also think they never or almost never have periods where they can't get themselves to do anything

 

[sadsoul]

I also think they never or almost never have periods where they can't get themselves to do anything

True. Often watching something is too exhausting for me, I'd rather do nothing and sleep.

 

[Fucking loving it]

Random thought.....
I want to fuck my psychiatrist. I don't know why but I realllllly want it. Possibly my mania, I'm not sure yet. Wonder what would happen if I went for it.

 

[mattwitt]

I need to N my life !

 

[Life sucks]

I'm getting more deteriorated physically and mentally everyday

 

[Letting Go]

Bad things happen to good people until they turn into bad people. Story of my life right there.

 

[concededarc]

Random thought.....
I want to fuck my psychiatrist. I don't know why but I realllllly want it. Possibly my mania, I'm not sure yet. Wonder what would happen if I went for it.

Probably cause he's in a position of authority and/or power over you due to the vulnerabilities you've shared to him. A lot of people are into that, really common and very kinky. (:

 

[sólstafir]

I was searching for a movie to watch, and found dark comedy in the sentence from description of the movie Nebraska - "Shot entirely in stark black and white, Nebraska is a thoughtful take on the road trip genre, both wryly funny and a touching meditation on ageing, family and regret" I'm not sure if I want to meditate on regret, but I will watch Manchester by the Sea now.