x~Sophia~x
Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
- Sep 10, 2020
- 1,361
@Phil122 are you still with us?
Ramirez
Criminally insane
- Jun 10, 2019
- 396
i tried so hard. ill be stuck in here forever. i cant stop crying. FUCK.
fuck im so fucked.
fuck im so fucked.
dropdeadfred
Boarding the bus to Everlasting Dreamland ♡
- Oct 19, 2020
- 256
It's alright, bud. Everyone is here for you. & It won't last forever.
Ramirez
Criminally insane
- Jun 10, 2019
- 396
fuck. i cant take this. im soo fucked.
ecmnesia
the only thing humans are equal in is death
- Aug 30, 2020
- 767
your time will come Phil, it's ok. don't place yet one more burden in your shoulders. things have been hard enough for you. when you are ready, you will go though. there is no need to rush. although hard things can still be fixed. you'll have plenty days left to try it again if that's your wish.
let it all out. but remember it's okay. you are human. you matter. and we are here for you.
let it all out. but remember it's okay. you are human. you matter. and we are here for you.
x~Sophia~x
Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
- Sep 10, 2020
- 1,361
We're here for you, we'll help you to get through this Phil. I'm so sorry, but for now, you need to rest. You must be exhausted :(
_Kaira_
This Isn't Fine
- Oct 2, 2020
- 826
It's ok
. You're scared, it's understandable. If I could hug and comfort you right now I would. I'm so, so sorry.
Ramirez
Criminally insane
- Jun 10, 2019
- 396
why?? this was suppused to be itl. i cant get over it.
Try to sleep. You may be able to process better in the morning. The bus will be there later if you want it. Alcohol might be making it harder to think things out.
Ramirez
Criminally insane
- Jun 10, 2019
- 396
I cant stop crying. why?? i dont want it anymore.
x~Sophia~x
Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
- Sep 10, 2020
- 1,361
Because its bloody hard! SI is a bastard!!
CoalmineCanary
Member
- Jul 15, 2020
- 478
Deleted member 23586
Hope ur final midnight feels like the hug you need
- Nov 8, 2020
- 208
Don't be so hard on yourself love. You are so strong, and this one very human moment doesnt define you as a coward or weak. You got us ok?
_Kaira_
This Isn't Fine
- Oct 2, 2020
- 826
This. The bus will always be there if you so choose to board it...
It hurts me to see you struggling with this choice, Phil. SI really does suck, the alcohol does not seem to be helping your choice. Again, you really should sleep on it. We are here. We are willing to talk with you more on it. You can think about a later date when you feel more ready for this.
Ramirez
Criminally insane
- Jun 10, 2019
- 396
i need to leave. i cant take it. why?? am i still here. ugh. will try again.
dropdeadfred
Boarding the bus to Everlasting Dreamland ♡
- Oct 19, 2020
- 256
Consider this... if you attempted tonight, things could have possibly gone terribly wrong & you weren't able to get your out. No one has a definite answer. The universe does, though. You will be okay, man.
CoalmineCanary
Member
- Jul 15, 2020
- 478
We all have big (metaphorical) shoulders to cry on. That's why we're here.
That's why we're here.
Ramirez
Criminally insane
- Jun 10, 2019
- 396
people kill themself without any drugs or alc. just jumping from their apartment. and i cant do this wtf??
love the english accent. :DD- and yeah it sucks.
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dropdeadfred
Boarding the bus to Everlasting Dreamland ♡
- Oct 19, 2020
- 256
It's not fair to not have peace when we want it; when every fiber of our being craves it. You will have your moment. I hope you are good to yourself until that time comes. Maybe you will have all of your answers soon. I'm certainly sending those hopes your way.
x~Sophia~x
Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
- Sep 10, 2020
- 1,361
Don't believe it's easy for anyone, it's shit and it's scary as f*k! Tomorrow's another day (so the saying goes), and that bus ain't going without you. But it's parked up, for tonight.
Ramirez
Criminally insane
- Jun 10, 2019
- 396
fighting my si. theres nothign for me left. this has to happen. my cowardice is off the charts im sorry guys.
CoalmineCanary
Member
- Jul 15, 2020
- 478
Sounds like you find that accent irresistible! :DD
No wonder it's so bloody hard to do it?
lobster salad
overcooked :(
- Aug 27, 2020
- 246
Well there's still a flickering candle in you that has not burnt out yet which is probably why you can't make it just yet. Wait till it burns out, you may take a rest for today while waiting. Wait till you become homeless.. maybe that would be the time, maybe not.
Ramirez
Criminally insane
- Jun 10, 2019
- 396
i love the english accent.Sounds like you find that accent irresistible! :DD
No wonder it's so bloody hard to do it?
megafire
burn it down
- Oct 12, 2020
- 89
please stop apologizing, you've done nothing wrong but fear for the unknown- which is a totally reasonable thing to do!! sometimes its the only thing keeping me here.
like others have said, i know you've said it has to be tonight, but does it have to be? give yourself a chance to sober up and think it over.
sending you oh so much love phil. we're here for you *hugs*
Ramirez
Criminally insane
- Jun 10, 2019
- 396
i used up all my money. i burned all the bridges. if i cant do it in couple of hours i wont be ever able to. i dont want to be homeless and alone. why??? lots of pp. do it. why cant it? ive have to try again. imma give mylsels some minutes to calm down but i need to leave.
prisoners do it with their corona mask. but i cant. cuz im too scared. i need to to do this.
prisoners do it with their corona mask. but i cant. cuz im too scared. i need to to do this.
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x~Sophia~x
Always give 100% - unless you’re donating blood.
- Sep 10, 2020
- 1,361
So sorry you're suffering and finding it so hard to leave. It's not easy, and your chosen method would scare the f out of most people, me included. Could it be that you need to rethink your method?
CoalmineCanary
Member
- Jul 15, 2020
- 478
_Kaira_
This Isn't Fine
- Oct 2, 2020
- 826
You don't have to be homeless. Depending on where you live, you can look up so many resources that help people who need it the most. It's not the most ideal situation, but you can build your life back up, you really don't sound like you're 100% ready to die. There's still some life fighting in you.
You're not fully alone. It may not be as good as real life, but everyone here is thinking of you. You can lean on us until you can get back on your feet, hun.
Re-evaluate your options. Perhaps think more in depth about your method choice. Exhaust every option you can, and if it still doesn't work out, then try again. Death is horrible, suicide is a choice none of us should ever feel forced to make.
I know none of us can talk you out of it. But please, consider everything we've been saying. Do you really want to die?
