Discussion Do you think people will be surprised when you CTB?

[Neosisyphean]

Well, everyone would be surprised, even people who don't know me. I'm not someone who talks much about my feelings or how I feel with other people, and in the same way, they don't really seem to care. I come across as someone who's mentally stable and who would never try something like that. I don't think even my own family would expect it.

 

[charlieee]

Not shocked, not sad, but surprised.
Not that it truly matters to anyone after they die, but do you think deep down people would think "Wow, this is sad but given the circumstances, not surprising." ?

For me, I don't think people who know me would be surprised. I'm quite open about my struggles to my friends, though I rarely mentioned the thought of CTB directly (that would have been years ago).
And most of them know about my prior CTB attempts. And something that I get asked a lot from people, even those who don't know about it, is: "Why do you look so sad?" Even if in that moment, I'm not really sad. I guess I just have that look permanently etched into my eyes.
I'm someone who makes it look like that despite my struggles, I still manage to stay positive (and I say that a lot, too) - but the truth is that I've just stopped caring.

But considering the circumstances for the past 6 years, I would say that no one would be surprised about it.

I personally never say anything to anyone, I hate opening up and be vulnerable in front of someone. I did it younger and it sill haunts me.
For that reason I think people will be surprised a,d caught off guard.