Random thoughts

[Life sucks]

Everyday you live, you get more problems. Spend your life solving endless problems and trying to solve the unsolvable. Then you die and everything is wasted. You only get free of problems when you die

 

[OnlyMercy]

No sentient being was brought into this planet by his own will or accord. If life's circumstances become unbearable for any such being, his right to revoke life must be honoured.

 

[Trashcan]

I'm trying to decide what day to check into a hotel... or if maybe there's something else I could do it. I can't really do it in the middle of nowhere (don't know anywhere around here where I can safely assume I won't be found in time) and it's also cold.

 

[Xerxes]

I actually feel a bit optimistic today. I start college soon. No idea how I'll take it if I fail at this.

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

I actually feel a bit optimistic today. I start college soon. No idea how I'll take it if I fail at this.

Good luck man, college can be pretty alright if you're around the right people.

Even if it's hard, don't do what I did and isolate yourself too much

 

[Life sucks]

The point of no return. A dark future filled with suffering and the solution is getting away with a peaceful method.

 

[worldexploder]

I am angry to be alive today. Angry not only because I was born and surrounded by optimists who think life is a positive, but angry because I can't exit this world in a peaceful manner of my choosing.

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

You know, people talk a lot about their dream life, whether it includes travelling the world, getting their dream job, starting a family, but THIS is my dream. Just living a comfy existence with no cares in the world.

I know it's not meant to be taken seriously ofc, but still

 

[Xerxes]

Good luck man, college can be pretty alright if you're around the right people.

Even if it's hard, don't do what I did and isolate yourself too much

Thanks. I'm gonna isolate myself because I work better that way, but if I need help I'll turn to Reddit or something. It's all done online. I don't have to physically go to a classroom thankfully.

 

[lv-gras]

just kinda feeling close to done rn

 

[Trashcan]

I'm considering renting a hotel room on Sunday and ctb then. So many things are pushing me over the edge this week. So many things.

 

[Trashcan]

I want to do it tonight. I can't due to a few things, but I'd love to.

 

[blueming]

I'm so sick and tired of myself.

 

[littlelungs]

In love AF.

 

[jaemus12]

I like to check the List of Online Members so I can see what everyone is up to on the forum.

My findings:
Members are typically engaged in chat, PMs or threads. Pretty standard.

Guests are typically reading [Method] or [Help] threads or creeping a random user. I'm guessing many are looking for a quick way out.

Robots are typically just here for a good time doing nothing or creeping a random thread or user. I wonder what they're trying to achieve.

 

[Sundayafternoon]

I KNOW it's not empirically true, but I think consistently "happy" people are a bit dim.

I

 

[concededarc]

I KNOW it's not empirically true, but I think consistently "happy" people are a bit dim.

I

Happiness is a fucking lie so, lol

 

[Xerxes]

Even if I'm adding new things to my life, to prolong my CTB, my mind still tell me I'm a shit person that deserves to die a horrible death.

 

[worldexploder]

The Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade sucks.

 

[Xerxes]

LOL, they still have those? I always sleep in on that day so I miss it by the time I wake up. Fuck parades in general.

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

I can't stand my newer roommate. Dude is one of these people who cannot ever shut the fuck up. Always has to give some stupid comment or make a painful attempt at being funny.

 

[Roulette]

Been friends with some online peeps for years, maybe it's time to voice chat with them that should be ok
*is mostly silent, doesn't say much, muffs up words, too embarrassed afterwards*

I shouldn't be surprised .... but I'm loud and obnoxious when I type, why the friccck doesn't that carry over when I speak

 

[lv-gras]

meh

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

Jesus fucking christ, I hate my fucking roommate. Walls here are paper thin in this shitty apartment and every night he talks with his friends over discord and I can hear every single word! This goes on for hours! I cannot sleep because of this fucker. Oh and hahaha, he doesn't do his dishes either of course and he just leaves trash everywhere in the kitchen, but then once he manages to do the bare minimum he acts as if he just cleaned the entire apartment for us.

I don't know, I just get way too angry about this and I can't stop thinking about it and that makes the anger worse. I don't know what take my anger out on, but it has to go somewhere... It's not even the noise that keeps me up, just the anger.

 

[Trashcan]

I was originally going to choose a date to book a hotel. I decided that I'll not choose a date in advance. Instead, on a day I've had enough, I'll book a hotel room. That way, I can overcome the survival instinct. I'll carry everything for the exit bag but also bring SN and anti emetics as a backup.

 

[lost illusions]

California is wet and foggy

 

[Lizzie S.]

California is wet and foggy

I love it haha, finally some rain! We need it so bad with the fires

 

[mattwitt]

Blue cheese dressing is just disgusting !

 

[LiveSlowDieFast]

Drank way too much last night, had a breakdown and now I've realised that even drunk I cannot function around others anymore. I can't do this anymore, I just want to off myself, I really do, but my mind always jumps to my parents. To my mother screaming in agony over my death and my father being unable to cope with it. Fuck me, this hurts, I just want to die, I hate myself so much...

 

[Vaa]

I need a long, long rest