Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[onetimereject]

10, i'm relapsing and my tears do not stop. I'm extremely confused on how to stop it.

 

[doctordetritus]

all over the place, but today, seven point arghhhhhhhhhh

 

[noname37]

10, I want to do it so badly. Nothing in life really excites me anymore. My mind is always focused on it

 

[isolatedl111]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

10

 

[atre]

9. I extracted 1 point because I know I won't do it soon. Attempting to commit suicide while living with parents is not desirable for me. However, I have a realistic chance to get a job with enough pay to rent an apartment in the near future, I postponed my plans.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

When I'm high 10, when not about 7/8

 

[Gone soon]

10

It has been that way for many years and never changed

 

[-Pain-]

these last 10 days been a 9/10, relapsed into sh

 

[TheHolySword]

Feeling 10. I do not have access to my method yet but I am ready to find the tallest building. Forcing myself to stay alive every day at this point. Don't know if it'll be possible to keep going when SN arrives. I'm ready.

 

[TragedyBornCrimson]

10 I'm am going to ctb I have no other option, lest I experience extreme emotional anguish

Feeling 10. I do not have access to my method yet but I am ready to find the tallest building. Forcing myself to stay alive every day at this point. Don't know if it'll be possible to keep going when SN arrives. I'm ready.

Same

 

[W3akCr3atur3]

8

 

[returntothestars]

I'm constantly hovering between 7-8.

 

[avoid_slow_death]

8. Am fucking so tired of the bullshit.

 

[fuewybfunsfoiceoi]

9, ctb practice every week yet there have been not too many signs of success, I have no idea if I'm improving at all

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

9-10

 

[Igotaplane]

Today it's been about a 9, I don't think I'm going to do anything today just because the house is full of people but if i was alone or managed to find a way to CTB today i absolutely would

 

[Timelapse]

Always at 9

10 when I'm in crisis

0 the first three seconds after i wake up

I actually cry when i wake up knowing I'm still alive..... its taxing.

 

[Ashes of a Dreamer]

10

 

[yowai]

10 every thing that i could fuck up in my life i already did

 

[been__ready]

10/10

 

[Grav]

8

 

[Skylar6]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

10. reached braking point a few weeks ago. came here for relevant info. Have experimented and perfected my method. Today is the perfect opportunity.

 

[happier than ever]

8, ill be gone in a few days

 

[GlassMoon]

0 the first three seconds after i wake up

I'm mostly woken up by the alarm clock, then the first 5 seconds always feel like I'm at a 7...

These days I'm at a 2, but pain is coming back and that might drive the number up soon enough...

 

[NoHalfMeasures]

Today is about a 2. I will be playing some games with friends today, which is always a good distraction. But when I experience the "triggers" for my suicidal thoughts, I can go from a 2 to an 8 really quick.

 

[us_1999]

9

 

[Electra]

Like a 2

 

[Reflection]

8 today. Sometimes a 4 or 5.

 

[zawmbite]

currently listening to bjork so it's a 2 right now, but if i stop listening to music or a podcast and i think about things too much, it'll go to a 6-7. BUT! today is thursday so there is another severance episode coming out tonight.. maybe that lowers it a bit.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Maybe a 9 today? As of a couple weeks ago, maybe it would a 5 or so, but I've recently bombed a test and my birthday is coming soon so I'm not thrilled about being older. I guess I can be happy that I'm 1 year closer to death.