Random thoughts

[your pathologist]

No contentment here
No contentment there
Pain in my chest
Churning in my gut
Sadness in my heart
Regret in my thought
Confusion
Disgust
Anger
A soul cries out in silence

 

[worldexploder]

How in the hell is evolution "intelligent" when you eat out of the same hole you breathe out of?

 

[Lra888]

I just emptied my library and packed my books in boxes so I don't see them for the rest of my remaining days. I also want to hide them so my mum won't cry whenever she sees them after I'm gone. I used to LOVE my books and would buy a book just to be happy but it has been a almost 3 years now since I actually could read and understand what is on the page. It is strange that I felt something while packing them because I have been numb for weeks now. It felt sad and painful to touch them and lay my eyes on them for the last time. I'm saying goodbye to the whole world in my own way. My body will die and will be hidden in a grave and my books will be buried as well in these boxes. The old me is really gone and it is just a matter of days or weeks before I physically depart this existance.

I feel this. Reading was one of my favorite activities. I have a bookshelf in my room holding my organized collection. I walk by it and it sickens me because I cannot get any enjoyment anymore. I fucking hate myself for not being able to concentrate/retain information. It kills me how much I've lost/how low I've sunk. Need death.

 

[Lra888]

How in the hell is evolution "intelligent" when you eat out of the same hole you breathe out of?

Yeah. It annoys me that I have to breath and eat through my vomit hole.

 

[sadsoul]

How in the hell is evolution "intelligent" when you eat out of the same hole you breathe out of?

Yeah, I really hate eating through my nose :/

 

[worldexploder]

Yeah, I really hate eating through my nose :/

Maybe we should be fitted with gills. They would be designed to breathe oxygen and render the Hemlich maneuver obsolete!

 

[2211264]

Heavy eyes, tired body.

 

[Lra888]

Yeah, I really hate eating through my nose :/

Cocaine holes.

 

[sadsoul]

Cocaine holes.

I'm hardcore, I sniff cyanide through my nose

 

[worldexploder]

Nembutal....what "horrifying" way to go says 99% of humanity who also doesn't realize that going to sleep peacefully is much better than fucking letting nature fucking devour your fucking body violently against your fucking will.

 

[Life sucks]

Life is stupid and brutal time machine. If we can freeze time then all problems will be solved.

 

[worldexploder]

Eddie Izzard get of my lizard
And feast upon my chicken gizzard

 

[blueming]

I feel so stupid when I remember how much I trusted the people who ended up stabbing me in the back.

 

[Schopenhauer]

Nah I can't afford to quit yet.

In that case hold on to it, but look for alternatives. A bad job can destroy you, if you let it go for long enough.

 

[Fallen bad23]

I feel so stupid when I remember how much I trusted the people who ended up stabbing me in the back.

I wouldn't call it stupid though, kind person who never sees the dark shades in the world seems more accurate.

 

[Fallen bad23]

Is this really what my life has come to? Posting memes on Reddit, playing games and posting caps on it online, just so that I can get some positive feedback and for someone to agree with me for once, just for the sake of fake points.


I'm lonely. Jobless, despite knowing that I could get a job I hate but can do. But I choose to not call and set up interviews because I'm too scared and want to mooch off my mom's hospitality a little bit longer.


Everyday is darkness, I have no friends or anyone to relate too, I watch tv/movies whole day. I diagnosed myself as having depression and anxiety. I know I have both, I know I have anxiety more, but I also wonder if I just say that to either fool myself or self destruct.


Though the fact that my mind makes up hypothecticl, irrational and ilogical situations to make me afraid, and getting worse as the days go by, is proof of my anxiety.


I regret staying alive. And yet still now I feel like I'm forced to kill myself. I dunno when I went from wanting to do it to being strongarmed into doing it. But it's so unfair that I have to do it.


Where do I go from here? What do I do? How do I find myself? How do I fix it? I guess I'll never be brave enough to know.

Even though I can totally relate to your experience it breaks my heart to see you in this dillema. Hopefully we can all one day find peace of mind and soul.

 

[Ukmale]

I dont think I have spoken to anyone since friday evening!

 

[2211264]

Sitting in traffic smiling over how pointless I am and how nothing matters anymore. Its a nice change from frustration

 

[+ + + +]

Hello. What was the point of being suicidal for almost 8 years when I didn't do it. Could have do it right when it came to my mind, instead I suffered because of the thought that never became real. Maybe suicidal ideation is my safe place in my mind. What a waste of time, what different kinds of hell my mind creates every day... And seems like I continue and never die actually.

 

[Trashcan]

Tonight might be the night

 

[Trashcan]

Also the exit bag would have been a nice method, but I'm too lazy to find out all the technical aspects of it and get all the supplies. I would do it if I could just use helium from the store and get a face mask, but that wouldn't work.

 

[littlelungs]

I've had "the day" planned for the middle of January 2019, but I honestly feel like I'm not even going to make it to 2019. I'm hanging on by a thread, and the whole thing just feels so gross.

 

[Sayo]

I'm terminally bored, and I'm tired of trying to fill the void. Learning is the only thing that's given me consistent pleasure, but my unmet and unmeetable emotional needs are interfering. Really I'm just so bored and there's very little that can distract me.

 

[Dani Paradox]

I wish I had something new and exciting to think about instead of all the same bullshit that took over long ago. The same thoughts looping over and over. Anyway, fuck doctors.

 

[Dani Paradox]

I don't know what just made me think of this lmao

 

[Throwaway563078]

Life /existence is stupid. Even if there was no pain or suffering I still think it's utterly stupid. Intelligent design, yeah right lol

 

[AndyCurious]

Random thought..: I don't know what to think or feel anymore, my head are spinning, and trying to figure out why I was brought to this world..

 

[Threads]

I want to get into a fist fight and lose.

 

[AndyCurious]

I want to get into a fist fight and lose.

That wouldn't be hard, maybe depends if you live near bars or pubs where trouble makers use to go...

 

[Dani Paradox]

I want to get into a fist fight and lose.

Fight me.