Random thoughts

[throwaway123]

I wish I had the courage to do something. I don't have what it takes to live nor do I have it in me to CTB.

 

[Kassender]

I said yes to the job.
I arrived there knowing it would be bad for me. That i had to say no.

My old coworkers barely acknowledged my presence. It took me 5 seconds to remember how much i hated this place.

And i said yes, because i had nothing else but i know i'll fail again.
Just as i knew last year. I've got til december to prove myself i'm not a coward and finally kill myself.

 

[LastFlowers]

My exterior self is like my constant abuser and those surrounding me are like enablers to the abuser, who blame the victim for what is happening.
I want to escape my ugly face and body, I want to escape the abuse and the people who turn the other way.

 

[woxihuanni]

God I'm going to kill this guy with the mot disgusting hairstyle and a baby in a fucking trolley who is making so. much. noise. Also the guy throwing stuff in trash. It's so. loud.

We always joked we'd get a house in the countryside, with a cow in the yard.

 

[SinisterKid]

Am I really that sinister? Maybe I need to change my nic. I just seem to freak people out when trying to show how deeply I care. Maybe its just too much and too creepy, I have no idea. I am just a old guy trying his best to make it through each day and the only danger I pose, is to myself.

 

[woxihuanni]

Am I really that sinister? Maybe I need to change my nic. I just seem to freak people out when trying to show how deeply I care. Maybe its just too much and too creepy, I have no idea. I am just a old guy trying his best to make it through each day and the only danger I pose, is to myself.

Nah, people who take your handle seriously are probably a little bit confused in the first place, brain fog sort of thing. I enjoy seeing it, a bit of whimsy.

 

[mynameispaige]

I'm currently visiting my grandma in a nursing home. I hope I don't live long enough to end up in one of these places. This place is making me feel even more suicidal than I already was.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Tonight feels right. I have the perfect opportunity to ctb but stupid me didn't bring my supplies. ......

I hate this time of year. It's when bad things happen to me. I was slightly tolerating life the past few months but nope it's back to the shit show. It's like life sees me slightly ok and is like "fuck you just when you didn't think it could get worse..." so I just expect the worst now. Ctb is my inevitable fate it's just taking me a long time to really accept it.

 

[Lefty]

I'm feeling alright right now.

 

[SinisterKid]

I just sat out in the sunshine on the local high street for 2 hours and watched the world go by. Its amazing how something so simple can enhance your life and elevate your feeling of self worth.

 

[charlottewilts]

funny how when you highlight text on this site it's red, not blue like in most cases.... red like blood...

 

[sammii]

I'm staying at my friend's house and she's at work rn, I'm having self harm urges but I feel like self harming in her house would be kind of a dick move. But she most likely wouldn't even find out. I'm conflicted.

 

[Life sucks]

One of the problems in life is how the shitty others doesn't allow you to live like you want. They just want copies of themselves. Like for example working in a corporate for their whole lives and wanting everyone else to be a corporate puppet.

 

[mynameispaige]

I hate my job. The owner is here and he loves to ruin everyone's day. Hope he's enjoying his millionaire life while we're all miserable.

 

[OnlyMercy]

It is the greatest irony and embodiment of hypocrisy that those who condemn suicide are those who proudly encourage you to take any measure necessary to end your pain.

 

[sadgirl2002]

I miss you. I love you. I'm waiting for you.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Stupid compulsive shopping

 

[Return2Dust]

Double-digit sobriety. Trying to figure out if I should drink or ctb sober.

 

[omoidarui]

Archived Petition: Ban pro-suicide and pro-choice websites

Pro-suicide websites, and websites which claim to be pro-choice to cover up the fact that a majority of the users are pro-suicide should be banned. A large number of people who use these websites are simply there to encourage other people to take their lives and push them away from seeking real...

petition.parliament.uk

A petition to ban pro-choice suicide websites only got 17 signatures in 6 months and failed

My faith in humanity is restored slightly

 

[Lefty]

When you do things right, nobody will be sure if you've done anything at all.

 

[Life sucks]

Most humans are illogical and absurd to a level that I can't tolerate.

 

[woxihuanni]

I'm in a headspace where I could easily override SI. Yet I wait to see if any life might be left for me. I just hope I don't mistime anything and have to regret.

It's a stopping, ceasing. Out of sheer exhaustion of thought.

 

[blanketyblk]

Therapist - So <insert name> just how lonely are you?
Me - Very
Therapist - Family?
Me - Dead
Therapist - Partner?
Me - Dead
Therapist - Friends?
Me - Moved away, or dead
Therapist - Social Actives?
Me - Yes, not working out
Therapist - Your lost weight though?
Me - Yes, eating nothing and sleeping heaps.
Therapist - Well you look great!. how much weight have you lost
Me - Around 60 pounds.
Therapist - thats great.. you should be so happy.
Me - ???????

why do i even both with this clown..

 

[wendydong1]

I hate him. He has caused so much sadness and tears and pain in my life.

But I still miss him

 

[Morphinekiss]

Therapist - So <insert name> just how lonely are you?
Me - Very
Therapist - Family?
Me - Dead
Therapist - Partner?
Me - Dead
Therapist - Friends?
Me - Moved away, or dead
Therapist - Social Actives?
Me - Yes, not working out
Therapist - Your lost weight though?
Me - Yes, eating nothing and sleeping heaps.
Therapist - Well you look great!. how much weight have you lost
Me - Around 60 pounds.
Therapist - thats great.. you should be so happy.
Me - ???????

why do i even both with this clown..

He must be brothers with my therapist.

 

[blanketyblk]

He must be brothers with my therapist.

It's soul destroying isn't it, so i should not be lonely because i have lost weight.. it's like WTF. truly thats all you got out of our hour long chat?. my cat understands me better than this clown..

 

[Morphinekiss]

I just accidently electrocuted myself. I kinda wanna keep doing but my hand is still tingling and twitchy and I'm afraid to fuck it up

 

[blanketyblk]

I just accidently electrocuted myself. I kinda wanna keep doing but my hand is still tingling and twitchy and I'm afraid to fuck it up

aww. don't do that.. just think about what it will do to your hair :-) hugs

 

[Kassender]

Stop being so scared, ffs, why are you like this ?!

 

[Morphinekiss]

This new cbd oil tastes like floral play dough. Yikes.