Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[JustAnx]

Today i feel like i'm at a 6.

Woke up, prepared my breakfast and while eating my mind was going about logistics

 

[Nero999]

This morning 7 to 8. Now, 2.30pm about 4

 

[depthss]

11

 

[deadeyesnowman]

10...

It really tells something when I ask people to NOT celebrate my birthday and waste their meaningless birthday wishes when it is my funeral instead.

 

[zenirsar]

9... Originally I planned to it in december but I feel like I'm gonna attempt it way sooner.

 

[JustAnx]

Good morning. Last nite my SI went up a little bit, but it was most out of fear and anxiety so last night i think i was at 5.

Today i'm at 7 i think or 6.5 idk

 

[Valhala]

7 - 9

 

[Tiny Little Fairy]

Up until last week it was a 6

Now it just went up to a 9

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

A moderate 5-6 most of the day. One of my friends being on a high horse all day isn't helping. Passively suicidal recently, but I hide it well, I think.

 

[__dystop1a__]

10

 

[8more2go]

Past couple weeks it's been a 2-3, baseline level of "well ideally I wish I was never born and maybe some day in a few years I'll pull the trigger, but for now Im having a good time", but as of today it's shot up for a 6 or 7, as in actively wishing I could do it, knowing that I have a method on hand, and still not really feeling up to doing it quite yet. Skipped like most of work today, and I gotta go back in tomorrow.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

8.

 

[j1nxxb0yjj4ke]

8-9, maybe 10?
I want to die, oh god..

 

[-Pain-]

it's been an 8 this week

 

[limerance1]

solid 4 aka background music equivalent of suicidal thoughts

 

[pilotviolin]

6-8 i have been losing the plot to the point its useless to talk anyone or post about it in depth because itd be delusional gibberish or not self aware emotional word vomit

 

[wellitisnotwhatitis]

Honestly now it's hard 7, tho I managed to take it down to like 3 for several months. Now everything is crumbling again.

 

[OldManOfTheLake]

5, if I get the bad news I am dreading it's going to 1000 lol.

 

[whywere]

Today 9

It took over 2.5 hours to fill 1 prescription for chronic pain as the pharmacy was in total disarray from the get-go.

Finally had a SUPER gracious RN nurse come with me to the pharmacy and get them straightened out.

Walter

 

[sanctuary2]

4

 

[zulu123]

Today about a 6 or 7. Most days 8 or 9.

 

[DeathFool]

9 . I hope I die before new year

 

[death's_door]

It's a roller coaster between 7-8.5/9.

 

[Kassender]

i´d say 9 right now because i´d like to think 10 is when i finally jump off the ledge

but it´s constant lately, i don´t do anything anymore but scroll on my phone, wishing i was dead

 

[fishtan]

Probably a 7, I think about it in heavy detail but I am not ready to actually do it yet.

 

[Speedygonzalez]

I'm a 5 today. Household tasks kept my physical body busy which in turn helped. It's when I'm laying in bed like now that the thoughts of ctb come on heavy. Doesn't help that the girl I'm with stuck me in an open relationship and is out with other guys all the time having sex.

 

[SA1994EC]

It is between 7 to 9 chronically. I wish it were 10 to stop the pain.

 

[Buffy]

Today is an alright day, so a 4.

 

[onetimereject]

10, i'm relapsing and my tears do not stop. I'm extremely confused on how to stop it.

 

[doctordetritus]

all over the place, but today, seven point arghhhhhhhhhh