Venting I’ll probably regret it the second I drink SN, but I’ll regret waking up the next morning where I decided against it

[pedro3211]

Hotel booked for Monday although I can cancel for free so long as it's 24h beforehand. I can imagine I'll regret drinking it the second I gulp it down but on the other hand I'll regret waking up on Tuesday morning knowing I bottled it. I wish things weren't the way they were. Why does it have to be like this?

 

[3FailedAttemptss]

Id imagine a possibility where I'm the same, I recall there's a statistic where nearly all golden gate jumpers who survived regret jumping immediately after they let go. I guess it's just part of the process and something to accept.

 

[fluorescentpearl]

I understand, I feel like everyone regrets it in the very end, whether they can say they did or not, in most cases they just pass out before they can word out the regret / worry
I've regretted a lot of my attempts but the feeling of waking up after failing is the worst most soul crushing thing, you're rendered a corpse walking with no soul, it's like smt left you in that attempt, it's so exhausting to even feed yourself.. I wish uu luck with it all

 

[fitoo5999]

You will regret it, who doesn't? Killing yourself is horrible but sometimes is the only way out.

 

[Macedonian1987]

Hotel booked for Monday although I can cancel for free so long as it's 24h beforehand. I can imagine I'll regret drinking it the second I gulp it down but on the other hand I'll regret waking up on Tuesday morning knowing I bottled it. I wish things weren't the way they were. Why does it have to be like this?

I hear you. That exhausted, heavy feeling of just wanting the pain to stop right now is so overwhelming. I can't promise tomorrow will be easy, but I'm really glad you're still here tonight. You don't have to figure everything out right now, just focus on getting through tonight.

I am in the same situation as you. I have everything I need to make the SN protocol "work" at the moment's notice, but some part of me still wants to live, even though my life is quite unlivable. I'm autistic, never had friends nor a love life, 39 year old with a health of a 75 year old, cold narcissistic parents, health issues... the entire package. I wonder why I still cling to life.

 

[hdead]

I hear you. That exhausted, heavy feeling of just wanting the pain to stop right now is so overwhelming. I can't promise tomorrow will be easy, but I'm really glad you're still here tonight. You don't have to figure everything out right now, just focus on getting through tonight.

I am in the same situation as you. I have everything I need to make the SN protocol "work" at the moment's notice, but some part of me still wants to live, even though my life is quite unlivable. I'm autistic, never had friends nor a love life, 39 year old with a health of a 75 year old, cold narcissistic parents, health issues... the entire package. I wonder why I still cling to life.

Death is the greatest unknown there is to man. Also, survival is baked into the DNA. Don't wonder too much, it's not so complicated. I do feel for you brother. I'm 36, probably autistic, ADHD, been a lazy addict for most of my life and just too sensitive and informed about the world to be able to function.

Somehow I managed to get everything a man should want in life yet it was never enough. I only want to explore that final frontier and I don't want to get old and rackety before I do.

 

[fitoo5999]

Well we should see it as a travel. I've been traveling for all my life so I might actually like it.

 

[Live_Life55]

This is the dilemma many face. Suffer in misery in a life you know or face the ultimate unknown. An unknown which is terrifying.