Discussion would you still consider ctb if you were rich?

[asa]

I would still be depressed but not to the point of considering ctb.
Money would definitely help get rid of most of my problems.
I know this question has been asked before and looking at the answers made me think if my decision to ctb is too impulsive? since most people in that thread stated that they'd still consider ctb. I'm aware that money doesn't make suicidal ideation go away and everyone navigates differently through situations like these. I'm still curious to know about what you guys think

 

[Life'sA6itch]

If I couldn't take care of myself, be independent I would. Our health and bodies can change for the worse even if you treated your body perfectly well. Accidents happen or you could be the victim of some life changing crime or conflict. Money is the only solution to many stressors, health issues, etc. but even money cannot solve all problems.

 

[lacustra]

I don't know. I have always been poor, so not having to endlessly worry about how to pay bills should be a substantial relief, at least until I get used to it. I might even be able to access some proper treatment for my numerous mental disorders. I don't think it would by itself give me a reason to carry on with this life though. That sort of thing must come from within. I've been trying for years. It's not working. Something's broken and I can't seem to fix it.

 

[11April]

No, money won't help.
But I might have postponed ctb, because money would have given me something interesting to try.

 

[asa]

I'm not rich but I'm financially comfortable and have been making good money for the past few years. In some ways things are better. However, that still didn't stop me from attempting to CTB last week and ending up in the psych ward for 10 days.

I'm so sorry

Yes, since the cause for me going to end my life is because of health problems that makes my days next to unbearable. I can't work or enjoy anything, and if you have health problems at this level, money and other materialistic things don't mean much. I would however have hired some of the top neuro researchers in the world to research and hopefully find a good treatment or cure for the somewhat rare neurological disorder that i have.

This sure sucks, because i overall loved life before ending up with my health problems and there's not much i wouldn't have done to be free from them, or atleast the neurological one, since that's the one being the stick in my wheel, completely hindering me from having any quality of life.

I'm sorry you have to go through this. Although I would never be able to understand what kind of pain you're suffering from, I sincerely pray that things get better for you.

I would absolutely stay if I was rich. I would travel for a living, maybe set up a foundation and help manage it to help others - but almost all my problems would go away.

A large part of my hell is that at a certain point I will have no money and no job, and will end up homeless. Fuck the rich, take their money

we share the same sentiment

I became a millionaire from crypto a few years ago. I always had suicidal ideation at the back of my head when I was poor due to having an abusive family, being bullied but I was very optimistic growing up so I brushed those thoughts off and did my own thing. I always believed I was destined to be wealthy. I found out about bitcoin very early, through using the darkweb and working in the "underworld" (sex-work). I invested all my extra student loan money, waited then hit it big. For a while, I was very happy when I hit 7 figures on my portfolio, moved to a beach house in Mauritius, i had grown up in UK.

Looking back I realise the happiness was pure mania, bordering psychosis. Hedonic adaptation sets in and you go back to baseline level of happiness, or even way lower in my case (pits of hell hopelessness). I saw the real true nature of my so-called family and friends, most people only pretend to care if they know they can get something from you. I have a deep mistrust of most people. I overindulged, my anhedonia got worse.

I'm a 30yr old woman, I don't want kids, marriage, I don't trust men (SA'd multiple times) and would hate to bring another soul into this mix despite having the means to give my offspring a very comfortable life, I can't guarantee they won't be bullied, face racism, have defective genes from me, disabilities, accidents etc. I realise if i don't CTB , I will live a very lonely sad life

I'm so sorry for everything that happened to you. If my words mean anything then I must say that I found it really inspiring that you were able to get away from all the bad things and were able to achieve your dream also I totally agree with you on marriage and not wanting kids. It's a very selfless decision. Peace<3

I would do it immediately if I was rich, the only reason I'm living is to help with money troubles of my family. If I could just give them the money and die I could die without any second thoughts.

You're really strong for staying to help your family out<3

 

[wCvML2]

Not really, if I won't need to work another day of my life and have money to keep me comfortable and distracted I'd easily coast through life until 60 in the least

 

[HeartThatFeeds]

This is a really tricky question for me TBH because I think yes I would still probably consider CTB, however I think if I were rich the fact I could afford therapy and get much faster access to support would be a major factor that would limit the likelihood of me actually CTB and also being more mentally stable

 

[AnonThinker]

I'd probably be a binge drinker from going to the pub to often. lol. I'd be happier I think, I'd spend my days playing sims, reading, watching series, and chatting online. All distractions from my actual thoughts and feelings.

