Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[RURIRA]

10 Honestly, I don't think anything happening now can prevent me from ctbing tomorrow, unless I somehow receive a tremendous amount of money in my bank account (btw it's totally unlikely to happen)

 

[lovedread]

7/8. I know if I don't get help asap im gonna end up taking my own life soon

 

[SchizoPolyGymnast]

I have two approaches to this: one rates my feelings and the other rates my level of intent.

My level of suicidal ideation is probably at a six right now. My intent to die? Right now is a 2.

 

[ImTelling]

Definitely a high 7. I'm very confident I'll CTB before my birthday but at the same time I cannot say that I am desperate for release as soon as possible.

If I had a gun I would do it today but I don't, so waiting for a more realistic method is what I'll have to do.

 

[goodoldnoname923]

It varies day to day,i'm not sure where it's at currently I'm having to much emotional pain and trauma and worry to even think about suicide currently but perhaps 4 rn? But it certainly goes around 8 alot of the time

 

[totheendofinfinity]

10, it's all I think about.

 

[anxious_depressive]

10

 

[HopeToStay]

About a 6 atm, but it's entirely dependent on some medical outcomes. If everything recovers then it'll go back down to the baseline 2. But if it's as bad as i fear it is, then it's genuinely going to be hard to see what the point of continuing my life is.

 

[LivedTooLong]

9

 

[Leon1114]

8.5

 

[CantDoIt]

7 Or 8.
Not a lot of about what I want to do but I'm nervous and waiting to see if I can get N and Benzos. I'm also working through it.

 

[mateusz432]

6

 

[enough of this]

Today, I'm at 2, which is a bit lower than usual. I'm so sick of being sick. But I'm feeling a little better today.

 

[WallowingWillow]

8.5

 

[daysnumbered]

8

 

[Oblivion]

It's always been 10 since more than 20 years, but the courage and the iron will to do it had always been zero, i'm stuck in a literal nightmare with agony and torment day and night and i still can't do it. i wish someone can do it for me, this should be a fucking human right.

 

[kilowatt]

How sure I am of wanting to CTB would be an easy 10, but how much I'm determined to do it in this moment is probably around a 7.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

As of recent, a solid 9.

 

[Maravillosa]

Maybe 2.5 -- ctb is a someday thing for me: too much to get done before I can think of dying.

 

[vinlander]

A solid 8, school and close friends always crossing my mind through out the day but i would still ctb at any given moment

 

[Emeralds]

8

 

[Onelessstraw]

About an 8, if I had the tools for a pain free way out I'd do it but I don't

 

[let.me.let.go87]

7 but I think I'm kidding myself when I tell doctors and everyone else I'm doing better. I've been trying to fake it til I make it guess. Today already started off bad

 

[Gstreater]

7 I've slowly been slipping more if nothing changes soon I'll probably find a way to CTB

 

[PinballWizard39]

9, bordering on 10 - if 10 is CTB

 

[Syrka]

6
By the way this is my first message. Thanks for the forum. I feel identified with everyone.

 

[max_vader2]

10', I have anhedonia/ cant feel pleasure. on top of that o have a constant sense of impending doom

I also had anhedonia. Doc gave me bupropion, which helps a lot (dopamine retake inhibitor)

It does nothing for the sadness or my incapacity to project my self in the future. But at least I get to enjoy playing with my kids

 

[Thisisnotaname]

Before first attemp I throught I was on the hightest side of this rating but few attempt later I think I'm at 6/7. The last act is fukin hard to do so when you attempted many times and can't do it, you're not really suicidal as you think but near tbh

 

[Nothing87]

10. I can kill myself anytime and I am ready to die but my responsibilities and duties are the ones keeping me alive.

 

[a.hamza.13]

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