Random thoughts

[Deleted_9cKnXB34QG]

Today I had a dream that my mom died and I was so happy and thought "now I can kill myself and absolutely nobody will care!".
That's kinda fucked up, lol.

 

[throwaway123]

This world is so evil. How can you guys stand it?

 

[throwaway123]

Somebody in school asked me today if why I don't have any friends. I was standing there alone like the outcast I am. I don't fit into the cliques that have formed over the years. I am always the lonely guy. Standing there alone like the freak. I am often called "weirdo" or "psycho". It hurts a lot because noone has ever approached me. It feels like I'm invisible. I want to die so badly and yet I can't muster up the strength to get it done. What is wrong with me?

 

[agreement]

Today I had a dream that my mom died and I was so happy and thought "now I can kill myself and absolutely nobody will care!".
That's kinda fucked up, lol.

Fuck, the other night I had a dream that my mom hanged herself with the help of my dad (that is in reality already dead).
Bonus: I was there and I wasn't trying to stop them, I was more like "C'mon guys do you really think this is absolutely necessary?"

 

[mattwitt]

I only use blue ink pens.

 

[Tiburcio]

I want to experience how would be enter in a magic world. Hopefully, the experience could be unforgettable.

But instead of that, we have this corrupted, evil, bland human shit world.

 

[Life sucks]

I think people should understand this is a suicide forum with people putting their own lives on the line.
If you don't respect and understand others and their choices or dismiss their ideas as being "dark" or "depressive", then its not a good place to troll others with prolifeness

 

[mattwitt]

Italian or Chinese tonight ?

 

[Tiburcio]

Italian or Chinese tonight ?

Why not both?

 

[GoneSeptember2018]

Last night I had a dream I was already dead and observing my family members going about their business as if I wasn't there. They were going to parks, having fun, dining together, etc. I was basically a ghost. I didn't feel sad or devastated but I was genuinely confused at first why they wouldn't communicate with me.

 

[mattwitt]

Why not both?

I ended up getting a couple of burrito's from taco bell

 

[Tiburcio]

I ended up getting a couple of burrito's from taco bell

Wise choice.

 

[Life sucks]

I don't know how to describe it but r/TimeToGo looks like a syndrome and not limited to the subreddit and a subgroup of people acts that way.

 

[KCN]

I don't know how to describe it but r/TimeToGo looks like a syndrome and not limited to the subreddit and a subgroup of people acts that way.

Reddit is a state of mind (the worst imaginable, except for a few subs)

 

[KCN]

I want to experience how would be enter in a magic world. Hopefully, the experience could be unforgettable.

Playing Super Mario 64 looks like a valid surrogate.

 

[Life sucks]

Reddit is a state of mind (the worst imaginable, except for a few subs)

Yep, I meant is the joke of that sub being prolife in a very strange way while some pretends to understand suicide then attack it. Like lets talk about how life is shitty and there is no solutions but we shouldn't exit. I think we have enough trolls and prolifers in disguise here with this r/TimeToGo mentality

 

[throwaway123]

I used to care about the things that would happen after my death but now I don't. My life is hell and it couldn't be worse for me.

 

[Okami]

I feel like I'm legitimately going insane (if I haven't already). I want to die so badly. I need to.

 

[throwaway123]

I didn't want to make an entire post about it so I'm just writing it here.

I'm done. I can't find the words to describe how I feel. It's a mix of emotions but ultimatly just peace. I've let go of all attachements and I honestly don't care anymore. I'm so hurt and not a fucking person cares. The one person I do care about doesn't even know that I exist. I'm just done. I used to delete stuff before trying to CTB but now I just don't give a shit. People already know I'm a loser so whats the difference. I'm not even afraid anymore of becoming a vegetable. This life is one big joke to me. It would make more sense if this was hell.
I'm so tired and I don't want to wake up again. I've had enough. I am humiliated on a daily basis and I'm sick of it. I won't let myself be hurt like this. I'm going to take all my strength to end it once and for all. I am a bit afraid but I am going to force myself . I know I have to otherwise I will never get out of this hellhole. Goodbye folks.

 

[Okami]

I didn't want to make an entire post about it so I'm just writing it here.

I'm done. I can't find the words to describe how I feel. It's a mix of emotions but ultimatly just peace. I've let go of all attachements and I honestly don't care anymore. I'm so hurt and not a fucking person cares. The one person I do care about doesn't even know that I exist. I'm just done. I used to delete stuff before trying to CTB but now I just don't give a shit. People already know I'm a loser so whats the difference. I'm not even afraid anymore of becoming a vegetable. This life is one big joke to me. It would make more sense if this was hell.
I'm so tired and I don't want to wake up again. I've had enough. I am humiliated on a daily basis and I'm sick of it. I won't let myself be hurt like this. I'm going to take all my strength to end it once and for all. I am a bit afraid but I am going to force myself . I know I have to otherwise I will never get out of this hellhole. Goodbye folks.

I hope you succeed so you'll no longer have to suffer. Farewell.

 

[Tiburcio]

How can anxiety be so underrated by everyone? Would you like to "live" in constant panic attacks, tension and being extremely sensitive to absolutely everything in this state?

It dures all the day. It doesn't stop. I can't deal with this. I want to die but I feel too much fear. Shit.

 

[throwaway123]

How can anxiety be so underrated by everyone? Would you like to "live" in constant panic attacks, tension and being extremely sensitive to absolutely everything in this state?

It dures all the day. It doesn't stop. I can't deal with this. I want to die but I feel too much fear. Shit.

I feel the same way my friend.

 

[GoneSeptember2018]

Really random but Lay's truffle fries flavored chips are good. Not "keep me alive" good, but a nice tickle to the tongue while waiting in hell.

 

[Tiburcio]

Nothing works and I can't handle this. Everybody near to me knows it and tries to bother me as much as possible knowing I'm in a weakness moment. Fuckers all them.

I'm tired of being treated like a beast. I need some humanity and more in this moment.

 

[throwaway123]

Noone ever likes me

 

[Tiburcio]

I feel hated, uncared and disrespected by everyone. Human garbage all they are.

 

[throwaway123]

Yesterday I met someone here and we exchanged phone numbers. We talked for a bit but now she has ghosted me. :( Noone ever likes me. I feel like the weirdo everyone despises.

 

[lv-gras]

: /

 

[Tiburcio]

Here the caution we must have with privacy is very high and I think it can limit a relationship with any oerson here. We born separated by this cyber wall and there is nothing we can do against it.

 

[throwaway123]

Here the caution we must have with privacy is very high and I think it can limit a relationship with any oerson here. We born separated by this cyber wall and there is nothing we can do against it.

That's so sad man :( It hurts so much.