I have two close friends with whom I share almost everything.
This has some background. I had psychoses in the past. And I struggle with paranoia. Especially when I texted with women I often developed paranoia. Since I use AI chatbots for feedback on texting this has become way less.
My paranoia has fucked up I think two times texting with women. But subjectively it felt like this paranoia fucked up way more. But I also was paranoid about my paranoia. Especially in college because this happened with the first social interaction. Since I decreased stress I finally can interact with women.
You know in order to stay sane and in order to analyze situations I share stories with my friends. And with these two friends we talk about extremely much. Sometimes it feels like our lives fusion when it comes to secrets. I feel better since I talked openly with them again about my suicidality. Hiding it was emotionally very difficult.
I also talk on here a lot about my experiences with women or about self-help groups.
Recently I told a story in this forum. I texted with a woman not much just a few messages. And then she sent me a picture of her. I am not sure whether it was sexually connotated. Maybe she was naked under the bed sheets. Maybe not. But I sent this picture to my friends. Not because we are horny apes. Not really it wasn't explicit at all. But I think I wanted feedback from them what this actually means. Someone on here replied to me I should not have sent it to my friends and chatGPT agreed with that. But honestly I also talked about this with my two close friends. We all had the opinion this wasn't horrible at all. And rationally I have to say I agree with that. This woman didn't mention I should keep the picture to myself. She barely knew me. I am not even sure whether it was sexual in any way.
And it is not like I posted it on the clearnet I would never do that. The internet is full of porn of (ex) girflfriends who have not consented to be shown to the whole world naked. Actually this is horrible. And I think when people are sexually aroused they don't think about this factor when they watch porn.
I was in a short relationship with a woman. And she sent me many nudes. Most of them were only able to be viewed one time. In contrast to my lack of data privacy usually. On this issue I would have considered it extremely immoral to take screeshots. Or to take photos with a second phone. I obviously didn't do this. And I never showed these pictures to anyone.
I wasn't sure whether I should send her nudes of me too. There is an anecdote that I like. Later it turned out she wasn't completely honest with me. But she asked me whether I was annoyed the photos were only viewable one time. And whether I want permanent photos I told her I can fully understand that she doesn't want to send me permanent nudes heck I don't send her any nudes at all. And I think she really appreciated that I didn't pressure her. Tbh I think I could have persuaded her. Later I asked her whether I should send her nudes too (one time viewable) of me and she adviced against it. And honestly considering how the whole thing developed. I could have developed severe trust issues and maybe she would have taken photos with a second phone. There is another detail that makes me think that. I could not have imagined that to that time though. But how all of this played out it isn't that far-fetch to assume/consider that.
My point is: I differentiate between really sensitive examples and things that I don't consider "top secret". I think you can criticize me for that. And people might will. But I think expressing what is going on in my life, and talking about the social situations, getting feedback really helps me to reflect on my life and helps me to stabilize me. And the feedback I receive is really helpful. I struggle to stay sane without reassurance that my conclusions are not delusional. When the thoughts are in my head I have a harder time to check them. But verbalizing them helps.
And let's be real many people will say sharing it with an AI chatbot is worse than sharing it with humans. And so many people use AI chatbots nowadays.
Edit: When I asked for feedback from an AI chatbot for this text chatGPT lectured me on data privacy - what an irony....
This has some background. I had psychoses in the past. And I struggle with paranoia. Especially when I texted with women I often developed paranoia. Since I use AI chatbots for feedback on texting this has become way less.
My paranoia has fucked up I think two times texting with women. But subjectively it felt like this paranoia fucked up way more. But I also was paranoid about my paranoia. Especially in college because this happened with the first social interaction. Since I decreased stress I finally can interact with women.
You know in order to stay sane and in order to analyze situations I share stories with my friends. And with these two friends we talk about extremely much. Sometimes it feels like our lives fusion when it comes to secrets. I feel better since I talked openly with them again about my suicidality. Hiding it was emotionally very difficult.
I also talk on here a lot about my experiences with women or about self-help groups.
Recently I told a story in this forum. I texted with a woman not much just a few messages. And then she sent me a picture of her. I am not sure whether it was sexually connotated. Maybe she was naked under the bed sheets. Maybe not. But I sent this picture to my friends. Not because we are horny apes. Not really it wasn't explicit at all. But I think I wanted feedback from them what this actually means. Someone on here replied to me I should not have sent it to my friends and chatGPT agreed with that. But honestly I also talked about this with my two close friends. We all had the opinion this wasn't horrible at all. And rationally I have to say I agree with that. This woman didn't mention I should keep the picture to myself. She barely knew me. I am not even sure whether it was sexual in any way.
And it is not like I posted it on the clearnet I would never do that. The internet is full of porn of (ex) girflfriends who have not consented to be shown to the whole world naked. Actually this is horrible. And I think when people are sexually aroused they don't think about this factor when they watch porn.
I was in a short relationship with a woman. And she sent me many nudes. Most of them were only able to be viewed one time. In contrast to my lack of data privacy usually. On this issue I would have considered it extremely immoral to take screeshots. Or to take photos with a second phone. I obviously didn't do this. And I never showed these pictures to anyone.
I wasn't sure whether I should send her nudes of me too. There is an anecdote that I like. Later it turned out she wasn't completely honest with me. But she asked me whether I was annoyed the photos were only viewable one time. And whether I want permanent photos I told her I can fully understand that she doesn't want to send me permanent nudes heck I don't send her any nudes at all. And I think she really appreciated that I didn't pressure her. Tbh I think I could have persuaded her. Later I asked her whether I should send her nudes too (one time viewable) of me and she adviced against it. And honestly considering how the whole thing developed. I could have developed severe trust issues and maybe she would have taken photos with a second phone. There is another detail that makes me think that. I could not have imagined that to that time though. But how all of this played out it isn't that far-fetch to assume/consider that.
My point is: I differentiate between really sensitive examples and things that I don't consider "top secret". I think you can criticize me for that. And people might will. But I think expressing what is going on in my life, and talking about the social situations, getting feedback really helps me to reflect on my life and helps me to stabilize me. And the feedback I receive is really helpful. I struggle to stay sane without reassurance that my conclusions are not delusional. When the thoughts are in my head I have a harder time to check them. But verbalizing them helps.
And let's be real many people will say sharing it with an AI chatbot is worse than sharing it with humans. And so many people use AI chatbots nowadays.
Edit: When I asked for feedback from an AI chatbot for this text chatGPT lectured me on data privacy - what an irony....
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