Rate your suicidal thoughts thread (1-10)

[mashka9]

like 2, ab to get released from a psych ward today lol

 

[SeaBreeze]

7 yesterday
6 today
Periodontal appointment tomorrow...

 

[LifeTransit_1]

5 right now... though it has gone to a 9 earlier this year tbh.

 

[Heading to Darkness]

1 is very low suicidality, 10 is very extreme acute suicidality. I miss the old thread (which is deleted) that is way I want to revive him.

My suicidal thoughts today are a 4. I have some distractions and responsibilities which prevent more of these thoughts.

definately 10 I ctb today

 

[Anonymus]

8

 

[LivedTooLong]

8-9. Really struggling.

 

[user56765567]

8-9

 

[Yaffle]

Solid 9 right now

 

[Lycan]

11.

 

[Nobody1]

During the day I fake that I'm happy and everyone thinks that I'm always so happy. When I'm finally alone I would rate it a 9. I would be dead already if I wasn't so scared. I will be gone soon.

 

[Anonymus]

8

 

[Praestat_Mori]

currently 5

still suicidal but no urge to do it soon, although it'd be better to be gone.

 

[tiger b]

3

Big improvement from a week ago.

 

[anxious_depressive]

8

 

[maka]

10. Tired of seeing everyone else with loved ones while I have to navigate this world entirely alone. I kept listening to the assholes saying it would get better but honestly I should've just gotten it over with when I was 11 and it was easier.

 

[Heartaches]

7. Everytime I think I'll finally find my place in this world, I end up more disappointed than before; I feel lonelier, more pathethic, depressed, hopeless. I think I'm good for nothing. I'd prefer if things just ended now, I'm barely functional and have a hard time getting any type of help.​

 

[Kit1]

9. Just want to be dead. The pain is non stop now and probably will need to end my life soon as I cannot access treatment.

 

[Lullaby]

10 - more than anything, I wish had the courage to end it now. I hate this so much

 

[hopelessoceanic25]

Around an 8 today.

 

[haibane]

10, if i had a reliable method to ctb i would do it immediately. I dont see any positive outcomes from living any longer.

 

[Kundalini Guy]

3

 

[huphup]

I think 6-7, but starting new meds so could go up :)

 

[SeaBreeze]

7 yesterday
9 today

 

[alienoforces]

it usually varies between 7-9, maybe a 6 on a good day. suicidal ideation is something i've really struggled with since i was young, so i don't see that changing anytime soon lol.

 

[mysadstuff]

6ish

 

[Kit1]

9

 

[noname223]

4. The next few weeks gonna be a nightmare. I have to study so fucking hard for the exams. I get pretty depressed by it. I got paranoid in my self-help group. It was pretty crazy. My paranoid thoughts changed a lot pretty fast. I had the hope a woman there would like me. But I think her interest in me stopped when I talked about my illness which hurts pretty much. But I still cling to the hope she might give me a chance.
However I cannot go there anymore (for now). Thoughts about love stress me so fucking much. I cannot handle that combined with the exams.

I invest money in my style and outer appearance but when I talk about my really big issues the women run away...Holy shit I pray I die soon. I am losing a lot of weight. As a countermeasure I eat sweets and very unhealthy food. But I keep losing weight which is weird. I hope it is something that is lethal, peaceful and fast. I won't go to a doctor. The stresses probably only fucked up my feeling of hunger. I forget to eat. But still this is very very weird. The last time I ate this unhealthy is a decade ago. I think my body shows symptoms of a severe deterioration because of the mental agony.

 

[SMmetalhead36]

8.5-9

 

[Fktw0rld]

About a 4 today. But I need to get focused because my deadline is approaching

 

[Kit1]

9