Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[25jiyuki]

Feels like I'm permanently around 7-8.

 

[Valhala]

6 - 8

 

[Saturn_]

Something like a 5 today?

 

[Rhymester]

Today it's a 10. Probably because my exit is soon, and I don't feel like anyone cares anymore. You'd expect people to forget about you when you die, but I haven't died yet, and I already feel like I've been forgotten by everyone.

 

[Nadienobody]

Around 6, I am trying to recover but it feels like I'm not making any progress, I am alone, no job and my anxiety just keeps getting worse.

 

[HazelTheGhost]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

10

 

[g0ne1nthew1nd]

8 bc im almost always but then i get fear or suddenly stop being numb. Otherwise, consistent and strong enough to almost die every week (plan, items nearby, then a sudden fear and emotion)

 

[Confusedsoul12345]

9

 

[waistcoat]

teetering around a 5 or 6

 

[Michi_Violeta]

7. I'm still on the fence, but with each passing day I feel it's the only way forward. It's odd: my body and my subconscious feel better, like I could move on and let go and give life another shot, but my conscious self is so tired of always giving life another shot only for things to end up like last year: broken heart, broken racecar, broken dreams. Tomorrow I'll try and take a step forwards and start looking for SN before I chicken out.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

8-10.

 

[Eudaimonic]

5-6 right now, but the past few weeks I have been 7-9. I feel a modicum more hope, but it's probably delusion.

 

[BlueLock]

It's different day to day. This week it's been a solid 7.

 

[snowlance]

9, the only things stopping me at this point are my fear of an afterlife, SI, and not having a peaceful method. Ive pretty much given up on everything else at this point...

 

[fuewybfunsfoiceoi]

10!

I was just about ready to ctb this weekend after having collected 56g of yew leaves, and then realised, F! The sort of yew I had picked is the least poisonous kind of all of the taxus genus. I likely won't be able to ctb if I ate these things. I'd been so hopeful, now I'm back to being a sitting duck.

 

[areyousafe??]

9. It's never been this strong before. I hope to be gone by the end of this month.

 

[dead dav]

I would say 6 at present

 

[SA1994EC]

9.6

 

[Soontocatch]

Around 5-6 but then if I start thinking about whats going to happen further down my life it goes up to a 9