throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
- 1,446
I wish I had the courage to do something. I don't have what it takes to live nor do I have it in me to CTB.
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Kassender
Experienced
- Aug 29, 2018
- 210
I said yes to the job.
I arrived there knowing it would be bad for me. That i had to say no.
My old coworkers barely acknowledged my presence. It took me 5 seconds to remember how much i hated this place.
And i said yes, because i had nothing else but i know i'll fail again.
Just as i knew last year. I've got til december to prove myself i'm not a coward and finally kill myself.
I arrived there knowing it would be bad for me. That i had to say no.
My old coworkers barely acknowledged my presence. It took me 5 seconds to remember how much i hated this place.
And i said yes, because i had nothing else but i know i'll fail again.
Just as i knew last year. I've got til december to prove myself i'm not a coward and finally kill myself.
LastFlowers
the haru that can read
- Apr 27, 2019
- 2,171
My exterior self is like my constant abuser and those surrounding me are like enablers to the abuser, who blame the victim for what is happening.
I want to escape my ugly face and body, I want to escape the abuse and the people who turn the other way.
I want to escape my ugly face and body, I want to escape the abuse and the people who turn the other way.
woxihuanni
Illuminated
- Aug 19, 2019
- 3,299
God I'm going to kill this guy with the mot disgusting hairstyle and a baby in a fucking trolley who is making so. much. noise. Also the guy throwing stuff in trash. It's so. loud.
We always joked we'd get a house in the countryside, with a cow in the yard.
We always joked we'd get a house in the countryside, with a cow in the yard.
SinisterKid
Visionary
- Jun 1, 2019
- 2,113
Am I really that sinister? Maybe I need to change my nic. I just seem to freak people out when trying to show how deeply I care. Maybe its just too much and too creepy, I have no idea. I am just a old guy trying his best to make it through each day and the only danger I pose, is to myself.
woxihuanni
Illuminated
- Aug 19, 2019
- 3,299
Nah, people who take your handle seriously are probably a little bit confused in the first place, brain fog sort of thing. I enjoy seeing it, a bit of whimsy.
mynameispaige
Member
- Sep 1, 2019
- 58
I'm currently visiting my grandma in a nursing home. I hope I don't live long enough to end up in one of these places. This place is making me feel even more suicidal than I already was.
Tonight feels right. I have the perfect opportunity to ctb but stupid me didn't bring my supplies. ......
I hate this time of year. It's when bad things happen to me. I was slightly tolerating life the past few months but nope it's back to the shit show. It's like life sees me slightly ok and is like "fuck you just when you didn't think it could get worse..." so I just expect the worst now. Ctb is my inevitable fate it's just taking me a long time to really accept it.
I hate this time of year. It's when bad things happen to me. I was slightly tolerating life the past few months but nope it's back to the shit show. It's like life sees me slightly ok and is like "fuck you just when you didn't think it could get worse..." so I just expect the worst now. Ctb is my inevitable fate it's just taking me a long time to really accept it.
SinisterKid
Visionary
- Jun 1, 2019
- 2,113
I just sat out in the sunshine on the local high street for 2 hours and watched the world go by. Its amazing how something so simple can enhance your life and elevate your feeling of self worth.
charlottewilts
read Dostoyevsky
- Jun 15, 2019
- 494
funny how when you highlight text on this site it's red, not blue like in most cases.... red like blood...
sammii
I have no idea what I’m doing.
- Oct 9, 2019
- 221
I'm staying at my friend's house and she's at work rn, I'm having self harm urges but I feel like self harming in her house would be kind of a dick move. But she most likely wouldn't even find out. I'm conflicted.
One of the problems in life is how the shitty others doesn't allow you to live like you want. They just want copies of themselves. Like for example working in a corporate for their whole lives and wanting everyone else to be a corporate puppet.
mynameispaige
Member
- Sep 1, 2019
- 58
I hate my job. The owner is here and he loves to ruin everyone's day. Hope he's enjoying his millionaire life while we're all miserable.
OnlyMercy
No More
- Oct 23, 2018
- 190
It is the greatest irony and embodiment of hypocrisy that those who condemn suicide are those who proudly encourage you to take any measure necessary to end your pain.
sadgirl2002
Fallen Angel
- Apr 9, 2019
- 452
Return2Dust
Experienced
- Sep 28, 2019
- 246
omoidarui
Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ
- Apr 30, 2019
- 993
Archived Petition: Ban pro-suicide and pro-choice websites
Pro-suicide websites, and websites which claim to be pro-choice to cover up the fact that a majority of the users are pro-suicide should be banned. A large number of people who use these websites are simply there to encourage other people to take their lives and push them away from seeking real...
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A petition to ban pro-choice suicide websites only got 17 signatures in 6 months and failed
My faith in humanity is restored slightly
When you do things right, nobody will be sure if you've done anything at all.
Most humans are illogical and absurd to a level that I can't tolerate.
woxihuanni
Illuminated
- Aug 19, 2019
- 3,299
I'm in a headspace where I could easily override SI. Yet I wait to see if any life might be left for me. I just hope I don't mistime anything and have to regret.
It's a stopping, ceasing. Out of sheer exhaustion of thought.
It's a stopping, ceasing. Out of sheer exhaustion of thought.
blanketyblk
Mage
- Jun 9, 2019
- 574
Therapist - So <insert name> just how lonely are you?
Me - Very
Therapist - Family?
Me - Dead
Therapist - Partner?
Me - Dead
Therapist - Friends?
Me - Moved away, or dead
Therapist - Social Actives?
Me - Yes, not working out
Therapist - Your lost weight though?
Me - Yes, eating nothing and sleeping heaps.
Therapist - Well you look great!. how much weight have you lost
Me - Around 60 pounds.
Therapist - thats great.. you should be so happy.
Me - ???????
why do i even both with this clown..
Me - Very
Therapist - Family?
Me - Dead
Therapist - Partner?
Me - Dead
Therapist - Friends?
Me - Moved away, or dead
Therapist - Social Actives?
Me - Yes, not working out
Therapist - Your lost weight though?
Me - Yes, eating nothing and sleeping heaps.
Therapist - Well you look great!. how much weight have you lost
Me - Around 60 pounds.
Therapist - thats great.. you should be so happy.
Me - ???????
why do i even both with this clown..
I hate him. He has caused so much sadness and tears and pain in my life.
But I still miss him
But I still miss him
blanketyblk
Mage
- Jun 9, 2019
- 574
It's soul destroying isn't it, so i should not be lonely because i have lost weight.. it's like WTF. truly thats all you got out of our hour long chat?. my cat understands me better than this clown..
I just accidently electrocuted myself. I kinda wanna keep doing but my hand is still tingling and twitchy and I'm afraid to fuck it up
blanketyblk
Mage
- Jun 9, 2019
- 574
aww. don't do that.. just think about what it will do to your hair :-) hugs
Kassender
Experienced
- Aug 29, 2018
- 210