 

[lawlietsph]

I would still consider it, however I genuinely believe that money can buy happiness.
At least 90% of my suicidality is coming from not having money.
Not being able to work full time due social anxiety, autism, living in a poor country, feeling guilty af for not working more, feeling deep rage when thinking about slavery - these are the things that's making me want to die.
I can't go to therapy because I don't have money.

I can't develop more self confidence because I don't have money.

I can't move far away from my toxic family because I don't have money.

I can't relax, see pretty places enjoy the simple things because I don't have money.

I can't eat healthy because I don't have money.

I can't stop worrying about my pets because what if they got sick, and I don't have money.

Guilt is all I feel; I should be more productive, I should do more, etc etc
The world sould still be an awful, cruel place, but I would be OKAY with being alive.

 

[Unspoken7612]

I became a millionaire from crypto a few years ago. I always had suicidal ideation at the back of my head when I was poor due to having an abusive family, being bullied but I was very optimistic growing up so I brushed those thoughts off and did my own thing. I always believed I was destined to be wealthy. I found out about bitcoin very early, through using the darkweb and working in the "underworld" (sex-work). I invested all my extra student loan money, waited then hit it big. For a while, I was very happy when I hit 7 figures on my portfolio, moved to a beach house in Mauritius, i had grown up in UK.

Looking back I realise the happiness was pure mania, bordering psychosis. Hedonic adaptation sets in and you go back to baseline level of happiness, or even way lower in my case (pits of hell hopelessness). I saw the real true nature of my so-called family and friends, most people only pretend to care if they know they can get something from you. I have a deep mistrust of most people. I overindulged, my anhedonia got worse.

I'm a 30yr old woman, I don't want kids, marriage, I don't trust men (SA'd multiple times) and would hate to bring another soul into this mix despite having the means to give my offspring a very comfortable life, I can't guarantee they won't be bullied, face racism, have defective genes from me, disabilities, accidents etc. I realise if i don't CTB , I will live a very lonely sad life

This is very insightful. I think you could probably find real meaning in helping others.

 

[Terios]

Wads of cash could potentially help me "fix" a lot of things in my life but alone is not the answer for my happiness unfortunately...All I want is to have peace of mind while living a modest life.

 

[birthdayboy]

I truly don't know. If I had enough money, I'd at least be able to access a psychiatrist, so maybe I could get things sorted out, since most of my problems are related to trauma. Also, I wouldn't be so financially burdened.

I'm really thankful I'm not rich though tbh

 

[soonatpeace777888]

Yes, I am comfortable financially and it has nothing to do with my reasons for being suicidal. My mind is a hell and money can't change that. Only thing it can do is buy me food but I don't like gaining weight so I can't even enjoy that.

 

[maggot]

Yes. I would live longuer I guess but still would kill myself on a whim someday.

 

[SteamaHorns]

Probably not since I'd still most likely not be able to solve my real problems with it.

 

[lemonbunny]

yes. it would speed up the process. i could pay off my debts, make sure my family has enough to retire, and die knowing i don't owe anything anymore

 

[IsThisTheEnd?]

I don't think so. A lot of it is how i feel I'm perceived but if i was rich I could buy a remote house and have loads of animals etc.

 

[cryptoinvestor]

This is very insightful. I think you could probably find real meaning in helping others.

Thank you for this. You actually led me to do a bit of self-reflection and I have realised if I can sort my anger issues and be more forgiving, I could learn to trust again. I have been very selfish as a defence mechanism and decentering myself would be very healing. I used to volunteer at Oxfam when i was very young and it brought me a lot of joy and purpose, I'll look into ways I can help others.

 

[agony1996]

I would still be depressed but not to the point of considering ctb.
Money would definitely help get rid of most of my problems.
I know this question has been asked before and looking at the answers made me think if my decision to ctb is too impulsive? since most people in that thread stated that they'd still consider ctb. I'm aware that money doesn't make suicidal ideation go away and everyone navigates differently through situations like these. I'm still curious to know about what you guys think

I think money helps but it certainly doesn't buy health, happiness.
I never really have that much importance to money, I've always said all I need is enough to pay my bills and travel from time to time, meaning enough to not have to worry about it but now traveling is the last thing on my mind… I'd give all the most net in the world to stop my pain.
Money can't buy health and happiness.

