Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[ManicPanic2018]

Dawn of the final day.

The moon is crashing tonight. And I am ready.

 

[Life_and_Death]

"just take your pill"
shut up!

i look at things upsetting me and i think that wouldnt have happened if i took my medication... but i dont want to...i just have this physical...eeeeh i dont want to. ill have a headache and i can sit there with a drink and an advil for an hour or longer sometimes before taking it. i have no idea what my aversion is

 

[RickSanchez2022]

Pain

 

[rainbowbright]

I feel lonely, frustrated, bored and in need of affection.
So bloody tired constantly

 

[ihatemyseIf]

emptiness

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Cold in my bones. Tired, sadder than sad. Just want to sleep forever.

 

[Life_and_Death]

wanting a friend but knowing its not worth it..

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Why do people watch horror movies? If you want to be disgusted and/or terrified, just read the news...

I just look in the mirror and see what my life has become.

 

[hungry_ghost]

Anything I try to derive a benefit from, backfires. Every. Single. Thing.

I experiment a lot, because I always searching for a solution to a problem. But I swear to God, what seems to work for everyone else in some capacity, does not give way for me.

I am exhausted. Literally, my brain feels as though it is corroding. I just want one good dopamine hit. One.

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

If I don't kill myself due to my depression, it'll be due to annoyance. I hate myself and my habitual need to avoid everything. But I also don't need someone confronting me with my faults every week.

At this point, I almost want to ask someone to kill me, because I know I'm not strong enough to do it myself.

 

[Sadness20]

I just feel so done. Done with all these overwhelming emotions. I want to fucking die. People don't care about me. Everyone just tells me off if I try to get help. I can't take this anymore

 

[Lullaby]

Every week there's some new problem that I have to deal with or try to overcome. So tired of this

For once, I just want a break. I wish everything would go okay and I could just sit back for a while…so tired of having rack my brain figuring out how to climb a new mountain.

 

[StolenLife]

I've chosen some dates. December 21 2022, January 26 2023 or anywhere in the period between February 27 and March 5 2023. I guess I'll have to stay in med school for now so that I don't lose the access to The Bridge.

 

[KQuotientW]

Yesterday, I called a free telephone counselling line, in Australia, called Lifeline, and even the counsellor didn't know what to say. Once again, I've stumped the phone counsellor.

Right now, it's raining again. I'm waiting for it to stop raining for long enough so I can light charcoal outside, then bring it inside when it stops smoking. Ugh! This rain just won't stop. I really wanted tonight to be the night that I CTB. It's very windy, so if I light it on the porch, the smoke will just blow indoors. I really can't fkn win.

 

[On Replay]

Trapped

 

[Leemel]

Sad,angry unmotivated, depressed, you name it I'm it.

 

[rainbowbright]

Nervous

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Heartbroken

 

[BitterlyAlive_]

I feel so stupid and worthless. Sometimes I hate that I promised to try to stick around for a year, because it's so difficult to 'keep going'. My life is fine, I'm fortunate and in a safe place. But I'm so miserable, so weak. I know I drag people down, people avoid me for good reason. I'm toxic but I can't make it stop.

I'm only hurting people more by staying here. I would be helping people by dying. I can't stand to be alive.

 

[rainbowbright]

I don't feel well, maybe I didn't get over the pnemonia fully, I knew I should have taken another course of antibiotics but I just always feel like they don't speed things along. Meant to be working Sunday and now this happens, hopefully it's a one off and I will feel better tomorrow as I have no idea the new rules with cancelling shifts as they are being secretive bastards as usual. No wonder we wanna strike it's not just pay it's the way we are treated, all just a number to them

 

[Anonymus]

Very sad because I sense that something very dire is approaching... I've been suffering for months in December but once we get closer I notice that it's gaining strength in November (especially the second fortnight). I don't know what it is and it's been years since I learned not to get caught up in trying to figure it out.

All the sensations I've had since shortly before the age of 13 have really passed and that's why I'm suffering so much this time, because now I have the feeling that I won't get over it.
I'm very sad...

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Molta tristor perqué percebo que s'apropa alguna cosa molt funesta.. estic patint de fa mesos pel desembre pero un cop ens anem apropant ja noto que agafa força al novembre (sobretot la segona quinzena). No se pas que és i ja fa anys que vaig aprendre a no capficar-m'hi intentant-ho esbrinar.

Totes les sensacions que he tingut desde poc abans del 13 anys han passat realment i per aixó pateixo tant aquesta vegada, perquè ara tinc la sensació que no m'ensortiré pas.
Estic molt trist...

 

[rainbowbright]

Why does nobody ever stick around

 

[Murasa]

A little ache keeps oscillating between my head and my ears, I don't know what it means worse I'm already getting paranoid

 

[angelfeather]

I am back in that dark place again. Hence why I am back here. It's time to cut people off again. There's only so many times you can ask for help…

 

[Celerity]

At work, multiple customers treated me like shit, and I got fed up with humanity.

When I got home, I decided to wind down with some booze. A young, wistful part of me still yearns for love while the experienced face I show to the world could care less about attachment at this point.

I keep digging and digging and digging at this wound like a preoccupied meth-head. I clear tougher and tougher scar tissue in the naive hope that, someday, it will all be better.

 

[Hirokami]

My life has been overtly stressful as of late, even more than usual. My vacation is almost at an end and this second and final week has been shit. Really shit. Couldn't even enjoy my vacation as inflation had to fuck me over. I think this was my breaking point. From now on, I think I'm just going to numb myself.

 

[Zegers]

It wasn't a bad day, i talked to some people without feeling too anxious, calmer than usual, more energy than usual and i was close to a reasonable state of mind but i guess tomorrow will be the same... it makes me think when i was not feeling all time low.

 

[Life_and_Death]

i wanted to do a puzzle with my SO, but instead i bitch about my cat (deserved), wasting time so we cant (i have to leave shortly).
mental illness always gets in the way of things. i should have just dropped it and did a puzzle but NOOOO because after it was started we were having a conversation although he probably would have preferred if i dropped it

 

[WhatPowerIs]

I feel like I'm going to explode. I feel like I am living my life wrong.

 

[Anon1337]

Tired of living this pointless life. Tired of having to put on a facade. Tired of being lonely. I'm tired.