Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[PepperJam]

Empty, but at peace with it. The only thing I really feel is this imminent sense of impending finality. With my closest friend being terminally ill, I know the day she dies, I'll absolutely fall apart mentally and won't have the strength to go on. Life has an almost surreal aspect to it now, as if I'm walking through a memory.

 

[LigottiIsRight]

I feel deeply bored and tired of being stuck in thought loops (which is almost a daily routine). If I had a gun, I could end things right now.
I think I've reached that point where one isn't keep on living for having reasons to, but for not being able to overcome psychological barriers to die.

 

[dead dav]

Exhausted sore

 

[Dejected 55]

I have a mild headache, maybe it will get worse, I don't know. The only time I'm not actively miserable is when I am in a state of malaise. I think I'm in malaise at the moment. The pain and misery will come soon, though. The bank is starting to ramp up the "where is the house payment" attempts to contact. That's going to be a constant thing soon. I don't answer my phone, though. Nobody calls unless it is about a late payment. These are the endtimes, when bills aren't paid and bill collectors start to bother and harass and I'm just waiting to get in the right frame of mind to try and end it all and home my endgame works the first time. Getting closer every day.

 

[ankawannadie]

It feels like Im sinking. Im just scared.

 

[darksouls]

still trapped in my worst nightmare
THE REALITY
not able to end it
I cant stand it anymore
unbearable depression
I want to be freed from my suffering