 

[dimgobaith]

Yes, money won't fix anything

 

[SoulWhisperer]

I am suicidal because of other humans, and society. If being rich would mean not having to have interaction with people I don't want to interact with (especially not having to work) and having the possibility to control others (aka: hiring body guards with wages) and then living happily ever after locked in a mansion with whatever I want to buy + having the reassurance that nobody will be able to hurt me outside with protections I would probably choose to not CTB. But no way it's happening. No way I can avoid getting a job and becoming a slave for minimum wage.

 

[AmIForReal]

Good question. I haven't read all the comments so maybe somebody already answered something similar.
For me primary reason is that I have failed at life and suffer from low esteem. So having a lot of money would change things. Foe example, I would buy a nice house and invite friends over, something that is not possible at the moment.
Money would make me feel better about myself so I would at least postpone suicide.

 

[Unspoken7612]

Thank you for this. You actually led me to do a bit of self-reflection and I have realised if I can sort my anger issues and be more forgiving, I could learn to trust again. I have been very selfish as a defence mechanism and decentering myself would be very healing. I used to volunteer at Oxfam when i was very young and it brought me a lot of joy and purpose, I'll look into ways I can help others.

Oh, I'm glad, I was worried I'd been a little blasé.
The way I see it - you've lost the pressure that most people have. That is both a blessing and a curse. It means you can do whatever you want with your time, it also means you have to create your own meaning.

I understand a little of what you've been through, I have trust and anger issues too, I have been SAed (but as a man my experience will have been different). Lots of people here will be able to relate to a lot of what you have been through. The issues around people only liking you for your money, that's different.

Mauritius is a great country, one of the best governments in the world especially if you control for wealth. It's definitely somewhere you could make a difference. Equally you could if you are back in the UK. Volunteering at Oxfam is worthwhile, doing a job you love for its own sake is worthwhile, philanthropy is worthwhile, being nice to people is worthwhile, pursuing hobbies is worthwhile.

If you are in the UK then I'd suggest calling Samaritans, as you don't need to worry about trust with them.

Don't want to derail the thread, sorry. Hope I have been helpful.

 

[username12345]

I would still be depressed but not to the point of considering ctb.
Money would definitely help get rid of most of my problems.
I know this question has been asked before and looking at the answers made me think if my decision to ctb is too impulsive? since most people in that thread stated that they'd still consider ctb. I'm aware that money doesn't make suicidal ideation go away and everyone navigates differently through situations like these. I'm still curious to know about what you guys think

I still would be dealing with a lot of shit socially

 

[divinemistress36]

Yes , I would just delay it and go have fun wasting it and then I'd pay a crooked doctor to give me euthansia

 

[Cyber4ngel!]

I would still be sick, still depressed and with mental illnesses but maybe the physical pain would be better if I could afford to eat and go to the gym and i would get treatment, I would move out of my home and get another kitty, I would go out more often and i would dress nicely and eat good food! It wouldn't erase my trauma or mental illnesses but it would make me drastically less depressed if I could afford to at least have a normal life and not always having to buy the cheapest stuff or go months without affording basic necessities

 

[justkatie]

Being rich would make a huge difference in the quality of my life. I'm not sure how it would make a difference in how I feel though.

 

[S like Siren]

Money will help me do finally a lot of things i want do so I would not ctb....at least not before I do the things i like with the money i have

 

[Avoider]

I would still probably do it. Money might postpone my decision but my heart would remain poor, painful memories would still spike my penurious soul.

 

[fmak]

Assuming there are no terminal health issues, I will never think of ctb if i have the money. I'm actually here coz I'm a broke rat's ass

 

[Preh1storic_Rib]

Honestly if I was born rich I think I'd be different enough of a person the question kinda looses its meaning.

Gaining that money now, I'd probably still want to cbt, but would delay it a bit more. Make sure everything is really in order and probably set up to pay for one of those fancy death services that turn you into soil or seeds or something.
I haven't ever wanted to grow old, just have a good day and be done :)