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Slow_Farewell

Slow_Farewell

Warlock
Dec 19, 2023
709
Not putting more effort into CTB earlier. Would have saved a hell of a lot of pain.
Don't get me wrong, there are experiences im thankful that I had, but on the whole, nope.
 
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Lostone47

Member
Jan 7, 2024
73
Being unsuccessful at ctb when I was 22. Ugly way to go out but I worked somewhere I could electrocute myself really easily. Didn't do anything for some reason. Thought I had "shocked" myself into a better life cycle. Not the case.
 
sserafim

sserafim

they say it's darkest of all before the dawn
Sep 13, 2023
9,013
I'm not sure actually. I guess I have several regrets. My main regret is being born as I never wanted to exist in the first place. Existence has only caused harm to me. Another is not talking to my crush during high school, I only became internet friends/acquaintances with him after we graduated. I wish I had known him irl as well instead of just being his online friend. I wanted to be his friend because he seemed cool, I guess. Another regret is not going to the Middle East (Doha, Abu Dhabi, and Dubai) last year, I could have gone there on a trip but wasn't able to go. I wish I had because I love traveling and exploring new places. Another regret is not traveling more, I wish that I had gone to more places but it seems like I'm going to have to ctb soon.
 
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InAgony

InAgony

To insanity and beyond
Feb 19, 2024
132
Becoming anorexic which has left me with health problems I can't overcome.
 
ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
I was going to say that I regret being born but I can't regret something that I didn't even get a say in. I regret not dying as early as possible and still being alive right now to suffer
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,405
I think my biggest regret is how I've fumbled chances to get with various women I've felt attracted to. Some had no interest in me so I should have learned that sooner and gotten over it but others may have gone for me if I had just told them sooner but then again right now I'm struggling to get the words out right now to someone I currently like so maybe it's not that easy.
 
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Circles

Visionary
Sep 3, 2018
2,297
Becoming someone that I know my mom and grandparents are disappointed with regardless of how much my circumstances are my fault or not.
 
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VoidedExistence

Student
Dec 6, 2023
105
Like graduating? Personally I wish that I could've stayed in college forever
Nah, I left quite early because I wasn't doing so good, but only if I had held on for a little more, I had plans to live with my friend and being not alone would have been not so miserable and also held me accountable to do better. Maybe my life wouldn't have gotten so fucking shit like it is now.
 
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Leavesfromthevine

Leavesfromthevine

Untreated Trauma
Nov 23, 2023
339
I regret living this long. I've had chances to ctb before via firearm but never did because I didn't want to emotionally harm the people who owned the guns. It would've saved years of suffering though.
 

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