Hey, So i'm not gonna bore you with why I'm here or what drove me to all of this but I'm no stranger to suicidal Ideation and have even tried to kill myself quite a few times.
I have fundamentally come to see myself aa someone who is UNABLE to live a Normal life because I cannot beat my past and the things that have happened to me.
I'm tired and I am done and I do NOT intend to fail this final time.
My method? Here it is:
Warm water in a Bathtub. I put on some kind of weight on my neck so that Once I submerge myself in the water, in a specific position, I need conscious effort to keep my head above the water. Ofcourse before getting in I'm gonna down as many Pills/Tablets as I need so that Once i get KO'd And drown my body doesn't panic and I don't wake up. I understand that my body still might panic and flail around so the weight will need to be strong enough to keep my head down until the deed is done. The deed in question shouldn't take more than 2-8 minutes.
This, to me, has become the preferred choice to grant me the mercy of Freedom and return to the spiritual realm (I don't know what the individuals on this website majorly believe in But i believe in a afterlife of sorts. Not one of Heaven and hell but one where i. Death, there is no loss and we return to our true and amazing home.) as this life has become more and more burdensome to continue as I don't want to suffer for decades in various pains.
NOW, As it is with all 'easy' enough solutions (I see you Ligature Strangulation!) they are always tricky to get right and there are about a billion things that may go wrong. Maybe my head manages to stay above water or the water falls out just enough to keep my nose out of it…whatever.
What I need out of you people is a Solid and easy to get Knock-out/Temporary-Coma Cocktail of OTC Pills (preferably in the 15-25 pills amount) that will allot me a Brief window in which I can peacefully drown and return my Lovely infinite soul to the Aether.
I am NOT asking for a OTC drug cocktail that will cause OD or am I asking for a shoulder to cry on, Just the Knockout cocktail of pills will do.
The time to do this has been chosen, The bathtub is here (although I need a Drain cover lol) and I'm actively considering the perfect weigh-down-my-neck/head system, Doing my Research and considering fail-safe measurements (basically guaranteeing I don't get found out/'helped' before The Moment has passed). I'm trying to be as smart about this as I can be and consider every point of failure so the last thing I do is wake up disappointed I'm not dead. I'm doing my best through profound procrastination. I'll be trying out positions in my bathtub soon enough. Whether I should lay down or face forward. Please reccomend me on what you think is best.
I'm 5'10, in the 60-62 kg range. Also I know that SS barrs against active advice (which is bullcrap) so you're gonna have to tell me what I need to know/consider in creative ways by telling me to 'avoid' certain things because of how much you want me to 'live' or private message me if possible on this rather limited website.
Thank you! I appreciate your time and Hope I was AT-LEAST Half coherent.
Good morning, Good evening and Good night.
I have fundamentally come to see myself aa someone who is UNABLE to live a Normal life because I cannot beat my past and the things that have happened to me.
I'm tired and I am done and I do NOT intend to fail this final time.
My method? Here it is:
Warm water in a Bathtub. I put on some kind of weight on my neck so that Once I submerge myself in the water, in a specific position, I need conscious effort to keep my head above the water. Ofcourse before getting in I'm gonna down as many Pills/Tablets as I need so that Once i get KO'd And drown my body doesn't panic and I don't wake up. I understand that my body still might panic and flail around so the weight will need to be strong enough to keep my head down until the deed is done. The deed in question shouldn't take more than 2-8 minutes.
This, to me, has become the preferred choice to grant me the mercy of Freedom and return to the spiritual realm (I don't know what the individuals on this website majorly believe in But i believe in a afterlife of sorts. Not one of Heaven and hell but one where i. Death, there is no loss and we return to our true and amazing home.) as this life has become more and more burdensome to continue as I don't want to suffer for decades in various pains.
NOW, As it is with all 'easy' enough solutions (I see you Ligature Strangulation!) they are always tricky to get right and there are about a billion things that may go wrong. Maybe my head manages to stay above water or the water falls out just enough to keep my nose out of it…whatever.
What I need out of you people is a Solid and easy to get Knock-out/Temporary-Coma Cocktail of OTC Pills (preferably in the 15-25 pills amount) that will allot me a Brief window in which I can peacefully drown and return my Lovely infinite soul to the Aether.
I am NOT asking for a OTC drug cocktail that will cause OD or am I asking for a shoulder to cry on, Just the Knockout cocktail of pills will do.
The time to do this has been chosen, The bathtub is here (although I need a Drain cover lol) and I'm actively considering the perfect weigh-down-my-neck/head system, Doing my Research and considering fail-safe measurements (basically guaranteeing I don't get found out/'helped' before The Moment has passed). I'm trying to be as smart about this as I can be and consider every point of failure so the last thing I do is wake up disappointed I'm not dead. I'm doing my best through profound procrastination. I'll be trying out positions in my bathtub soon enough. Whether I should lay down or face forward. Please reccomend me on what you think is best.
I'm 5'10, in the 60-62 kg range. Also I know that SS barrs against active advice (which is bullcrap) so you're gonna have to tell me what I need to know/consider in creative ways by telling me to 'avoid' certain things because of how much you want me to 'live' or private message me if possible on this rather limited website.
Thank you! I appreciate your time and Hope I was AT-LEAST Half coherent.
Good morning, Good evening and Good night.
