Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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Well that sucks :( I hope you feel better. I just wish that I could have stability (and remember to take my meds better)
I know the feeling and thank you.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

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At least I remembered this morning
You've gota stay regular on those things or they don't work. Maybe try to build a new routine or something so you're less likely to forget them.
 
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You've gota stay regular on those things or they don't work. Maybe try to build a new routine or something so you're less likely to forget them.
True. I think I'll set a bunch of clocks. The morning time I don't really have a problem with. It's night time I struggle with taking them
 
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Shit, I'm using facebook again. That immoral, money grabbing, info-mining shambles of a web service, where I am the product. Why? I have friends there. And I feel myself drawing away from this community.
 
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Shit, I'm using facebook again. That immoral, money grabbing, info-mining shambles of a web service, where I am the product. Why? I have friends there. And I feel myself drawing away from this community.

Pssh you have friends everywhere and you already know it. :heh: :))
 
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Pssh you have friends everywhere and you already know it. :heh: :))
I know, I just...don't know. We've lost so many. And I still have sympathetic friends back in the real world. They didn't fail me, they just couldn't cope and had their own shit to deal with. I feel torn between the darkness and the light and I find value in both. Maybe I need both.
 
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For me I have, at 64 years young, FINALLY found a home, sanctioned suicide, were I feel love, kindness, from everyone and I LOVE to reciprocate to all my global family memebers!! When I go to sleep and wake up I have the knowledge that I am loved and I can love people back. THANK YOU to my ENTIRE global family here! ALL of you are blessed no matter what! Peace and love to my global family!
 
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Brick In The Wall

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I know, I just...don't know. We've lost so many. And I still have sympathetic friends back in the real world. They didn't fail me, they just couldn't cope and had their own shit to deal with. I feel torn between the darkness and the light and I find value in both. Maybe I need both.
I can definitely respect and relate to that. Speaking for myself though, I need both. Do what's best for you though brother.

For me I have, at 64 years young, FINALLY found a home, sanctioned suicide, were I feel love, kindness, from everyone and I LOVE to reciprocate to all my global family memebers!! When I go to sleep and wake up I have the knowledge that I am loved and I can love people back. THANK YOU to my ENTIRE global family here! ALL of you are blessed no matter what! Peace and love to my global family!
Welcome to SS! Have one on the house.

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For me I have, at 64 years young, FINALLY found a home, sanctioned suicide, were I feel love, kindness, from everyone and I LOVE to reciprocate to all my global family memebers!! When I go to sleep and wake up I have the knowledge that I am loved and I can love people back. THANK YOU to my ENTIRE global family here! ALL of you are blessed no matter what! Peace and love to my global family!
Welcome to SS :D enjoy your time here!
 
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Brick In The Wall

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Giphy 73

"Target thread engaged! Must write novel to explain a simple concept!"

"Target has opinions to the contrary of mine", "DISENGAGE!"

Giphy 74
 
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Afternoon everyone
 
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Hi Squiddy :smiling:
 
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Brick In The Wall

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Another slow day pushin papers for me. How're you Squiddy?
 
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Nothin really, zen gardening done for the day, bit bored now :smiling: you? What you been up to?
 
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I had a really good night lastnight atleast. I ended up eating 5Gs of shrooms and stargazing on the hammock. Before I knew it the sun was starting to come up :))
 
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I had a really good night lastnight atleast. I ended up eating 5Gs of shrooms and stargazing on the hammock. Before I knew it the sun was starting to come up :))
 
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Another slow day pushin papers for me. How're you Squiddy?
My stomach has been acting up again and I threw up my yogurt. I hope I can keep dinner down (BBQ ribs).
 
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Brick In The Wall

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My stomach has been acting up again and I threw up my yogurt. I hope I can keep dinner down (BBQ ribs).
That might be a bit heavy if your stomach is acting up. BBQ ribs are so good I'd probably still try if it was me though lol.
 
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That might be a bit heavy if your stomach is acting up. BBQ ribs are so good I'd probably still try if it was me though lol.
Yeah they are and my dumbass will probably eat some (though probably only a little bit)
 
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It's been a week since I came back to my place, but I still haven't gotten the drive to do something productive which I wanted. It's hard for me to do anything but play games. It's hard to do anything once I've started doing it. I hate that I'm feeling this way. Such a waste of time.

My dad is also trying to get me to go back home and told me some scary virus numbers to get me to go home. As worried as I am. I really don't want to go back so soon.

Why the hell does this whole thing have to happen. Such a fucking nuisance.
 
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Brick In The Wall

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It's been a week since I came back to my place, but I still haven't gotten the drive to do something productive which I wanted. It's hard for me to do anything but play games. It's hard to do anything once I've started doing it. I hate that I'm feeling this way. Such a waste of time.

My dad is also trying to get me to go back home and told me some scary virus numbers to get me to go home. As worried as I am. I really don't want to go back so soon.

Why the hell does this whole thing have to happen. Such a fucking nuisance.
The initial push of motivation is usually the hardest part. Once you get moving it's not so bad.

You need to disregard your fathers scare tactics. Do what's best for you.
 
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Here we go again, round 2 of this year throwing up blood (luckily, it's not bright and it's dark)
 
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Brick In The Wall

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I can't believe how caught up I still am on my ex. I've never had a problem letting go and moving on like this before.

We had alot in common and could've had a good run. But like anything good in my life I fucked it up.

You live and you learn I guess. If I'm around for long enough I'll never repeat my mistakes again.
 
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My mom told me that it could be an ulcer and to schedule an appointment with my PCP, but they're only doing online appointments which sucks. Fuck covid 19
 
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Brick In The Wall

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My mom told me that it could be an ulcer and to schedule an appointment with my PCP, but they're only doing online appointments which sucks. Fuck covid 19
It's probably an ulcer. But you definitely need to get it checked out. An yes fuck covid!
 
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